I ask you to remain an end forever or until I find the means

I am sorry you did not desire my glove nor my cart.I have no whore to give
I am sorry you did not bite my letters for me or sell  me a letter wife
I regret criticising your faux setter curds
I beg your pardon and ask you to deceive my apologies as soon as you feel noble.
I ask you to remain an end forever.Until the day you lie here again.
I beseech you to turn me up  and hem me like a taylor
I don’t know how I got it  flung; please accept my  severe demonologies as soon as maybe.

So what is it to you if my English sounds like Yiddish.My mother was  friendly with some Jews who spoke  anguish.She converted them  to our ways and  they raised me as a Catholic Jew who believed Jesus was an emission from a nuclear God particle or wave called El. [ I can’t say more]
I studied Dirac until I went green  but I don’t  blame that mirror he invented.They are everywhere
What’s it got to do with you if I have a little Chutzpah? Jesus  must have had it and he’s god enough for me.
No,I don’t understand either.But it’s  only for  nerds.

More about Weiwei

The artist and activist tells how investigating schoolchildren’s deaths in the Sichuan earthquake of 2008 spawned his mammoth installation, Remembering

https://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/audio/2018/feb/15/ai-weiwei-on-project-political-voice-sichuan-earthquake-the-start-podcast?utm_source=eml&utm_medium=emlf&utm_campaign=MB_NS_na_Newsletter_ROUK_Paid_200218&CMP_TU=mrtn&CMP_BUNIT=mem&att5

Do we need pain.Is the world just? from the blog of C.Fred Alford

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Shadows by Katherine

Why we need pain. A bad answer by C. S. Lewis

{Fred Alford has written about  Evil. Primo Levi. Job, The Holocaust,Trauma,Forgiveness.He is professor emeritus at the University of Maryland and distinguished scholar}

 

“Another question is Lewis’ claim that God could not give men and women their freedom without opening them to a world of pain without limit.  Why couldn’t He?  At some point pain degrades the soul, something that the Greek tragedians understood (Nussbaum 2001, Alford 1992).  It is against this tendency that civilization is erected as support against a nature (including perhaps our own nature) that was not made for the human being, and has not become more human.

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Actually, it’s a little more complicated, for elsewhere in the Bible people see God (Exodus 24:10-11).  Much depends on how the Hebrew term panim (פָּנִים, Strongs, 6440) is translated, for it may be rendered as presence as well as face.  In the New Testament, people saw God every day in the presence of Christ.  Most just didn’t know what they were seeing.  Perhaps they still don’t.”

References

All page references with no date or author refer to C. S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain.  HarperCollins, 2008.

C. Fred Alford, The Psychoanalytic Theory of Greek Tragedy. Yale University Press, 1992.

C. Fred Alford, After the Holocaust. Cambridge University Press, 2009.

Melvin Lerner, The Belief in a Just World: A Fundamental Delusion.  Plenum Press, 1980.

Martha Nussbaum, The Fragility of Goodness: Luck and Ethics in Greek Tragedy and Philosophy, 2nd edition.  Cambridge University Press, 2001.

David Roth, Critique of Griffin, in Encountering Evil: Live Options in Theodicy, edited by Stephen T. Davis, 119-123.  John Knox Press, 1981,

 

Stan’s vest

Mary stood at the bus stop in her chocolate wool winter coat which Stan had always loved.It hangs so well,he had told her.The  optional imitation fur collar had been removed as she preferred natural garments made from wool with no ostentation.As a matter of fact she has one of Stan’s woollen vests on under her gold silk top.Her hair fell in light blonde curls around her pensive face and her eyes looked as if she were seeing a vision of the Matterhorn in midwinter while naked

Suddenly she realised the bus was there and she put her card up to the machine before looking for a seat.The bus was rather full so she sat down next to a wiry youth with an i phone hanging from his hand.Suddenly it rang.His chosen theme was, Please release me, sung by Tom Jones.Mary smiled as, if she were near Tom Jones she would need no invitation to free him.The youth began to speak rather louder than normal.

Mary tried not listen but it was impossible.She was too hot.Wearing Stan’s vest was a mistake as the bus was overheated.She turned pink like sunrise over ICI in Billingham as the pollution has a beautifying affect.
I’m sorry I wore your vest,she told Stan.I should have given them away but I was trying to save money on heating.Still I will be home soon.
Where is your microphone, the youth demanded.It must be one of those new tiny ones.
A microphone? Mary said curiously.
Yeah, he cried.I assume your phone is in your pocket.

