My red-haired neighbour  loved her high heeled shoe

My red-haired neighbour  loved her high heeled shoes
She dressed in cream and black  when she went out
Her smart appearance called in many views

Even when she fell and was much bruised
Her eyes so sharp  drove off   marauding louts
My red-haired  neighbour saved for grand cream shoes

She dyed her hair blood red, oh men confused!
Though she was ninety she was never stout
Her   dear appearance wondrous was well viewed

By the Daily Mail, she was bemused
She meditated, used it  wrap sprouts
My  neighbour   dyed her hair and matched her shoes

Suddenly her blood  its power would lose
Her nights out and her cooking were in doubt
She so  stylish no more  could be viewed

She went to Mass on Sunday, sin to  rout
Her hair fresh dyed, she died where God’s about
My red-haired neighbour  loved her pretty shoes
In her coffin,   may  she be amused

 

 

 

The poetry of WW1

 

 

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It’s hard to believe it is 100 years since the end of that war in which my uncle died and his father died in the ensuing flu epidemic.17 million people were killed.Is that why Europe has gone downhill morally and politically… some called it suicide.The people who survived were damaged emotionally/Empires fell; revolutions occurred. Hitler began  his mad ascent to power

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/articles/70139/the-poetry-of-world-war-i

 

Servitude

If it were not for England, who would bear
This heavy servitude one moment more?
To keep a brothel, sweep and wash the floor
Of filthiest hovels were noble to compare
With this brass-cleaning life. Now here, now there
Harried in foolishness, scanned curiously o’er
By fools made brazen by conceit, and store
Of antique witticisms thin and bare.
Only the love of comrades sweetens all,
Whose laughing spirit will not be outdone.
As night-watching men wait for the sun
To hearten them, so wait I on such boys
As neither brass nor Hell-fire may appall,
Nor guns, nor sergeant-major’s bluster and noise.

How ludicrous

flowers on monday 16th January 2012 - Glimpses between the cracks:Alice's Looking Glass

God made the elephant and the bee
God knows why he then made me!

God likes hearing what I do
I  ate my dinner from my shoe

God says maths is  far too clear
Aleph Null will soon be here

God is perfect and sincere
I blame Guinness for the beer

God has told me I   am gay
I must live and I must play

God is a big memory bank
He remembers, does he think?

In some marriage of spring and summer

 

Flowers and trees in April

 

How spring is erratic;  the flowers no longer follow in sequence

But come like some Messiaen -like music

No, more like Boulez

following a defined but unknown new order…

So the snowdrops and the daffodils come together

in some marriage of spring and summer

struggling to push away the winter we still inhabit.

We may find our love like a lost coin

With his  solid fancy, he built up me
Then loved his  own creation with full heart
As soon as  he perceived discrepancies
He struck me with  his words like poisoned darts

Never did  he love me as he thought
It was  his own  creation, it was he
He threw such rage  that  in it, I was caught
I am not perfect, that is nothing new

Experiencing such fantasy is pain
It all takes place inside the owner’s self
The  people  whom we saw won’t come again
Love is a  but a dream built up in stealth

How do we escape this wish to find
Another being perfectly designed?
Is it by accepting our own flaws
We are freed from dreaded dragons’  jaws?

We may find our love like a lost coin
If we search the drains  to which dirt’s drawn

 

 

How I found a hint of heaven through gazing at pashminas: deepening our worlds

Pashminas

When people talk of there being an invisible world behind this one I don’t understand

but I have had some experiences which gave me a deeper connection to this world

I’ll just describe one.I have some pashminas in my bedroom of bluey, violet, and turquoise soft wool. For aesthetic reasons, I have hung them from the picture rail opposite the window.

I was sitting up there one day in January 2003. The sun was rising and was low in the sky being winter.I sat there quietly.I turned round and saw the pashminas illuminated by the sun.

For a few minutes I was transfixed by a strange luminous beauty which of course is always there but when we are busy we don’t take time to look at things just for their own sake.

Well, another reason was that I was not trying to have a mystical experience..I just happened on it by chance.

