I know that's how death will come,
Suddenly flying into another orbit when I am photographing flowers
It's not a gentle transition.
No-one will know where I've gone.
One step wrong and I'm off the high wire
And plunging into the no safety net.
Flying for a while
Jumping into hyperspace,spinning electrons
Startle my wide eyes.
Transiting the new black sun
I'm on a double gold helix,
Spider on her web,
Knitting furiously
Into the future heaven on gossamer wings.
Butterfly goodbye,
I'm off to see the stars.
And the black holes.
No one will come with me.
I'm shaking off,evaporating into mist.
I'm a flying saucer on a circus mission.
I can't say no to a new invitation.
Make it fast and break with tradition.
Time is passing smoothly till that break In the music,
I've been transmuted into a different key
someone else will play me on their violin
I'm a tune, I'm a thought, I'm a whisper in your vision.
Goodbye,darling.
I'm under orders Ready to leave for my performance
On the electric carpet.
Death dancing to a tune on a violoncello,
Arpeggionne sonata
I'm playing your words upside down
In a new foreign translation,
Accompanied by solo artists,ice cracking
I'm going in.
It's too sudden.
I'm flying.
Spinning faster to amuse the clowns,
too many ups and no downs.
I'm going right out of orbit
I've broken the pull of gravity,
And fly with pure equanimity
Into my future life,
I'm off at some moment
An instant,a crack,a loud smack
That was me passing
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Category: emotion
That village Street
Standon church, the village and the ford
How the eye will wander as it stares
Lazy cows stand idly by the gate
How deep silence holds and melts our cares.
The heavy load of work, the children’s gaze.
The weight of coppers spoils the father’s clothes
The cake stand gleams, sadistically exposed
The cat sleeps on,while BarclaysBank is closed
We left the car beside the butcher’s shop
Climbed up to the church his mother moaned
She enjoyed the view down this long Street.
Despite the aching of her twisted toes.
Now they’re gone and I stand here alone
I see your face, your eyes,your smiling bones
From the bitter winter of the heart
We feel the bitter winter of the heart
The icy hand ,the cruel teeth’s sharp bite
When close friends die, when lovers break apart

Terse,cruel words can make our deep self smart
The weak have little power to make things right
So feel the bitterest winter of their hearts
Humans may like fruit be much too tart
Thus fantasied revenge can blind with light
As close friends die or false lovers depart
While we suffer, we seek maps and charts
Which path to follow,which leads us aright
From the bitter winter of the heart?
The muscles clench, the ligaments are taut
Faces frown, in mirrors demons shriek
If close friends die or lovers haste to part
The pain of loss, the tears that agitate
The mental functions,all have gone on strike
Stricken in the winter of the heart
Retaliation , bitter, wants to fight.
Yet we have little time to see the Light
We curse the bitter winter of the heart
Instinct, humbler. finds for us new charts
Mary Adair 2 and the reading glasses


Instead of going to the pub to meet men,Mary went on FB and changed her name
Unfortunatly her name was also changed on the Page where she was insulted and every where she had been.
I have learned something useful, she said to Dave who had come because Emile had rung 999
Better if you had not visited their page,he told her sensibly, then Emile would be happy
Yes, she said,each side is as bad as the other,You must either totally agree or be called a vicious Monster.There is no space for debate so why even try?
Just then the phone rang
Hello, it’s Noreen ,she heard
Mary, I am so happy you have changed your name
Are you,Mary asked in suprise
Yes,my grandparents were Scottish and none of the relatives are left,
so as you are partly Scottish too it’s lovely you chose to emphasis that
Well, stone the crows,Mary thought.How unpredictable life is.And how one unexpected event led to a good talk with Noreen
Well, since Stan is not here,I’d better do some housework. she told Dave
On the other hand if Annie and you,Dave, accept my untidiness, why should i worry?
After all it’s wonderful finding books I had forgotten I had.Not to mention 30 pairs of tights and my reading glasses
Emile looked at her turquoise glasses
Can I have some reading glasses Mother?
Why? demanded Mary angrily
Then they will read stories to me as they can already read
Mary wondered how to explain to a cat that the lenses of humans’ eyes become less flexible with age like their minds, perhaps
Then she thought of Donald Trump who needs King Canute
to explain that no human is omnipotent and that viruses are unable to distinguish between him and another old person even Joe Biden
Why the family of the first virus might have relatives near Joe.
But how do viruses communicate?They have no voices,eyes or hands
Might it be they live in another reality? Do they have minds withour having brains?
Or brains without minds
Dave ran out of the house wondering how to help Mary
And so would all of us!
When after death I lie deep in the earth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
When after death I lie in deep in the earth
My bosom,hands and eyes become your meat
You have no sun as you enjoy your feast
And none is chosen as we were at birth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
All of us are equal in defeat
None are high or low , what are we worth?
My brain,my hands,my eyes become worms’ meat
In the soil, we rest in comfort sweet
Let us all be blessed,God make no curse
You made the happy worms who will us eat
O remember the deep ash from Auschwitz’ heat
The little children killed without Kaddish
Those hearts ,those hands, those eyes no worm could eat
,
Why should we be satisfied by wish
When people burn or starve beside our dish
O Godly worm that of my flesh might eat
Let my very self become your meat
From the bitter winter of the heart
We feel the bitter winter of the heart
The icy hand ,the cruel teeth’s sharp bite
When close friends die, when lovers break apart

