Which human never feels these cruel assaults?

Here I am  half dressed with uncombed hair
As weary as  a wolf without a lair
Now my thoughts are waylaid by   my faults
Which human never feels these cruel assaults?

Why do I not think of all my joys?
Instead I recall cruelty  nuns deployed
If I could have hated them at school
My  anger would turn outwards ,be less cruel

Do we nurse  such hatred  for some gain?
Surely it ‘s not  worth the searing pain
I wonder how to let it go for good
And quietly bear my burden, cross of wood

Retaliation,  arrows that return
The  sender feels the pain but will  they learn?