Or as some American psychotherapist has said, we view the world with selective inattention. We ignore what is not one of our goals for the day.

We need to leave a little space

Pashminas 2

How to knit your first row

How to knit: You must have two large needles. You put one under each arm.,So far I’ve not gone beyond that but it’s hard to keep them under my arms all day.I gather I need some wool.Is this what is known as wool-gathering”?I buy some wool in the shop and come back.I have to “cast on” so that’s why men go boating so they can “cast off”…

To cast on you make a loop in the wool and slide it onto the needle.It’s easier using thick wool and thick needles. This loop is your first stitch.To make another, insert the left hand needle into the loop, wrap the wool around it and pull it through the first loop  then slide it onto the needle giving you two stitches. Repeat one hundred times and you now have your first row

Isn’t it hard explaining how to knit! It’s harder if you use sewing needles. think I’l cook instead.

By the way,a row is pronounced to rhyme with sew. Otherwise, you’d be knitting your first argument and why would you do that?

Acrostic?

Long ago the apple tree
Overhung the dark green lawn
Vertical in mystery
Everlasting in the dawn

Youth and winter disagree
Overland and over sea
Underneath, the  clouds  agree

Deep in soil the worms  will work
Each one with its unique quirk
After feasting they will lie
Round  the rim of a dark sky
Eloquence is good to find
Sometimes it will us remind
This is where we must be kind

No  bridge destroys its power, no currents sin

The geese have moved their flight path to the East
I miss the  gladness of their graceful wings
And wish I were a bird and not a beast

In the river, they have had their feast
While the sparrows watched and gently sang
The geese are gone, their flight path’s to the East

Seeing their grace at sunset gave me peace
The  natural  world such beauty to us brings
The wish I were a bird and not a beast

North East London’s  cut up by the Lea
No  bridge destroys its power, its currents sing
The geese have moved their flight path  further East

The geese do not  make nests  in a  tall tree
But dwell upon the water  like the swans
I wish I were a bird or honey bee.

As the infant  wisely grabs and clings
So the geese will fight  if threat descends
The geese have moved their flight path to the East
Oh, to fly at sunset  with the least

 

 

 

Concrete for the Temple?

https://blog.sagradafamilia.org/en/divulgation/reinforced-concrete-for-the-temple-of-course/

 

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The Pantheon from Ancient History

Extract

WHEN WAS THIS CEMENT FIRST USED?

Building with cement and concrete may seem like a modern invention but these materials were used in Roman times. Of particular note is Pozzolanic cement, used by Roman engineers to build water channels, piers and watermills after they discovered this material can harden underwater. The name comes from the town of Pozzuoli, on the slopes of Mount Vesuvius in Italy, and the most well-known example of building with this type of cement is the Pantheon in Rome, from 123 AD. Its lightness without sacrificing strength is another great quality of this material, which is why it was used to build the great dome: with its diameter of 43.3 metres it is still the largest made of un-reinforced concrete in the world to this day.

It took nearly two millennia to surpass this size and was made possible by innovations in reinforced concrete, first used by Italian architect Pier Luigi Nervi in the 1960s.

 