Terse,cruel words can make our deep self smart
The weak have little power to make things right
So feel the bitterest winter of their hearts
Humans may like fruit be much too tart
Thus fantasied revenge can blind with light
As close friends die or false lovers depart
While we suffer, we seek maps and charts
Which path to follow,which leads us aright
From the bitter winter of the heart?
The muscles clench, the ligaments are taut
Faces frown, in mirrors demons shriek
If close friends die or lovers haste to part
The pain of loss, the tears that agitate
The mental functions,all have gone on strike
Stricken in the winter of the heart
Retaliation , bitter, wants to fight.
Yet we have little time to see the Light
We curse the bitter winter of the heart
Instinct, humbler. finds for us new charts
That village Street
Standon church, the village and the ford
How the eye will wander as it stares
Lazy cows stand idly by the gate
How deep silence holds and melts our cares.
The heavy load of work, the children’s gaze.
The weight of coppers spoils the father’s clothes
The cake stand gleams, sadistically exposed
The cat sleeps on,while BarclaysBank is closed
We left the car beside the butcher’s shop
Climbed up to the church his mother moaned
She enjoyed the view down this long Street.
Despite the aching of her twisted toes.
Now they’re gone and I stand here alone
I see your face, your eyes,your smiling bones
When after death I lie deep in the earth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
When after death I lie in deep in the earth
My bosom,hands and eyes become your meat
You have no sun as you enjoy your feast
And none is chosen as we were at birth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
All of us are equal in defeat
None are high or low , what are we worth?
My brain,my hands,my eyes become worms’ meat
In the soil, we rest in comfort sweet
Let us all be blessed,God make no curse
You made the happy worms who will us eat
O remember the deep ash from Auschwitz’ heat
The little children killed without Kaddish
Those hearts ,those hands, those eyes no worm could eat
,
Why should we be satisfied by wish
When people burn or starve beside our dish
O Godly worm that of my flesh might eat
Let my very self become your meat
Logic and marriage

