Some years ago I was very ill and listening to “Jerusalem” on the proms,I suddenly said to my husband,I want to see Jesus soon.I can’t wait
I don’t go to church but as Iris Murdoch wrote,We must not let the Church take Jesus away from us.I suppose in my heart he is a very kind and strong person
I remember he knelt down by me and said,Don’t die,don’t die.
Now he has died.That is very naughty of him.
How my heart sings 
Very sad Katherine.
Well.I am glad I was able to care for him almost to the end.He was very nice and funny too.