I did this drawing many years ago
He said he could never forgive himself if he forgave me.
Somebody has to be the bad person
Then someone else can be the good one.
As Melanie Klein might have said:
It’s the paranoid schizoid position
But what exactly is it?
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I was bare as rocks are by the sea
My uniform had vanished like the cat
I had to take exams in geometry
I felt besmirched by nuns’ conformity
They always howled, so pure they’d hit a bat
I was as bare as babies on God’s knee
Nakedness displays deformities
My Celtic feet have bones but not much fat
I had to take exams in geometry
My body seemed to cause hilarity
I had not typed it in the right format
I was as bare as swans at Manningtree
I had no clothes,no pen, no mortgage fee
I left the room, I’m never going back
I faked exams in Greek and poverty
My face was white, my eyes were blue and black
I looked so round ,I wore no corselette
I declare my frocks are up a tree
I had to drop the bomb on Coventry
Here I am half dressed with uncombed hair
As weary as a wolf without a lair
Now my thoughts are waylaid by my faults
Which human never feels these cruel assaults?
Why do I not think of all my joys?
Instead I recall cruelty nuns deployed
If I could have hated them at school
My anger would turn outwards ,be less cruel
Do we nurse such hatred for some gain?
Surely it ‘s not worth the searing pain
I wonder how to let it go for good
And quietly bear my burden, cross of wood
Retaliation, arrows that return
The sender feels the pain but will they learn?
When I’m ill I feel my life’s a wreck
The mirror frightens me as I reflect
Who am I and why do I feel so
Omnipotent,destroying as I go.?
Yet how we feel will change as does our health
After trauma, drained of all our wealth
We stagger on the battlefield unsought
Until by kindness we are held and caught
We must help each other,strength combined
A smile, a touch, a word, a little line
What seems common sense may be ignored
The strong may hate the weak and slam the door
Be with others, listen,look and learn
Then one day the tide of life will turn
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[i Carry Your Heart With Me(i Carry It In]
By E.E. Cummings More E.E. Cummings
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)
How my heart speaks 