Author: Katherine
My red-haired neighbour loved her high heeled shoe
My red-haired neighbour loved her high heeled shoes
She dressed in cream and black when she went out
Her smart appearance called in many views
Even when she fell and was much bruised
Her eyes so sharp drove off marauding louts
My red-haired neighbour saved for grand cream shoes
She dyed her hair blood red, oh men confused!
Though she was ninety she was never stout
Her dear appearance wondrous was well viewed
By the Daily Mail, she was bemused
She meditated, used it wrap sprouts
My neighbour dyed her hair and matched her shoes
Suddenly her blood its power would lose
Her nights out and her cooking were in doubt
She so stylish no more could be viewed
She went to Mass on Sunday, sin to rout
Her hair fresh dyed, she died where God’s about
My red-haired neighbour loved her pretty shoes
In her coffin, may she be amused
The poetry of WW1

It’s hard to believe it is 100 years since the end of that war in which my uncle died and his father died in the ensuing flu epidemic.17 million people were killed.Is that why Europe has gone downhill morally and politically… some called it suicide.The people who survived were damaged emotionally/Empires fell; revolutions occurred. Hitler began his mad ascent to power
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/articles/70139/the-poetry-of-world-war-i
Servitude
How ludicrous

God made the elephant and the bee
God knows why he then made me!
God likes hearing what I do
I ate my dinner from my shoe
God says maths is far too clear
Aleph Null will soon be here
God is perfect and sincere
I blame Guinness for the beer
God has told me I am gay
I must live and I must play
God is a big memory bank
He remembers, does he think?
In some marriage of spring and summer

How spring is erratic; the flowers no longer follow in sequence
But come like some Messiaen -like music
No, more like Boulez
following a defined but unknown new order…
So the snowdrops and the daffodils come together
in some marriage of spring and summer
struggling to push away the winter we still inhabit.
We may find our love like a lost coin
With his solid fancy, he built up me
Then loved his own creation with full heart
As soon as he perceived discrepancies
He struck me with his words like poisoned darts
Never did he love me as he thought
It was his own creation, it was he
He threw such rage that in it, I was caught
I am not perfect, that is nothing new
Experiencing such fantasy is pain
It all takes place inside the owner’s self
The people whom we saw won’t come again
Love is a but a dream built up in stealth
How do we escape this wish to find
Another being perfectly designed?
Is it by accepting our own flaws
We are freed from dreaded dragons’ jaws?
We may find our love like a lost coin
If we search the drains to which dirt’s drawn
How I found a hint of heaven through gazing at pashminas: deepening our worlds
When people talk of there being an invisible world behind this one I don’t understand
but I have had some experiences which gave me a deeper connection to this world
I’ll just describe one.I have some pashminas in my bedroom of bluey, violet, and turquoise soft wool. For aesthetic reasons, I have hung them from the picture rail opposite the window.
I was sitting up there one day in January 2003. The sun was rising and was low in the sky being winter.I sat there quietly.I turned round and saw the pashminas illuminated by the sun.
For a few minutes I was transfixed by a strange luminous beauty which of course is always there but when we are busy we don’t take time to look at things just for their own sake.
Well, another reason was that I was not trying to have a mystical experience..I just happened on it by chance.
Or as some American psychotherapist has said, we view the world with selective inattention. We ignore what is not one of our goals for the day.
We need to leave a little space
How to knit your first row
How to knit: You must have two large needles. You put one under each arm.,So far I’ve not gone beyond that but it’s hard to keep them under my arms all day.I gather I need some wool.Is this what is known as “wool-gathering”?I buy some wool in the shop and come back.I have to “cast on” so that’s why men go boating so they can “cast off”…
To cast on you make a loop in the wool and slide it onto the needle.It’s easier using thick wool and thick needles. This loop is your first stitch.To make another, insert the left hand needle into the loop, wrap the wool around it and pull it through the first loop then slide it onto the needle giving you two stitches. Repeat one hundred times and you now have your first row
Isn’t it hard explaining how to knit! It’s harder if you use sewing needles. think I’l cook instead.
By the way,a row is pronounced to rhyme with sew. Otherwise, you’d be knitting your first argument and why would you do that?
Acrostic?
Long ago the apple tree
Overhung the dark green lawn
Vertical in mystery
Everlasting in the dawn
Youth and winter disagree
Overland and over sea
Underneath, the clouds agree
Deep in soil the worms will work
Each one with its unique quirk
After feasting they will lie
Round the rim of a dark sky
Eloquence is good to find
Sometimes it will us remind
This is where we must be kind
No bridge destroys its power, no currents sin
The geese have moved their flight path to the East
I miss the gladness of their graceful wings
And wish I were a bird and not a beast
In the river, they have had their feast
While the sparrows watched and gently sang
The geese are gone, their flight path’s to the East
Seeing their grace at sunset gave me peace
The natural world such beauty to us brings
The wish I were a bird and not a beast
North East London’s cut up by the Lea
No bridge destroys its power, its currents sing
The geese have moved their flight path further East
The geese do not make nests in a tall tree
But dwell upon the water like the swans
I wish I were a bird or honey bee.
As the infant wisely grabs and clings
So the geese will fight if threat descends
The geese have moved their flight path to the East
Oh, to fly at sunset with the least
Concrete for the Temple?
https://blog.sagradafamilia.org/en/divulgation/reinforced-concrete-for-the-temple-of-course/

