Day: July 14, 2016

I am in a study brown

Oh,doctor I am in a flap
I cannot turn this childproof cap
I cannot take my medicine
So I shall toss it in the bin

The beta blockers make me down
I am in a study brown.
The mini aspirins make me bruise
And my mind is quite confused.

The ibuprofen hurt my heart
Yet without one I cannot start.
The thyroxine has no effect
So now I feel my life is dreck.

The codeine fails to make me high
I'm not addicted, though I try.
I'll have to take a shot of gin
And alcohol will make me sin.

I'll go to parties in a dress
That makes men's hormones more or less.
I'll take a big one home with me,
And give him poison in his tea.

And when I am in jail at last
I'll feel remorse for all my past.
For as I suffer dreadful pain
God has hit me yet again.

It's not enough that I am blind
And suffer terrors in my mind
Not enough that lovers cruel
Give me stick instead of jewels.

Or maybe life does not make sense
Especially when I feel so tense.
Maybe random are my days
and my life has gone astray.

I think that I shall buy a cat
And love it tenderly and chat.
But if my cat gives me a scratch...
I'll light its tail up with a match.

All the world must me obey
Else I'll be enraged all day.
I want my own way all the time.
Other people must conform.

I am here and full of ills
What do you think of these blue pills?
If they take away my heart
That at least will be a start.

Then they can remove my brain
To help me with this damned pain.
Why not kill me right away
Then I'll be from pain astray?

A crime

 

Ah,did you throw away the  ripened fruit,
Because inside it hid a hardened stone?
As anything not total does not suit.
Love’s ambivalence seems to you a crime

Don’t throw away my love when I  offend
For I am human too and lose my sense
As tension makes it difficult to bend
And sometimes even love is too intense.

Rather,see  the love there still may be
And balance that against my human faults
Instead,one mark ,one sin  one thought unfree,
Weighs more than years of love,binds me in guilt.

As panic  will grow less when we just wait
In such a way, real love can contain hate

Underneath the shadow in the dark

Underneath the shadow in the dark
Where viable  new thoughts dwell  all  alone
Invisible the moment when life starts

Overhead we hear a singing lark
But   beetles crawl   by all the dark grey  stones
Underneath the shadow in the dark.

We,the human,  travel with no chart.
Yet do not  pay attention to  a groan.
Invisible the moment when life starts

Like sailors crossing oceans in good heart
Enjoy the sensory  vastness all unknown
Underneath the shadow in the dark.

When    sound perceptions shelter us from harm
When a  flickering light to us is shown
Invisible the moment when life starts

 

When we build  from all the  shattered bits of stone
A home to dwell in till  we turn to bone
Underneath the shadow in the dark
Invisible the moment when life starts

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The eye of truth