Actually it’s in a pocket in my knickers,she informed h0m in a manner resembling that of a mildly crazy scientist.We used to wear these knickers in the gym at school
Did you not wear a top? he enquired,his eyes running over her hourglass figure like water falling off High Force in Teesdale.
Well.I didn’t have a bra until I got my grant to attend  university,she told him sensitively.
Well,that’s news to me,he said.So you had to wear a bra at University? That was before feminism,of course.Did you burn it later?
Certainly not,said Mary.I’d been longing for one but my mother didn’t seem to notice my development which was her way of coping with adolescent girls.Of course my  older brothers may have noticed but they were  too nervous to tell Mother I needed support.We were all so shy and afraid..Anyway be quiet now,I want to speak to my husband
Have you had your phone on all this time? he asked  anxiously.
No,I don’t need it to talk to him,she responded.
Why,where is he? the youth enquired sardonically.
He’s on my knee,Mary informed him.In this bag.She pointed to her hessian shopping bag.I have just been to the Coop  Funeral Home for him.I ought to have got a cab as he is quite heavy
Jesus Christ,cried  the youth,hastily pressing the bell before leaping off the bus into a small pond that had been created b y Hurricane Desmond.He swam away into the cold  night.
Well. that shut him up,Mary said to Stan.
Mary, don’t become less gentle and kind,Stan said in her ear.
I can’t be gentle now,she said.It’s a nasty tough world without you to help me and  tell me what you think of Jeremy Corbyn .And do I need to have a roast dinner at Xmas or just some toad in the hole?
I am sorry, sweetheart he murmured.Maybe you need assertiveness training.
I’ll just get more aggressive,she replied.Micro-aggressive perhaps.
You’ll need more than micro in this era,he continued.
Mary forgot to get off the bus and found herself in the Leisure Centre by the River Trent.
What about the river,Stan, she asked.
Would you like me to throw  you in.A policeman standing near by ran over.
Madam, is it suicide or murder, he asked her.
No,it’s a life sentence,she said humorously as she put her hand up her skirt to get her phone.
That’s a stupid place to keep a  phone he said.
Anyway don’t call a cab,I can run you home in my car.Have you got any China tea?I could kill for a hot drink.
I have some lapsang souchong,she told him.Do you fancy that? I do, called Stan from the bag.The policeman passed out.
I told you not to get a boyfriend yet,Stan continued to Mary.
I’ll do whatever I feel like,she said rudely.I could use  a comforting arm around me.
Stan sobbed.
She said,quickly don’t worry.I’ll get Emile to sit on my knee.Goodbye for now
Goodbye  whispered Stan faintly.Good bye
Good bye,my love,Good bye

If looking at a phone….

If looking at a  phone would comfort me
If earphones  could/would still my thudding heart
I’d have phones hanging off me like a tree

Unlike a vessel in the coastal sea
There is no lifeboat in these foreign parts
So looking at a  phone can’t comfort me

For some feel lonely,others feel they’re free
Without the pain of lover’s cruel darts
I feel grief  like the leaves  ripped off a  tree

I am beyond your pity or your reach
Within my mind the sorrow  has no chart
So looking at a  phone can’t comfort me

What has human suffering  got to teach?
That we are apes and clever but not smart?
I feel grief  like the leaves  ripped off a  tree

With wicked thoughts,with evil I won’t flirt
I’d rather lie down in the dust and  dirt
If looking at a  phone would comfort me
I’d have them ringing like a bell rings free

Nonsense

Blenheim_winter2014-1.jpgI floundered slowly as a pen
That writes the lies and  steals my pills
When all  at once I saw a friend
A host  who sold me clothes with frills.

Harmonious were the waves of love
As were the letters writ by hand
From so below to well above
I saw a sight not understood.

Trembling in the Western Wind
Were Alfred Deller and  a lute
So  we conferred but never sinned
Though he had a magic flute.

As my pen leaked ink and blood
Among the purses and the keys
My mother said I never should
Play with cowboys in the seas.

Where is my ship that takes me home?
And where’s my lover,write me soon?
I’ll do my hair with a toothcomb
Before I visit and resume.

 

Do not ring 999 unless it is an real emergency

Stubborn cat and wrong haircut among 999 calls to police

A man seeking a supermarket’s opening hours and a woman concerned about her mother’s haircut were among recent 999 calls to a police force.

West Yorkshire Police receives more than 1.5m calls a year, with people asked to think twice about calling the number following a rise in inappropriate, hoax or accidental calls.