The Pantheon from Ancient History
Extract
WHEN WAS THIS CEMENT FIRST USED?
Building with cement and concrete may seem like a modern invention but these materials were used in Roman times. Of particular note is Pozzolanic cement, used by Roman engineers to build water channels, piers and watermills after they discovered this material can harden underwater. The name comes from the town of Pozzuoli, on the slopes of Mount Vesuvius in Italy, and the most well-known example of building with this type of cement is the Pantheon in Rome, from 123 AD. Its lightness without sacrificing strength is another great quality of this material, which is why it was used to build the great dome: with its diameter of 43.3 metres it is still the largest made of un-reinforced concrete in the world to this day.
It took nearly two millennia to surpass this size and was made possible by innovations in reinforced concrete, first used by Italian architect Pier Luigi Nervi in the 1960s.
Mary and the Jam
As Mary ate her Weetabix, she felt a pain in her left leg rather like a toothache gone awol
Emile, what are you doing?
Emile crawled out looking dusty. And he had just had a bath.
I was trying to bite the hairs off your leg, he miaowed plaintively
There are no hairs on my leg, she whispered. Oh, dear,I must have walked into a cobweb
I wish Stan had got a cobweb brush, she muttered.
But do we really need a different brush for everything? Soon we will have one for each tooth. That will be expensive
She felt in her pocket for her Tablet. She wanted to draw a diagram of her brush cupboard using an Android App. But her pocket was empty
The back door opened and in ran Annie wearing a yellow nightdress and matching slippers
Hello, she cried. I wanted to catch you before 9 am
Why, asked Mary?
The postman will be here by then. He has got a parcel for me. But I put your address.
What is the point of secrecy when you live alone. You have no man to question your expenses, have you? Nor a woman either
Well, Emile might ask me to explain.
Just because Emile is male it does not give him the right to tell you what to do
All my life I have obeyed men, Annie cried
Yes, after you have manipulated, seduced and terrified them
That is very cruel. I was only trying to help them.
Well, you may have done, but why not help yourself?
How can I do that?
Tune into your body and see what comes to mind
Beetroot, Annie responded.
So you must need them, get dressed and we will go to the greengrocers
You have got very bossy, said Annie. Did you have a nightmare?
It was more like a night-tiger, Mary revealed. Something bit my foot and it hurt
Oh, mother , cried Emile, it was me!
You, Emile. What made you do that, she said angrily?
It was in my way as I crawled under the duvet, the cat whispered
Surely you could have gone further down.
I wanted to see what you tasted like!
That is evil, not to say perverted, Mary told him. I shall take you for therapy or would Confession be better? Is it a compulsion you cannot help or is it a sin?
Annie was silent. She did not like questions nor any kind of prolonged thought
Don’t ask me, she finally said. Maybe Emile needs a man in the house.
I don’t want any more men, Mary said sadly. They seem to die
Well, Stan was 128 years old. Annie informed her.I saw his birth certificate once. Unless it was 12.8 years
Don’t be so ridiculous. How could he have been 12.8 years old?
It must be a miracle, said Annie. Tell the Pope and he might be declared a saint soon
St Stan of Knittingham, Patron Saint of Almost Adolescents.
The bell rang. In ran Dave.
He was dressed in navy.
I am ready to take you to Church, he told the ladies
To church? I’d rather go to Wigan Pier
Oh, the sea is not there on Sundays!
Is it there on the Sabbath, Annie muttered?
No, it’s not, Dave said quietly
Wow, two more miracles, she said as she fainted into the Pantry
How annoying, Mary said. I just classified the jam
Well, things could be worse, said Dave. She’s not broken any and cut herself
What, she falls and breaks nothing. She must be very light.
Yes, she nearly is electric, he quipped
Whatever next?
And so say all of us
Be my ghost