Mary and the Jam

img_20190205_142010158As Mary ate her Weetabix, she felt a pain in her left leg rather like a toothache  gone awol
Emile, what are you doing?
Emile crawled out looking dusty. And he had just had a bath.
I was trying to bite the hairs off your leg, he miaowed plaintively
There are no hairs on my leg, she whispered. Oh, dear,I must  have walked into a cobweb
I wish Stan had got a cobweb brush, she muttered.
But do we really need a different brush for everything? Soon we will have one for each tooth. That will be expensive
She felt in her pocket for her Tablet. She wanted to draw a diagram of her brush cupboard using an Android App. But her pocket was empty
The back door opened and in ran Annie wearing a yellow nightdress and matching slippers
Hello, she cried. I  wanted to catch you before 9 am
Why, asked Mary?
The postman will be here by then. He has got a parcel for me. But I put your address.
What is the point of secrecy when you live alone. You have no man to question your expenses, have you? Nor a woman either
Well, Emile might ask me to explain.
Just because Emile is male it does not give him the right to tell you what to do
All my life I have obeyed men, Annie cried
Yes, after you have manipulated, seduced and terrified them
That is very cruel. I was only trying to help them.
Well, you may have done, but why not help yourself?
How can I do that?
Tune into your body and see what comes to mind
Beetroot, Annie responded.
So you must need  them, get dressed and we will go to the greengrocers
You have got very bossy, said Annie. Did you have a nightmare?
It was more like a night-tiger, Mary revealed. Something bit my foot and it hurt
Oh, mother , cried Emile, it was me!
You, Emile. What made you do that, she said angrily?
It was in my way as I crawled under the duvet, the cat whispered
Surely you could have gone further down.
I wanted to see what you tasted like!
That is evil, not to say perverted, Mary told him. I shall take you for therapy or would Confession be better? Is it a compulsion you cannot help or is it a sin?
Annie was silent. She  did not like questions nor  any kind of prolonged thought
Don’t ask me, she finally said. Maybe Emile needs a man in the house.
I don’t want any more men, Mary said sadly. They seem to die
Well, Stan was 128 years old. Annie informed her.I saw his birth certificate once. Unless it was 12.8 years
Don’t be so ridiculous. How could he have been 12.8 years old?
It must be a miracle, said Annie. Tell the Pope and he might be  declared a saint soon
St Stan of Knittingham, Patron Saint of Almost Adolescents.
The bell rang. In ran Dave.
He was dressed in navy.
I am  ready to take you to Church, he told the ladies
To church? I’d rather go to Wigan Pier
Oh,  the sea is not there on Sundays!
Is it there on the Sabbath, Annie muttered?
No, it’s not, Dave said quietly
Wow,  two more miracles, she said as she fainted into the Pantry
How annoying, Mary said. I just classified the jam
Well, things could be worse, said Dave. She’s not broken any and cut herself
What, she falls and breaks nothing. She must be very light.
Yes, she nearly  is electric, he quipped
Whatever next?

And so say all of us

Is it all over?

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https://www.jehsmith.com/1/2018/12/its-all-over.html

 

“The essay touched a nerve, and most of the response to it was positive. One common mistaken interpretation, to which I want to respond, was that it amounts to an expression of “conservatism”. We are at a strange point indeed in our culture when a scoffing and dismissive attitude towards Hollywood entertainments such as action-hero movies, generated by market forces alone, may be seen as conservative. I continue to believe in a culture independent of these forces, and I bemoan the obsession of so many in our present age with monitoring the garbage output of the entertainment industry for signs of this industry’s affirmations of progressive values. I do not care about this industry. I think true progressivism consists in rejecting it, not in proclaiming the latest “iteration of Wonder Woman “good” because it managed to stay on-message relative to some particular conception of feminism, or that some movie with Emma Stone in it is “bad” because the lead role should have gone to a person of color. Who gives a shit? Who has time for this kind of stuff? Woke celebrity-gossip-mongering is still celebrity-gossip-mongering, and no one is going to convince me that it counts as political in any meaningful sense. Let’s make our own culture instead, with bold new visions of what art might be, rather than pushing Hollywood business moguls to do it for us.

I admitted in the essay to a certain fogeyism, so let me pull out a fogey trope and tell you how things were in the old days. In my late teens I used to drive thirty miles each way to go to the nearest art-house video-rental store, in order to take back home VHS tapes of the works of Ousmane Sembène, rightly called the Chekhov of Senegal. I loved his cinematic language, and I felt that through it I was gaining access to a certain true depiction of Africa. This and similar experiences leave me nonplussed and, yes, a bit angry, when, years later, I find myself reading excited young people declaring on Twitter that, with the release of Black Panther in 2018, we are “finally getting to see Africa depicted in film”. But that is not Africa; that is some fantasy bullshit. Africa has already been depicted in film going back several decades, by great African directors such as Sembène, and you are just not working hard enough if you expect movies to be delivered up to you as mass-release big-screen entertainments. I recently gave in and selected Black Panther while on a very long flight. I turned it off after ten minutes or so. It was just too stupid.”

