Sleep with Shakespeare,lie with Joyce

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It seemed a good idea at the time.But the timing was wrong.Shakespeare was my boyfriend’s friend.To be honest he was a cat.So to preserve my modesty I slept with the cat and not the boyfriend.Just another natural disaster in every day life.

Still,a cat has eyes unlike a flea which is what I sleep with now;
I know only because it bites me in the night!Possibly it was from the cat and became a multitude like my sins .which are mainly of omission.A  few are cultivated and the rest grew like weeds.I feel such shame when I think of my life,sleeping with everything but  a human being. Intimacy with moths does not contribute to literature or any other human undertaking and yet it saved a man from torment loving a woman with such a strange personality.So that is good.I also wrote a few plays

A midsummer night’s scream.

Julius seized me.

Richard the Blurred

King Fear

MacDuff,the pudding

Hamrent

Hamerous

Hams of old England.

Nymphs and Leopards.

Liebscreamsche

Nietzsche’s word was my father.

Who won the Bore?

England’s screaming peasants blend

Death ,where is thy King?

Foreigner’a rile us.

Boldlock the beloved

I  made a few dollars selling myself to  an owl
.Beyond that my life is herstory.

Can I get bail?I hope the judge is  lenient

The trees are calmer now as if they care.

The summer heat of Monday  disappeared
The brightness of the sky  filled me with love
Winter is still closer than we feared

Now in  the gale  the trees of birds are cleared
Grey rain clouds  will  congregateI above
The summer heat of Monday  disappeared

In a winter storm, I am not scared
I watch the channel  of the soothing dove
Winter is still closer than we feared

I’m lonely, sitting restless in the chair
Even death can feel like a rebuff
The  ardent heat of Monday  disappeared

The trees are calmer now, as if they care.
I feel  I ‘ve  lived with anguish long enough
Darkness is still closer than we feared

The tress are sacred standing in the  grove
A second is   eternal in rheir love
The summer heat of Monday  disappeared
Winter is much closer than we feared

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Poetry and Prose: Choosing the Right Words
© 1997 by Dorothy E. Robbins
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A good vocabulary, gained through reading good poetry and prose, enhances poetic expression

This is a poetry column. Why would one discussing how to write good poetry encourage the readers to read good prose? Of course, we know that prose and poetry are closely related and parts of the language of every nation; both are means of communicating ideas and, obviously, one uses the same words for both. The conclusion is, therefore, that a well-read person has a larger vocabulary than one who reads little. This is not just a great asset, it is essential if one wants to write either prose or poetry and write it well. We want to see today how reading good prose helps one write good poetry – as well as discover through this how these two differ – as they very definitely do.
If one has a large vocabulary, one can pick and choose to find just the right word. And choosing the right word can make a difference in several ways. For example, which word would you choose if you were creating a poem using one of the following lines?

“Cry when I’m gone.” “Weep when I’m gone.”

Perhaps you would say that the word “weep” has a softer, more sympathetic sound. You might also realize that the alliteration between “weep” and “when” is pleasing to the ear and heart. Now, listen to the remainder of the poem and think how different it would have sounded if the word “cry” had been used. Note, also, other uses of alliteration that help to emphasize the ideas and lead one to the conclusion and climax at the end of the verse.

Weep, when I’m gone, if you must,
But know it is true, if you trust,
I’ll only be gone for a day;
And soon you’ll be going that way.

Are we not too old for pleasures rash?