His wits have been tried and found haunting.
So I invited him to be my ghost.
Is it all over?

https://www.jehsmith.com/1/2018/12/its-all-over.html
“The essay touched a nerve, and most of the response to it was positive. One common mistaken interpretation, to which I want to respond, was that it amounts to an expression of “conservatism”. We are at a strange point indeed in our culture when a scoffing and dismissive attitude towards Hollywood entertainments such as action-hero movies, generated by market forces alone, may be seen as conservative. I continue to believe in a culture independent of these forces, and I bemoan the obsession of so many in our present age with monitoring the garbage output of the entertainment industry for signs of this industry’s affirmations of progressive values. I do not care about this industry. I think true progressivism consists in rejecting it, not in proclaiming the latest “iteration of Wonder Woman “good” because it managed to stay on-message relative to some particular conception of feminism, or that some movie with Emma Stone in it is “bad” because the lead role should have gone to a person of color. Who gives a shit? Who has time for this kind of stuff? Woke celebrity-gossip-mongering is still celebrity-gossip-mongering, and no one is going to convince me that it counts as political in any meaningful sense. Let’s make our own culture instead, with bold new visions of what art might be, rather than pushing Hollywood business moguls to do it for us.
I admitted in the essay to a certain fogeyism, so let me pull out a fogey trope and tell you how things were in the old days. In my late teens I used to drive thirty miles each way to go to the nearest art-house video-rental store, in order to take back home VHS tapes of the works of Ousmane Sembène, rightly called the Chekhov of Senegal. I loved his cinematic language, and I felt that through it I was gaining access to a certain true depiction of Africa. This and similar experiences leave me nonplussed and, yes, a bit angry, when, years later, I find myself reading excited young people declaring on Twitter that, with the release of Black Panther in 2018, we are “finally getting to see Africa depicted in film”. But that is not Africa; that is some fantasy bullshit. Africa has already been depicted in film going back several decades, by great African directors such as Sembène, and you are just not working hard enough if you expect movies to be delivered up to you as mass-release big-screen entertainments. I recently gave in and selected Black Panther while on a very long flight. I turned it off after ten minutes or so. It was just too stupid.”
Speaker, listener
The little words invented as we loved
Now have no other speaker but myself.
Lost, unique, the husband, so beloved,
These little words expressed our joyous love.
In my speech, these words no longer live
I cannot use those words, our loving wealth.
The chosen words invented as we loved
Now have no other listener but myself.
My Lancashire accent or maybe accident