Speaker, listener

The little words invented as we loved
Now have no other speaker but myself.
Lost, unique, the husband, so beloved,
These little words expressed our  joyous love.
In my speech, these words no longer live
I cannot use those words, our loving wealth.
The chosen words invented as we loved
Now have no other listener but myself.

My Lancashire accent or maybe accident

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Eeh, it were right crackin’ at school t’day
Wot wur thi sayin’ this time?
Thi said wi can do Greek next year
Ye’re not doin’ Greek
Why not,our Mam
Ye can’t even spek English
Why,  am I not canny enough?
No, we don’t spek English eether
Well, ye shud a thought eh that before y’ad me
Ye mean only  people with BBC eksents can bear childern?Well, we reckoned if we learnt English we’d lose our desire
F’wat, Mam
F’ that! Ye know… It, ye get what ah mean
No,Mam.Can ye not spell it our a bit more?
Spell it out, t’dad would tan me hide!
Still he must a dunnit,Mam
I dunno, it wer dark.Mebbe it wer the cat, ah thought
Surely the cat’s not mi  dad, is  he?
It weren’t this cat, it wer another called Billy.
Well, how come ah’m human?
You think ye’re human, but  am telling ye,ye got  t’cat’s eyes
Just his eyes? How abaht his whiskers
Don’t be so daft, our Kath,Ye’ve got his hair
But only on my head so far.Willa bi changin’ into a cat as ah mature?
Wi’ll have te wait and see.Put ‘t kettle on.We need some tea.
Why, what difference will that make now.I’m a cat,I’m a cat…. oh, what’ll  ‘et nuns say  ‘et Convent when ah tellum?
You keep away from ‘et Convent~
Why, our Mam?
Do as I tell you.Never confide in a nun
Well,Ah shan’t let ‘et cat fettle me.Ah’m not that daft
Well, yi can’t do Greek and that’s final
Kyrie Eleison,Kyrie Eleison
Wot’s that?
Oh, nothin’ at all
Christie Horizon
For God’s sake speak English!

The lost embrace

The sparrows sing as if to draw me to
The present moment’s gravity and grace
Our contemplation of life’s nature new

What  other attitude is worthwhile now
That I no longer see your loving face?
The sparrows sing as if to greet me too

Eden is still here, we miss the clues
We miss the  ardent touch,  the lost embrace
Our contemplation of the world renews

On my face, the tears are jeweled dew
In my body, I feel held, enclosed
The sparrows sing as if to greet me too

Now the blackbird sings as if on cue
Inside my swollen heart, I feel its grace
Contemplation of  life’s nature new

I saw your soul in your transparent face.
And crisscrossed lines from struggle left their trace
The sparrows sing as if to draw us to
The contemplation of the  wildness true,

I think I am invisible

img_20190311_170607Living in my bedsit in the tower of  the old folk
Watching television,I heard somebody speak
A robot does my cleaning and it does not ever smoke

I think I am invisible, I wear a  dust grey  cloak
Maybe I’m a loser; my bones already creak
Living in my bedsit in the tower of  the old folk

Noone  here can touch me, now maybe they will joke
But my heart is feeling empty and I know I am a freak
A robot does my cleaning and it does not even smoke

The council can’t afford replacements for any mugs I broke
I see a few  young people  drinking coffee  in the street
Weeping in my bedsit in the tower of  the old folk

If I tried to drown myself no doubt I would just float
When I go to a farm shop, the sheep  won’t stop to bleat
A robot does my cleaning and it does not even smoke

I am serving my life sentence, but it seems incomplete
I can only walk ten yards, arthritis in my feet
Living in my bedsit in the tower of  the old folk
A robot did my cleaning, the dumb thing never spoke

Art and heart

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the art of poetry isn’t hard to master
make the syntax good and  entertaining
the  gruesome heart of poetry's a disaster

 
a meter errant makes  the lines come faster
an oxford  thesaurus   gets the listeners   waning
the art of poetry isn’t hard to master.

 
a genius woke and saw a verse rush past her
it only needed polishing and planing
the  gruesome heart of poetry, her  disaster


she left the oven on, it gassed her
ever since her folk  groan, paining
the art of poetry isn’t hard to master.