The blue eyed witch of Knittingham

Mary opened the door as the bell kept ringing.There stood a clergyman in a grey wool suit and baseball cap coordinated with his  Nike trainers
Hello,madam,he said suavely in a mellifluous voice
Hello,Mary answered kindly.What  is your mission?
To convert the  entire world to Christianity.
I am sorry,I meant what was your mission with me.But anyway, you can’t convert me.So you are a failure.It’s called a counter example in Maths.
Why can’t I convert you, he asked the blue eyed witch of Knittingham standing there in her  dark Artigiano jeans, Dash striped top and a  red wool stole
I  like choice, she cried.I do not want a creed.
Anyway, the man told her,I just came to say I am buying a flat across the road and I wanted some opinions on the quietness of this area before I finalise my purchase.
Mioaw,went Emile in a loud shriek
Oh,Lord, what is that,  a demon,the poor man asked?
It’s only my cat, she told him,why not come in for coffee and I’ll tell you about the nearest neighbours.
That is very kind of you, he said.But I might be a burglar
Oh,good,Emile purred.I’ve always wanted to meet a burglar.
Why, asked the man as he entered the beautiful hall full of spiders and Picasso prints.
You can tell me how I can get into other people’s houses, the cat told him boldly.
I want to be a cat burglar!
Come into the living room, said Mary.The room was full of books like the Encarta English Dictionary, Stanley Middleton and “How to talk so cats can hear” piled in  tidy heaps.
My name is Jacob, the visitor said.I have just retired but am keen to keep converting people as Christianity is the best religion ever
I don’t really want a religion  and I am unsure  how you prove it’s  the best
I am keener on the Hindu religion, she lied impertinently just to see if she could carry it off as  Aspies can’t tell lies
Suddenly the kitchen door opened and in ran Annie, the  neighbour and one time Mistress of Stan,Mary’s late  and dangerous  old husband
Hello,Jake, she cried as she kissed his aged cheeks fondly
I am buying a flat but I didn’t know you lived here he said politely
We met on Tinder, Annie told Mary.
What is that, a hill? I know Kinder Scout.
It’s a dating website,Annie said gently, her curving  lips covered in wine coloured lip glaze which almost matched her burgundy eye shadow and purple hair.
Why did you not ask me? Mary said shyly
I didn’t think you wanted another man,Annie said pertly with a  twinkle  in her gorgeous  red eyes.
And Jacob said he came to convert me but is it true?
No, said Jacob.I saw you in the front garden and you look so beautiful I wanted to meet you.
Thank God you are not going to shower me with Biblical  quotes,Mary said.
I suppose we should admire you going straight for what you want.Although when you know me better you may not find me so attractive.
Jake’s eyes bulged with emotion.
Well, you may not find me so attractive either, he cried wiping his streaming eyes on a kleenex tissue.
Mary ran upstairs and collected Stan’s hankies
Here, use these, she told Jake soulfully
Annie brought in some  hot coffee with cream
What do we older people want, she murmured quizzically.We have loved and lost but shall we love again?
Well, I shall mioawed Emile.I don’t keep thinking,I just do it.If I get a chance
Love is more than sex,Emile.We want someone who shares  a few interests and  likes conversation.
What  are your interests, she asked Jake?
I  can’t remember, he admitted.I’ll have to look on FB at my profile.
But what do you do all day?
I read the Guardian and the Independent then I  go out looking for women.
Women of the Night?
No,I  just like to sit in the Mall and admire women as they pass by.I don’t want to cause suffering to women.And I am diabetic so I get erectile dysfunction sometimes so it would be a waste of money in any case
Well, if there was a National Wage or better benefits these prostitutes might give up their dangerous work.They all sat looking  glum as they pondered over the political scene in Britain
If we were Jews we could live in Israel
Yes, you’d have seriously think of that to as the number of anti Semitic hate crimes  has gone up  by about 70% this year.And what that has to do with Brexit is hard to know except all people who are  of different ethnicity are also being attacked.Some people seem to think it means black people will have to leave despite the fact nowhere in Europe is there a country mainly made up of black people.And during the Empire all people in it were British citizens.
Still,I feel too old to convert.Can we get false documents to prove we are Jewish?
That’s not something I know about, said Jacob, though my  name is Jewish.It is Disraeli!
Hang on a minute,cried Annie.Let’s not  be too hasty.It looks like Israel  is on the verge of war.Yet Jake. if you married both of us we could get in as your wives as you must be Jewish.
But we are not meant to marry Gentiles.
Well how about us being servants?
Alas, that country  was never  truly  accepted and  it has become very,very fierce.I  find as well that they love arguing ,which I don’t said Mary.
Well many other people love arguing,Jake said.But it’s true it is dangerous there especially  with Syria at war so nearby
Why don’t we all go out and have a salt beef sandwich  and some chips instead?Or how about ringing 999 for advice? They will know about getting false passports.
Is that true,said Mary
And so ask all of us.

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