Annie ran into Mary’s kitchen wearing a pale green coat and matching suede s oes
Oh,let me tell you my happy news,I am gettng married again
Is that why you are all dressed up?Why green?
Don’t be ridiculous,marriage needs organising
You mean the Ceremony?
Yes, and the meal
I think marriage itself needs organising.Who will pay the bills and bring in the coal?
Which side of the bed will you sleep on?
Oh, I must get larger bed,Annie realised thoughtfully
And who is to be your husband?
I’ve not decided yet,Annie admitted quietly
How many candidates are there for the position,Mary asked quizzically?
Well, the main one is Denis, the psychoanalyst across the road
I expect he already has a big bed..Mary joked knowingly
Yes,I spent a night or so with him and he has a memory foam mattress here.
I hope it doesn’t remember all the women he has slept with
Well, only if they slept there.They might have gone to an hotel or been in a caravan
at Southwold Harbour,Annie rambled on
They might have slept in a wood by a log fire or in a tent on the West Bank
So will he be faithful to you?
He’s already told me he adores me more than he knew possible
That will soon wear off when you live together
How cruel you are,Annie sighed ,like martyr waiting to be executed
Shall I make some tea for us both?
Yes and boil my hankies as well,Mary joked.
I shall boil your tongue if you keep teasing me!
They sat down near the window while the sun was setting in a wine coloured sky
I do like your outlook,Annie said
I thought it was Microsoft’s,Mary told her innocently
You silly idiot,I mean your view
I’ve never heard of YourView.Is it a new thing like Zoom? Mary asked nervously
I mean, this view here from your window at dusk
Wow,I am frightened how I assume everything I learn of is related to Modern Technology
Yeah, said Annie,I’ve done it too
You are both stupid,said Emile the resident cat
How rude.Why do you say that,Mary enquired boldly?
It’s the whole human race.All hooked on Skype or a Twatter
What’s a Twattter?
It’s someone who lives on Twitter
You won’t find a bird on Twitter.
So a bird can’t be a Twatter
That is correct.Aristotle would be pleased if he were here
Where is he?
In a book.
That is end of “Logic made simple” on BBC education
They miaow in Hebrew,Mary said loftily
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Stan awoke feeling very thirsty.
My, this bed is much too hard,he thought.
He put out his hand and felt some wood not far away.It was his desk.Emile was lying on Stan’s stomach purring.
You fell out of bed,the little cat miaowed.Luckily I clung on with my claws and I am ok sleeping down here….I can see mice better.
Well,it’s not ok with me,Stan informed him gently.
How can I get up from here?
He picked up the Cambridge Companion to Sylvia Plath and banged on his desk softly.
Mary was awake and heard a strange sound.She found Stan lying on the floor with his head by his desk.
Emile wanted to sleep by the wall,you see.,he told her.
Then he rolled over and I fell out.http://youtu.be/pT9CdnfFET8That is logically and scientifically mad,Mary told him.
Surely Emile is not so big that his weight was enough to knock you out of the bed?
It is against the law of gravityAnyway,why don’t you get up?
I like it down here,the old man lied to her optimistically.
Rubbish,Mary said,then she picked up the phone and rang 999.
Hello,she said.My cat is very upset as he feels guilty for pushing my aged husband out of bed.
How terrible for you,the man answered.I’ll send an ambulance right away.
Mary opened the front door and left it unlatched whilst she lit the electric lights with a match.
How do you feel now Stan,she enquired tying her red polyester fleece dressing gown a bit tighter before the paramedics arrival
I am thirsty,give me some brandy,he ordered her politely as he was full of kindness
They said not to let you or Emile drink or eat
Blooming ridiculous,he told her in a manly fashion.
Soon the ambulance arrived and the paramedics were running up the stairs to see the poor cat. Mary fainted so they laid her on the bed whilst they comforted Emile and cleaned his paws.Then they picked up Stan and laid him right next to Mary,his wife.
Why don’t you have a bigger bed,one asked Stan.
Bigger than what,he responded academically.
Well,if you were any fatter you’d not be able to lie next to your wife.
True,he replied but my wife is too large.I keep hoping she will lose weight.
I shall make you some tea the female paramedic told them forcefully
Well,you don’t seem to be hurt,the other one told Stan, but the cat may need therapy or counselling because of the guilt he will feel.
He’s not a Catholic ,I hope?
No, he’s Jewish,Stan shouted implausibly.
That’s alright then.How do cats get to be Jewish anyhow?
It’s their souls,Mary said…they are all waiting up there for a suitable place to be reborn and some choose to be cats.
But how can you tell? he asked wonderingly.They have no prayer shawls
They miaow in Hebrew,Mary said loftily.And they like to sing the psalms before bed.
But how do you know it’s Hebrew,he replied.Do you speak it?
No, it’s just he hates bacon and pepperoni and always wears a hat so it seems he must be one of Jesus’s friends,but not Judas of course.I suppose Jesus wore a hat but it’s never been found as yet.Not even being sold as a relic.Well,that’s intriguing.Do you think Emile might be the Messiah?
Oh,dear.We never thought of that.Will he have to go to Galilee and catch fish and walk on water?
No, he can go to Rome and tell the Pope that the Church is not what God planned.
I hope they don’t kill him,Mary cried sadly.
God will not be very happy.
I didn’t know God had moods,Stan said.
He has post-creative depressive disorder….no wonder when we look round the world.
Still they did try,I’ll say that for him or her.
And so say all of us.
For he’s a very good yeller,he’s a very good yeller
A cat’s life is a fuss.Miaow.
Mary Adair 2 and the reading glasses