‘She held me in her arms and caressed me
Though she is 87 . I am 93.
I  felt a warmth run down my outside leg
The dog had peed on me, though taught to beg.
There was nothing else to do but strip right off.
When she saw me nude  it made her  froth
Are we not too old  for pleasures rash?
Why do you not  get the loving crush?
Get into bed and caress my left knee
For it gives excess suffering unto me.
Why go to bed when you need physiotherapy?
I read  that  lesbians enjoy sex,so why not me?
Well do you wish  me  bite   your  outer ear?
No,I prefer the  love without the fear.
Why not hug and kiss and say  night prayers?
We can get to  sex by gentle layers.
No,we are too old we cannot wait
We might die and it will be too late!
Well,if I die there are some younger folk!
Ah,but they don’t talk the way you talk.
So why are we in bed  just to converse?
I just desired to  be me and perverse.
Well, let me rub your back with chilli cream
If it hurts your bum ,you’ll have to scream.
What will the doctor think if I’m all red?
Just tell her   this: a tiger shared your bed
But would a cat be able to apply
This chilli cream to me at its first try?
I guess  I’ll have to  do a Ph.D
Called, what the cats I love have done to me.
Do you think I am a masochist?
I fear I cannot answer till we’ve kissed!
And after that  my memory is quite blank
If I am not a virgin,I’m a crank.
To think I had to wait till 93
To know what my own sex could do  to me.

A mere mirage

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My  new-found hope may be a mere mirage;
Illusion of no help in my despair.
Yet imagination   stirs up needed courage
And helps the mind and heart in their repair.
I’ll dwell not in the mind’s relentless thoughts;
I’ll use my eyes and ears and skin
Then i that trap, I  never shall  be caught.
I’ll see  and hear to moderate this din.
In wider focus all will take their place
I’ll focus less on  this  wound I bear late
And see  both good and bad in every space.
So not dismiss the world and all its states.
Changing  vision show   us  truer measures.
Perception valued brings to us much treasure.

When crazy ,tinted,wild blow all the leaves

Of all the seasons, I love most the Fall
When crazy ,tinted,wild blow all the leaves
They love to  toast themselves in summer sun
And want no shelter from the Western wind.
While squirrels   hide their  nuts and batten down
For winter on this  European isle.

For  those who wish there is the Shopping Mall
Where they forget  thin nature now bereaved.
For children  playing ball is joy and fun,
With grazed  legs and knees forever skinned
Meanwhile the rich put on their evening gowns
And after dinner, dance  and woo a  while.

But many like myself  desire the call
Of  knotted hedge  and bent aslant old trees
Of damp long grass and hares wild on the hunt
For  winter   madness  makes all  beasts grow  thin
We in  old wool coats   will crouch and frown
In camera,  waiting with our hearts docile.

Yet,there is a threat in  hearing, Fall
As if our forebears could  have lived quite free
Unclothed and loving,   dreams  of human’   haunt
As if we could wind back the reel and  film again.
Knowing this impossible we’re drawn
To  fall ourselves and sleep  and never smile.

The world itself is dance,  it is a Ball
If we lose our thoughts  and merry be
Give ourselves what we most truly want
This world was made for us to span and scan
Every plant for you  and me is grown
And so we smile and smile on Europe’s  isle

Cafe menu

Cod rows on crust
Cod raised on toast
Salmon sand witches
Herring aid  chips
Fat beef  and moan.
Lamb chops home  groan.
Chicken. if you ask it!
Beef minces with harlots and turned hips
Toast lamb bundles with sweet potted toes;
Greasy pudding with meat spores and sprouts

Jelly sets
Free carnations  with milk
Figs in a blanket.
Busted tarts.
Lemon mice.
Yoga hurts,wide selection
Creme brew-lay.
Bavarian looms.
Jam and rubber sponge with dream
Ill bred and battered pudding with real raisins and bastard.

In the gusts of wind,all children dance

In the gusts of wind  small children dance
The leaves, though  brown,seem lively as they’re  blown
These ancient leaves seem merry as they prance.

Falling down  and bouncing , happy chance
It is an act more dangerous to the old
In the gusts of wind  our children dance

With  such leaves, a cat may find  romance
They tickle him in places far too bold
The long  dead leaves seem merry as they prance.

