Mal-education

I was 16 when we began to study a simplified version of the writings of Thomas Aquinas.I believe now it was a very badly written book as I could see flaws in the arguments.But the most striking effect on me was that I had never questioned the existence of God.
When I began to study the book I thought:So they are not sure!
I think the nuns would have been horrified if I had said that.We were also told that we must not apply to University to do philosophy as they would not allow it.Because it might makes us lose our Faith

So I learned God might not exist and  that people  like myself might lose their Faith.That book we had we read over and over for 2 years.Eventually I lost the type of Faith they had tried to defend but I did not entirely lose the notion of spiritual  or religious experience being possible.And also I am sure there is a God of some sort but there are many ways to find him/her/them including becoming an atheist after going to a school like mine which would open one to other possibilities.