Instead of going to the pub to meet men,Mary went on FB and changed her name
Unfortunatly her name was also changed on the Page where she was insulted and every where she had been.
I have learned something useful, she said to Dave who had come because Emile had rung 999
Better if you had not visited their page,he told her sensibly, then Emile would be happy
Yes, she said,each side is as bad as the other,You must either totally agree or be called a vicious Monster.There is no space for debate so why even try?
Just then the phone rang
Hello, it’s Noreen ,she heard
Mary, I am so happy you have changed your name
Are you,Mary asked in suprise
Yes,my grandparents were Scottish and none of the relatives are left,
so as you are partly Scottish too it’s lovely you chose to emphasis that
Well, stone the crows,Mary thought.How unpredictable life is.And how one unexpected event led to a good talk with Noreen
Well, since Stan is not here,I’d better do some housework. she told Dave
On the other hand if Annie and you,Dave, accept my untidiness, why should i worry?
After all it’s wonderful finding books I had forgotten I had.Not to mention 30 pairs of tights and my reading glasses
Emile looked at her turquoise glasses
Can I have some reading glasses Mother?
Why? demanded Mary angrily
Then they will read stories to me as they can already read
Mary wondered how to explain to a cat that the lenses of humans’ eyes become less flexible with age like their minds, perhaps
Then she thought of Donald Trump who needs King Canute
to explain that no human is omnipotent and that viruses are unable to distinguish between him and another old person even Joe Biden
Why the family of the first virus might have relatives near Joe.
But how do viruses communicate?They have no voices,eyes or hands
Might it be they live in another reality? Do they have minds withour having brains?
Or brains without minds
Dave ran out of the house wondering how to help Mary
And so would all of us!
Love will need no trick
In my despair I felt that I was stuck
Paralysed by grief and guilt I failed
By the end I had tried every trick
From prayer unthought to deeps of logic black
My life, my engine ,juddered off the rails
I hated God and of “his” Church was sick
Starving and alone I was in shock
The death of one I loved had made me frail
By the end I had tried every trick
I felt Love’s arms around me, death was blocked
I knew this goodness, why else would I wail?
I thought I hated God but Love had struck
Warm and golden light that did me hold
Where are you now when Evil has grown bold?
Kind despair that made me long time sit
By the end I learned Love needs no trick
Thoughts at dusk in winter
Four o’clock– and the sun’s still glowing
Four o’clock – of a colour bright day,
Up above, pink-tinged clouds are sliding
Down still sky, sweeping sun away.
Come back sweet sun, do not yet leave us.
Come back bright beams,I need sunlight
Down on earth,it’s witch moon darkness,
When your golden face is out of sight.
I see the orange clouds extending
I feel such sense of sky lit bright.
But gently now, the mist surrounds you
And sweeps away that happy sight.
Into velvet blackness sinking,
The dazzling, dreaming darkness falls.
Goodbye to haste,and glare, and sunshine,
Time for reverie,night time calls.
On the night-trains gentle journeys,
On this trackless train we ride
Strange new visions, haunting pictures
We will see in dreams’ designs.
In my night train,I’ll be happy
In such rich deep reverie.
We visit darkness in our sleeping,
There we learn its ecstasy.
Now we may have no God to hold us,
In His Hands of Living Love,
What will help us trust deep blackness
If there’s no Saviour from above?
Must we enter that great darkness,
Go back to dark from which we came,
Into dark all living creatures,
In that darkness find our home?
Trust the dark unknown, to hold us,
Trust the dark,both night and day.
Must we walk into that darkness
And trust it is our safest way?
Blue the sky
The sea shore blue of operatic sky
Turned to navy then to darkest grey
Dark trees despise the mysteries of light
The holly has its depth unknown to eye
Hiding fragile wrens from birds of prey
The cerulean blue of soothing sky
And in my room upon my bed I try
What words would come,what humour could you say
Oh trees held in the mysteries of light?
The words won’t come,unspeakable the sigh
The weeping of the sick, the donkey’s bray
Depression of Van Gogh. the lowering sky
Oh,mother, why must newborn babies cry?
The Lord ignores, the sheep flee as I pray
The trees hold in the mysteries of light
I meet your eye,I’m feeling drawn and grey
You want my love,I fear the last mistake
In sinking blue of dawn and passive sky
The trees despise the virus and the lies
That village Street
Standon church, the village and the ford
How the eye will wander as it stares
Lazy cows stand idly by the gate
How deep silence holds and melts our cares.
The heavy load of work, the children’s gaze.
The weight of coppers spoils the father’s clothes
The cake stand gleams, sadistically exposed
The cat sleeps on,while BarclaysBank is closed
We left the car beside the butcher’s shop
Climbed up to the church his mother moaned
She enjoyed the view down this long Street.
Despite the aching of her twisted toes.
Now they’re gone and I stand here alone
I see your face, your eyes,your smiling bones
A golden sheet