This cat and I  now share  sardonic glance.
His eyes are golden with a hint of cold
In the gusts of wind , all children dance

Though we don”t worship God, what is the chance
That love itself   descended from  that throne?
The lusty leaves seem merry as they mince

Here I stand ,by sadness  overthrown
Till some human calls to  take me  home
Yet in this  gale, the children can’t but dance
Dynamic leaves  show  passion and entrance

Jandy Nelson, The Sky Is Everywhere

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“grief is a house
where the chairs
have forgotten how to hold us
the mirrors how to reflect us
the walls how to contain us

grief is a house that disappears
each time someone knocks at the door
or rings the bell
a house that blows into the air
at the slightest gust
that buries itself deep in the ground
while everyone is sleeping

grief is a house where no one can protect you
where the younger sister
will grow older than the older one
where the doors
no longer let you in
or out”

The second coming by W B Yeats

 

 

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: a waste of desert sand;
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Wind shadows of the indignant desert birds.

The darkness drops again but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

The sun flew

Yesterday the sun was fearsome gold
The sky of cerulean blue was   summer warm
Yet now I tremble in the dreaded cold

Where are those arms in which I  once was held;
Where the smile and where the loving balm?
Yesterday the sun was fierce with gold

Once, with  love I was made  kind yet bold
I rested on the strength within his arms
Yet now I tremble in the stealthy cold

My heart is crying. for  love now seems withheld.
And no protection shields me from dread harm
Yesterday the sun was warm and gold

With his body I once wished to meld
I gave myself to hold him  then so warm
Yet now I tremble in the stealthy cold

Grief can cause both tears and wild alarm
Yet music or the song of birds  is balm
Yesterday the sun  flew starred with gold
Yet now I clothe myself to live  with cold

Your pain a sacred catalyst for growth

Give sorrow words,  to understand  this grief
All losses make a mighty river flow
Contribute   your vision to our need.

 

Your tears will raise from death the holy seeds
Your pain a  sacred catalyst  for growth
Give sorrow words,  to understand this grief

Nothing shall be wasted,not a leaf.
I know we’ll take and keep a sacred oath
Contribute   your vision to our need.

The words when chosen bring  us to relief
As a person lives so shall they sow.
Give your sorrow words,  to understand all grief

Inside our heads and guts, our feeling seethe
Love  is here yet all of us will die
Contribute   your vision to our need.

Nothing in this poetry’s a lie.
Every human soul will say,goodbye.
Give sorrow words,  to satisfy  your grief
Contribute   your visions to our needs.

I talk about the weather like a fool

When I cannot tell you how I feel
When I want to see you ,not  to speak,
I talk about the weather like a  fool

Sometimes when I’m tired I feel unreal
Or life seems lost and  meaning seems to leak
Then I  can not  tell you how I feel.

Some months have their winds to make misrule
Others  throttle  throats and freeze the cheeks
I talk about the weather ,as its cool.

We must keep moving or our blood congeals
So sheep must  on moorland  frosty, bleak
I don’t want to  lie for  life is real

When winter mocks our age I find it cruel
Yet you are old and for amusement look
I talk about  the sunshine like a  fool

Oh,happy   snowfalls keeping us from school
As on the ice we tumbled with loud shrieks
When I  cannor   tell you how I feel
The weather  stands for  what  I   have concealed

The underpinnings now are foundering

He is dead,I am not self deceived.
He smiled,I smiled, and then  he closed his eyes
There’s the coffin with its boundaries

How does death affect the ones bereaved?
Some despair  some speak in fatal lies
He is dead,I am not self deceived.

My underpinnings now are foundering
I cannot help myself ,though I will try
There’s the coffin with its boundaries

He’s gone,he’s gone and cannot be retrieved.
I knew I had to  watch him on his way
He is dead, I will not sense deceive.

What is my world when he is not perceived?
I will  lose my voice unless I pray
The wooden coffin brings me to my knees

To God’s own grace, I open to receive
He’s the green force underneath  our play
My lover’s dead, I will not sense deceive.

Tomorrow and tomorrow I shall pay
As in the enriched ground his form will lie
He is dead,I am not self deceived.
Here’s  his coffin with  closed boundaries

What will be a flower,what a mere weed?