Eeh, it were right crackin’ at school t’day
Wot wur thi sayin’ this time?
Thi said wi can do Greek next year
Ye’re not doin’ Greek
Why not,our Mam
Ye can’t even spek English
Why, am I not canny enough?
No, we don’t spek English eether
Well, ye shud a thought eh that before y’ad me
Ye mean only people with BBC eksents can bear childern?Well, we reckoned if we learnt English we’d lose our desire
F’wat, Mam
F’ that! Ye know… It, ye get what ah mean
No,Mam.Can ye not spell it our a bit more?
Spell it out, t’dad would tan me hide!
Still he must a dunnit,Mam
I dunno, it wer dark.Mebbe it wer the cat, ah thought
Surely the cat’s not mi dad, is he?
It weren’t this cat, it wer another called Billy.
Well, how come ah’m human?
You think ye’re human, but am telling ye,ye got t’cat’s eyes
Just his eyes? How abaht his whiskers
Don’t be so daft, our Kath,Ye’ve got his hair
But only on my head so far.Willa bi changin’ into a cat as ah mature?
Wi’ll have te wait and see.Put ‘t kettle on.We need some tea.
Why, what difference will that make now.I’m a cat,I’m a cat…. oh, what’ll ‘et nuns say ‘et Convent when ah tellum?
You keep away from ‘et Convent~
Why, our Mam?
Do as I tell you.Never confide in a nun
Well,Ah shan’t let ‘et cat fettle me.Ah’m not that daft
Well, yi can’t do Greek and that’s final
Kyrie Eleison,Kyrie Eleison
Wot’s that?
Oh, nothin’ at all
Christie Horizon
For God’s sake speak English!
The lost embrace
The sparrows sing as if to draw me to The present moment’s gravity and grace Our contemplation of life’s nature new What other attitude is worthwhile now That I no longer see your loving face? The sparrows sing as if to greet me too Eden is still here, we miss the clues We miss the ardent touch, the lost embrace Our contemplation of the world renews On my face, the tears are jeweled dew In my body, I feel held, enclosed The sparrows sing as if to greet me too Now the blackbird sings as if on cue Inside my swollen heart, I feel its grace Contemplation of life’s nature new I saw your soul in your transparent face. And crisscrossed lines from struggle left their trace The sparrows sing as if to draw us to The contemplation of the wildness true,
Make a cake
I think I am invisible
Living in my bedsit in the tower of the old folk
Watching television,I heard somebody speak
A robot does my cleaning and it does not ever smoke
I think I am invisible, I wear a dust grey cloak
Maybe I’m a loser; my bones already creak
Living in my bedsit in the tower of the old folk
Noone here can touch me, now maybe they will joke
But my heart is feeling empty and I know I am a freak
A robot does my cleaning and it does not even smoke
The council can’t afford replacements for any mugs I broke
I see a few young people drinking coffee in the street
Weeping in my bedsit in the tower of the old folk
If I tried to drown myself no doubt I would just float
When I go to a farm shop, the sheep won’t stop to bleat
A robot does my cleaning and it does not even smoke
I am serving my life sentence, but it seems incomplete
I can only walk ten yards, arthritis in my feet
Living in my bedsit in the tower of the old folk
A robot did my cleaning, the dumb thing never spoke
Spanish omelette
Art and heart
the art of poetry isn’t hard to master make the syntax good and entertaining the gruesome heart of poetry's a disaster a meter errant makes the lines come faster an oxford thesaurus gets the listeners waning the art of poetry isn’t hard to master. a genius woke and saw a verse rush past her it only needed polishing and planing the gruesome heart of poetry, her disaster she left the oven on, it gassed her ever since her folk groan, paining the art of poetry isn’t hard to master. she saw her selves as coloured shapes in plaster and round her mind, were ghosts all weakly craning the gruesome heart of poetry brings disaster there’s not a lot of hope if we’re complaining for criticism from hidden ghosts is draining the art of poetry isn’t hard to master the gruesome signs of poetry bring disaster
Hard love
http://www.sarahwilson.com/2018/03/hard-love-weak-character/
Extract:
“Existentialist angst always surfaces during times of human ugliness.
Arendt adds that it’s a moral imperative to not sink into banality, as righteous as not doing harm.
- Not comprehending what Brexit was about before voting proved irrevocably harmful.
- Not caring where your plastic bag ends up (because you’ve not engaged with the facts) is killing the planet.
- Failing to be bold in love is killing relationships…and making us all bored.
- Drifting, flaking, blaming, avoiding, turning blind eyes, going MIA when you’re needed, scrolling Instagram instead of reading long reads about stuff that counts…it’s making us all lesser.
And we know it. We don’t like it about ourselves, but what to do?
I know some people’s response is that it’s all too much, that they can’t afford the energy to care, to think, to get engaged. I quote New York chef and owner of Prune restaurant Gabrielle Hamilton (a thinker, a doer, a liver) who found herself telling friends who can’t be arsed reducing food waste with some minor lifestyle adjustments:
“It’s hard for me to love somebody with a weak character like that”.
I’ve been wondering lately if I’m reaching the same point. I note that many of you on this blog and on my socials are feeling the same. I’m certainly struggling with flaccid, excuse-making, buck-passing characters at the moment. It’s dead difficult viewing such expressions of anti-humanity with mature, kind eyes. And walking away (turning a blind eye) strikes me as (almost) equally banal and flaccid.”
Even when it’s suicide to smile
Taunt no longer idiots on these isles
For like the Lord they are not English pure
They voted for the stupid and the wild
In appearance, May looks fairly mild
For the old, she has a faint allure
Being the chief sweeper of church aisles
Boris Johnson Turkey has defiled
He cooked his goose in rapeseed oil uncured
As befits the madmen and the wild
Michael Gove’s own head his heart defiled
Yet save him from the deserts of the sewer
Taunt no longer morons on these isles
The NHS is poorer mile by mile
It’s good if you are dying on the wires
Even when it’s suicide to smile
Mrs Thatcher, never paid the toll
She wrote a cheque and signed the counterfoil
Taunt no longer MPs on these isles
We chose among the cunning, the most vile.
The lamp is silent, now I am alone
He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone
Made by potters on the Suffolk Coast
The lamp was silent, it was he who groaned
I was not angry, though I may have moaned
I loved our lamps but I loved him the most
He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone
For human time on earth is just a loan
And of it’s wasting, who am I to boast?
The lamp was quiet, the man it was who groaned
Like a candle when the flame is blown
His life force waned, I saw as I was close
He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone
By the following week, his soul had flown
I heard the music of a distant Host
The room was quiet, my love no longer groaned
Of the love of God, I long to boast
Despite that, some devil my heart froze
Why go down and break that lamp forlorn
The lamp is silent, now I am alone
Prayer does not change God,