I saw your soul like that of a wild bird
Someone other guided me to act
Deep inside my voice had been unlocked
I sang the psalms and then a lullaby
Not aware in thought that you would die.
I fed you with a teaspoon the mashed fish
From a plate as good as one might wish
Like a little child you tried your best
You smiled at me and gazed like one who’s blessed
You sat up with a brighter face at last
Then lay back and God knows all the rest
Oh, don’t go yet ,my darling,I am here
The floor of heaven came down amidst my tears
Made of sumptuous satin, gold,revered
For a little moment it hung low
Then it rose and took you in its glow
I saw your soul like that of a wild bird
Taken by the Power who spoke the Word
A sheet of tears fell down from my closed eyes
It’s hard ,so hard when those you love must die
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Happiness

Are fish happy dancing through the waves?
Darting through the pearls and crystal caves?
Singing as they wander with their mates
No anxious thoughts of money nor of fate.
Through the salty water on they glide
Happy with the temperature and tide.
I wish that I could swim beneath the sea
No painful joints nor mental agony.
I liked the teal green seas we saw at Hythe
Coming down the Saxon Cliffs we sighed.
The burning cornfields sent their red smoke high.
I wish we were together in the car
Driving down to Kent, it’s not so far
[Does God live there any more?]
Come here ,Kathryn, come here quick,‘Cos your Daddy’s very sick.Run as fast as fast, you can,Get the priest, get Father Dan.Run,run went my eight year old feet,Down the lane and up the streetI ran right up to Father’s door,[Does God live there any more?]“Come please, Mam said Daddy’s ill”“Oh”,said Father,”that I will.”Revving up his motor bikeWith The Sacrament beside;He lifted me up onto the backAnd roared off up the church-side track.It was the best thrill of my life;If only Daddy had not died.
On a motorbike with God

There were three of us on this motorbike,
Father Dan with me,
And he had Jesus in his bag.
That makes the total three.
Transubstantiation, oh my Lord
I looked at his black bag.
Is Jesus inside there, I thought?
Should it have a tag?
It’s a secret never told
Father Dan gave it me to hold.
So I had Jesus in my lap,
No wonder now I feel a gap.
We zoomed off up an unmade road
As fast as Dan could go.
I felt bewildered and bemused,
I loved my Daddy so.
Father Dan took back his bag,
And went inside our house.
I got my marbles out to roll,
I feared I’d see a mouse.
So Three of had taken a ride
And after that, my Dad had died.
Father Dan said Mass today
Still with Jesus, so I cried.
The dreams, the metaphors of the mind
I wish we were in Alston steep and fine
The Pennines all around, the lakes nearby.
We walked the Pennine way in our own time.
Your heart was in the hills, to teesdale chained.
You didn’t like the urban sprawl, the blight
I wish we were in Alston now and then
The time has passed we find our memories fade.
I miss you,miss you, miss you, I can’t lie
I wish that we were near high force, that air.
And our;United Kingdom’s in decay.
We saw an eagle but it did not fly
0h every breath we took was like a prayer.
I find it hard to walk without a crutch
I can see but I can’t feel your touch
You would hardly know me now I sigh
I wish you were in Alston by my side.
The dreams, the symbols memories combine.
This is how you’re with me for all time
I am very proud because I’ve tried
The river in the Chilterns
I wish I were in Hertfordshire again
The River Lea a small and sparkling stream.
As I sit here clutching my gel pen
Facing a blank page, oh paper clean
I think about our holidays and walks
Now I barely get across the room.
I miss you for your feelings and the thoughts.
Sitting on the riverbank relaxed
Where has gone my treasure once unsought?
All alone I sit here and reflect
Loving these quiet memories I have brought
Once your love was here but now it’s gone
You float away like water over stones.
A little peace


One damaged cell can divides until it kills.
For in the end we pay the rich man’s bills.
The air polluted ravages and maims
Now it’s cruelly late to curse and blame
Oh sister how we played with our dolls’ prams
In our industrial town there were no lambs.
No sheep could safely graze in smokey streets.
No lark would rise amazed, the dawn to greet.
For you my sister breathed in that bad air
We hear the tread, the foot steps on the stair.
So patient stil, I wish that you would shout.
From your eye I see one tear fall out.
My single sister I can see your pain
Your lips are dry you cough and cough again.
Your mouth is hurting so you cannot eat.
And on the telephone you barely speak
In the world some million others groan
Yes we’re fragile merely flesh and bone
Even so the tears run in my sleep.
Into my face these tears will slowly seep.
I didn’t grasp at first that she would die
And leave me here alone to curse and cry
Hold me in your arms my kindly friends.
From your touch a little peace descends
The Resurrection