 

she saw her selves as coloured shapes in plaster
and round her mind, were ghosts all  weakly craning
the  gruesome heart of poetry brings disaster

there’s not a lot of hope if we’re complaining
for criticism  from hidden ghosts is draining
the art of poetry isn’t hard to master
the  gruesome signs of poetry bring disaster

Hard love

img_20180224_172908http://www.sarahwilson.com/2018/03/hard-love-weak-character/

Extract:

“Existentialist angst always surfaces during times of human ugliness.

Arendt adds that it’s a moral imperative to not sink into banality, as righteous as not doing harm.

  • Not comprehending what Brexit was about before voting proved irrevocably harmful.
  • Not caring where your plastic bag ends up (because you’ve not engaged with the facts) is killing the planet.
  • Failing to be bold in love is killing relationships…and making us all bored.
  • Drifting, flaking, blaming, avoiding, turning blind eyes, going MIA when you’re needed, scrolling Instagram instead of reading long reads about stuff that counts…it’s making us all lesser.

And we know it. We don’t like it about ourselves, but what to do?

I know some people’s response is that it’s all too much, that they can’t afford the energy to care, to think, to get engaged. I quote New York chef and owner of Prune restaurant Gabrielle Hamilton (a thinker, a doer, a liver) who found herself telling friends who can’t be arsed reducing food waste with some minor lifestyle adjustments:

“It’s hard for me to love somebody with a weak character like that”.

I’ve been wondering lately if I’m reaching the same point. I note that many of you on this blog and on my socials are feeling the same. I’m certainly struggling with flaccid, excuse-making, buck-passing characters at the moment. It’s dead difficult viewing such expressions of anti-humanity with mature, kind eyes. And walking away (turning a blind eye) strikes me as (almost) equally banal and flaccid.”

Even when it’s suicide to smile

Taunt no longer idiots on these isles
For like the Lord they are not English pure
They voted for the  stupid and the wild

In appearance, May looks fairly mild
For the old, she has   a faint allure
Being  the chief  sweeper of  church aisles

 

Boris Johnson Turkey has defiled
He cooked his goose  in rapeseed oil  uncured
As   befits the  madmen and the wild

Michael Gove’s own  head his heart defiled
Yet save him from the deserts of the sewer
Taunt no longer morons on these isles

The NHS is poorer  mile by mile
It’s good if you are dying on the wires
Even when it’s suicide to smile

Mrs Thatcher, never   paid the toll
She wrote a cheque and signed the counterfoil
Taunt no longer MPs on these isles
We chose among the cunning, the most vile.

 

 

The lamp  is silent, now I am alone

He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone
Made by potters on the Suffolk Coast
The lamp was silent, it was he who groaned

I was not angry, though I may have moaned
I loved  our lamps but I loved him the most
He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone

For human time  on earth is just a loan
And of it’s wasting, who am I to boast?
The lamp was  quiet, the man it was who groaned

Like a candle when the flame is blown
His  life force waned, I saw as I was  close
He fell so broke our lamp, a sphere of stone

By the following week, his  soul had flown
I heard the music of a distant Host
The room was  quiet, my  love  no longer groaned

Of the love of God, I long to boast
Despite that, some devil my heart froze
Why  go down  and break that lamp forlorn
The lamp  is silent, now I am alone

 

Beech trees are so British, I am Welsh

The bonsai tree is now a thick green hedge
By my mended garden wall of brick
Beech trees are so British, they are Welsh

My genes are mainly Irish, it’s alleged
With some from Denmark making  blonde hair  thick
The bonsai tree is now a thick green hedge

My  metatarsals Celtic I begrudge
I could bear them were they Arabic
Bleached feet are so British, they  now belch

Through the EU quicksands, I can squelch
Even if the  dirt makes my legs black
I need no tree, I need a stony ledge