Prayer does not change God, but it changes those who prays. Soren Kierkegaard
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/soren_kierkegaard_107355
Beech trees are so British, I am Welsh
The bonsai tree is now a thick green hedge
By my mended garden wall of brick
Beech trees are so British, they are Welsh
My genes are mainly Irish, it’s alleged
With some from Denmark making blonde hair thick
The bonsai tree is now a thick green hedge
My metatarsals Celtic I begrudge
I could bear them were they Arabic
Bleached feet are so British, they now belch
Through the EU quicksands, I can squelch
Even if the dirt makes my legs black
I need no tree, I need a stony ledge
Immigrants are dying of their lack
Kill them all, we’re British we love flak
We don’t mind a flower from somewhere else
Elm trees are so common, yet they’re Dutch
The tangent to the circle is too steep
The half-blind give advice on where to look
The soft tongued sell us slogans of defeat
The religious read us stories from old books
The thieves like pointing out the crooks
While we amble down the vacated streets
The half-blind give advice on how to look
We win a gamble yet call it a fluke
We love our loss, we like to be downbeat
The religious read us stories from old books
The terrorists are now in charge of truth
The former rulers in their slippers creep
The half-blind give advice on where to look
The teachers are afraid of learning loose.
The tangent to the circle is too steep
The aged read us stories from old books
Love is rare yet sex is very cheap
Timers on the bed end duly beep
The half-blind want to control just where we look
The religious agonise about that Book
Ink with tea

Can’t God see it’s May?
The temperature fluctuates each day
Snow on hilltops, sun on sandy shores
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?
I just bought a handbag on E bay
It’s cream for summer, winter must declare
The temperature fluctuates each day
Bipolar is the weather in its way
But we need sun and ask for nothing more
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?
Linen, silk, and cotton lead astray
Women with no money left to pay
The temperature might be hotter one fine day
See five cats are sleeping by the fire
On the woollen carpet, they could play
I don’t mind, but can’t God make them gay?
Every night for all my friends I pray
Now I’m running out of words to say
The temperature fluctuates each day
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?
A play set in a Confession Box is reviewed in the Times

https://www.thetimes.co.uk/edition/ireland/dramatic-moments-in-the-confessional-7twxblptc
Hi Father, give me your essay
Essay, what on earth do you mean?
Sorry,I forget the word…. blessing?
How long is it since your last Confession?
Do you mean in Court?
Crime is not always a sin
That’s Good News!
But it is still illegal.
Stop yapping. I want to tell you my sins
That sentence was very rude
Do you mean I should have got Life?
You should have been executed
But it’s no longer allowed
I regret that, in your case
Are you always so nasty to sinners
I never said you were a sinner.I am rude to everyone
Well, stop!
It’s an illness
That’s what they all say
I muse about OCD
Is that a religious order…Old Catholic Druids?
Catholics can’t be Druids
Well, what is D?
Donkeys.
You don’t seem like a donkey
It’s a metaphor.It should be Asses but they don’t breed
You are not meant to breed
I only breed cats
Well, to get back to my sins.I have kissed fifty women lustfully
How about men?
No,I am not inclined to kiss men
Thank the Lord.
I don’t think it’s wrong. Just I’ve not yet met the right one
Well kissing women is not so bad as long as they want it.
But how can I tell?
You must get to know one and do things together
Like going to bed?
No, no. Go out for a walk. Go for a meal. Discuss your common interests
My interests are not common nor vulgar
Wow. You are clever
Cleverness is not the highest value in life
Don’t tell me!
Why not?
I am too clever by half according to my aged Mother
How come?
She knows I became a priest out of pure laziness.No need to have a mortgage!
But to become celibate to avoid having to pay a mortgage seems extreme.
It seemed a good idea at the time!
My next sin is greed.I eat a box of chocolates every day
Why?
To avoid cooking
You can’t live on chocolate
I know. I go to McDonald’s
Why?
To eat burgers and chips
Silicon chips?
I don’t know but they taste good
Can I come?
Sure.if you forgive my sins
For your penance buy me a meal
That’s brilliant,Father
How did you guess?
What?
I really am your Father!
You liar
Posts in May
Different points askew
Do not descend to being cheerful
The World repents the Burning Bush.
That Burning Blush
Ghosts evoking plot?
Wear fat shoes and never cough.
America in braces?
The music and the fine
Eroticism and post-modern rhythms
Injections with will
Simmer in Newcastle
Triangle of love harassment