I wish that we could hibernate like trees.
The sap sinks low ,they lose their lively leaves.
But in the spring they flower and then they bud.
Here’s to the Resurrection of the blood
Isolation makes me feel alone

This isolation is not good for me
Unless there is a God,how could it be?
The viruses are not like friends who talk
Yet they can come with you on a walk
Invisible to naked human eyes
Viruses are now akin to spies
Who is watching me as I write this?
I’ve now forgotten who Paul Dirac was
Should I block the camera with white tape?
It might bring me some pleasure,ah, too late
Is it wrong for women to read books
New ideas might make us into freaks
Yesterday was warm but now it snows
I’ve got itchy spots and feel morose
Should I buy merino knickers now?
Should I breed some sheep or just a cow?
Why algebra exists is really queer
If you spot it then you are a seer.
Rings and groups and donuts are germane
Topology has driven me insane
What is small yet makes the gradient clear?
Calculus is like an atmosphere
Did you say Eureka in the bath?
It means you’ve met yourself without the glass
The microphone is faulty I proclaim
Perhaps I’m going deaf, we’re all insane
The phone is complex, perfect and effete
I cannot hear the voices when they speak
I got up in the night and wet my pants
That’s my husband’s ghost, the miscreant!
I had to wash pyjamas every day
4 pairs are enough if you are gay
Love will need no trick
In my despair I felt that I was stuck
Paralysed by grief and guilt I failed
By the end I had tried every trick
From prayer unthought to deeps of logic black
My life, my engine ,juddered off the rails
I hated God and of “his” Church was sick
Starving and alone I was in shock
The death of one I loved had made me frail
By the end I had tried every trick
I felt Love’s arms around me, death to block
I knew this goodness, why else would I wail?
I thought I hated God but Love had struck
Warm and golden light that did me hold
Where are you now when Evil has grown bold?
Kind despair that made me long time sit
By the end I learned Love needs no trick
In between the silence and the song
The beach between the low tide and the high
Treasures gather on the pale washed sands
Driftwood shells beneath remorseless clouds
Adults play for safety staying dry
Lightly loved the children’s little hands.
I don’t like the raw sand of the dunes
The tide fling salty water to the sky
Smashing shells make modernistic tunes
Creation and destruction undismayed.
Co-creators in the healing seas
All the laws of gravity obey
Inspiring music as the waters breath
.In between the silence and the song
The pity of the heavens in mercy hangs
Love will need no trick
In my despair I felt that I was stuck
Paralysed by grief and guilt I failed
By the end I had tried every trick
From prayer unthought to deeps of logic black
My life, my engine ,juddered off the rails
I hated God and of “his” Church was sick
Starving and alone I was in shock
The death of one I loved had made me frail
By the end I had tried every trick
I felt Love’s arms around me, death to block
I knew this goodness, why else would I wail?
I thought I hated God but Love had struck
Warm and golden light that did me hold
Where are you now when Evil has grown bold?
Kind despair that made me long time sit
By the end I learned Love needs no trick
Contractions
We lose our health we lose our lovers friends
Death comes slow but faster at the end
Now we can’t afford to use the lights
We feebly rage against the coming night.
Once our life expanded as we grew
Every year was filled with actions new.
Marriage job promotion travel fun
We never thought that one day we’d be done.
Who can fight against the dying light?
Once so strong and fierce your heart gave up
Oh my love I miss you in the night..
Filled with sorrow, we must drain the cup.
Aging is like dying everyday
Slowly slowly each life ebbs away
The fields are burning
It’s been too quiet in Europe for the men
Testosterone urges them to fight.
Some fight with their fists and some with pen
Some cannot enjoy the peace, trust men.
Mindful meditation, comes again
A few hours more and they might see the light
We’ve never had true peace it’s just a sham
The restless peace in Europe troubles men
In the heat and madness trees ignite
The fields are burning but there is no crop.
The widespread paranoia must be stopped
How to Be Better at Stress – Well Guides – The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/guides/well/how-to-deal-with-stress

It’s all good
Changing your perception
With stress, the mind and the body are intrinsically linked. You can view stress as something that is wreaking havoc on your body (and it can) or as something that is giving you the strength and energy to overcome adversity. Here’s a quick way to think about these two very different views of stress. Read the statement, and then think about your own reaction