And wished instead of flesh, I was hard wood

The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods
My inner landscape’s clouded like the sky
And  anxious thoughts  into my mind intrude

I  disdain phone calls with impatience rude
For connections only make me want to cry.
The weather fluctuates as do my moods

Strange and lonely thoughts await in queues
I tell them they are foolish and they lie
More  anxious thoughts  into my mind intrude

I understand why people quarrel and are rude
I understand why imprecations fly.
The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods

But  dark clouds pass and   feelings change to good.
When self respect and love are each nearby
I shall befriend the  thoughts   which now intrude

I  panicked as  bad thoughts became a flood
And wished instead of flesh, I was hard wood
The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods
Those anxious thoughts  with love are now  endured.