Immigrants are dying  of their lack
Kill them all, we’re British  we love flak
We don’t mind a  flower from somewhere else
Elm trees are  so common,  yet they’re Dutch

 

 

 

 

 

The tangent to the circle is too steep

The half-blind  give advice  on where to look
The soft tongued sell us slogans of defeat
The religious read us stories  from old books

The  thieves  like  pointing out the crooks
While  we amble down the  vacated streets
The half-blind  give advice  on  how to look

We win a gamble yet call it  a fluke
We   love our loss, we like to be downbeat
The religious read us stories  from old books

The terrorists are now in charge of truth
The former rulers  in their slippers creep
The half-blind  give advice  on where to look

The teachers are afraid of learning loose.
The tangent to the circle is too steep
The aged read us stories  from old books

Love is rare yet sex is very cheap
Timers on the bed end duly beep
The half-blind  want  to control  just where we look
The religious agonise about that Book

Can’t God see it’s May?

The temperature fluctuates each day
Snow on hilltops, sun on sandy shores
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?

I just bought a handbag on E bay
It’s cream for summer, winter must declare
The temperature fluctuates each day

Bipolar  is the weather in  its  way
But we need sun and ask for nothing more
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?

Linen, silk, and cotton lead astray
Women with no money left to pay
The temperature  might be hotter one fine  day

See five cats are  sleeping by the fire
On the woollen carpet, they  could play
 I don’t mind, but can’t God make them gay?

Every night for all my friends I pray
Now I’m running out of words to say
The temperature fluctuates each day
I don’t mind, but can’t God see it’s May?

 

 

A play set in a Confession Box is reviewed in the Times

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https://www.thetimes.co.uk/edition/ireland/dramatic-moments-in-the-confessional-7twxblptc

Hi Father, give me your essay
Essay, what on earth do you mean?
Sorry,I forget the word…. blessing?
How long is it since your last Confession?
Do you mean in Court?
Crime is not always a sin
That’s Good News!
But it is still illegal.
Stop yapping. I want to tell you my sins
That  sentence was very rude
Do you mean I should have got Life?
You should have been executed
But it’s no longer allowed
I  regret that, in  your case
Are you always so nasty to sinners
I never said you were a sinner.I am rude to everyone
Well, stop!
It’s an illness
That’s what they all say
I  muse about OCD
Is that a religious order…Old Catholic Druids?
Catholics can’t be Druids
Well, what is D?
Donkeys.
You don’t seem like a donkey
It’s a metaphor.It should be Asses but they don’t breed
You are  not meant to breed
I only breed cats
Well, to get back to my sins.I have kissed fifty women lustfully
How about men?
No,I am not inclined to kiss men
Thank the Lord.
I don’t think it’s wrong. Just I’ve not yet met the right one
Well kissing women is not so bad as long as they want it.
But how can I  tell?
You must get to know one and do things together
Like going to bed?
No, no. Go out for a walk. Go for a meal. Discuss your  common interests
My interests are  not common nor vulgar
Wow. You are clever
Cleverness is not the highest value in life
Don’t tell me!
Why not?
I am too clever by half according to my aged Mother
How come?
She knows I became a  priest out of pure laziness.No need to have a mortgage!
But to become celibate to avoid having to pay a mortgage seems extreme.
It seemed a good idea at the time!
My next sin is greed.I eat a box of chocolates every day
Why?
To avoid cooking
You can’t live on chocolate
I know. I go to McDonald’s
Why?
To eat burgers and chips
Silicon chips?
I don’t know but they taste good
Can I come?
Sure.if you forgive my sins
For your penance buy me a meal
That’s brilliant,Father
How did you guess?
What?
I really am your Father!
You liar

Posts in May

Different points askew

Do not descend to being cheerful

The World repents the Burning Bush.

That Burning Blush

Ghosts evoking plot?

Wear fat shoes and never cough.

 

America in braces?

The music and the fine

Eroticism and post-modern rhythms

Injections with will

 

Simmer in Newcastle

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Triangle of love  harassment