Unshed tears will make our innards bleed
The agony disguised  will find its way,
Destroy our life and kill the growing seed

On this topic many’ ve disagreed
Stiff upper lips and  eyes that look like prey
The unshed tears will make  their innards bleed

We must surely ask for what we need
Not tomorrow, we must act today
Protect our life and all  its growing seeds

What will be a flower,what a mere weed?
We must use our wisdom to convey
The unshed tears  that make our innards bleed

Only our own soul knows all our needs
And once we seek, we must not  more delay
Employ our life and help the growing seed

Seek the owl and not the donkey’s bray
What it tells you none but you can say
For unshed tears will make our innards bleed
Destroy our life and kill the growing seed

No remedy exists for hidden grief

No remedy exists for hidden grief
A blank face and a voice that does not speak
Expression  is the route to our relief

The caterpillar gnaws the new green leaf
And actions are the place where meaning leaks
No remedy exists for hidden grief

Emotions are all clouded and bereft
We look around and all the world seems bleak
Expression  is the pathway to relief

Song or dance or paint or words can leave
A form wherein our agony is Greek
No remedy exists for hidden grief

We trust the dark,continue to believe
Though all we hear at first are our own shrieks
Expression  is the way to  true relief.

The heart and soul   are patient and are meek.
For the unknown God,  they darkness seek
No remedy exists for hidden grief
Expression   gives us comfort and relief

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For the love of avocados

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For the Love of Avocados

I sent him from home hardly more than a child.
Years later, he came back loving avocados.
In the distant kitchen where he’d flipped burgers
and tossed salads, he’d mastered how to prepare
the pear-shaped fruit. He took a knife and plied
his way into the thick skin with a bravado
and gentleness I’d never seen in him. He nudged
the halves apart, grabbed a teaspoon and carefully
eased out the heart, holding it as if it were fragile.
He took one half, then the other of the armadillo-
hided fruit and slid his spoon where flesh edged
against skin, working it under and around, sparing
the edible pulp. An artist working at an easel,
he filled the center holes with chopped tomatoes.
The broken pieces, made whole again, merged
into two reconstructed hearts, a delicate and rare
surgery. My boy who’d gone away angry and wild
had somehow learned how to unclose
what had once been shut tight, how to urge
out the stony heart and handle it with care.
Beneath the rind he’d grown as tender and mild
as that avocado, its rubies nestled in peridot,
our forks slipping into the buttery texture
of unfamiliar joy, two halves of what we shared.

A word that’s spoken by a friend can reach

A word  that’s spoken by a friend can  reach
Can touch, can move, can  embrace in its sounds
The inner soul where its vibrations teach.

When cut off, silent,after   sad defeat
Such gentle words can break our sullen bonds
A word  that’s spoken by a friend can  reach.

We must not  torture nor torment  in speech
Our heart, the centre of our  morbid wounds
The inner soul with its vibrations speaks..

From our eye, a tear  springs  with  relief
From imprisoned sulking, jump with a great bound!
A word  that’s spoken by a friend can  reach.

Muscles weaken,but the mind stays fleet
Humour and its cousins are our clowns
The inner soul  by its athletics speaks.

I smile and smile and rarely do I frown
For I will rise up, even when low down
A word  that’s spoken by a friend can  reach
The inner soul ,deep  memories  are evoked

Down with self improvement

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A book has just come out_ called Stand Firm;resisting the self improvement craze by Svend Brinkmann

As someone said way back,if these books work why do people keep buying more of them?

My view is that you need to get to know  yourself before you try to change.I suppose one way is psychotherapy but there are others… just self observation like:

Why do I not like receiving compliments?
Why do I leave things till the last minute?
I have a suspicion that knowing yourself will change you  without any other actions.
The only valuable thing I have read is that we all suffer in life and  it becomes worse if you criticise yourself for not feeling better.We have sad or fearful  emotions for  good reasons.Even depression has a  value in slowing us down and letting us review our lives.

Darkling- the meaning

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Definition of darkling

  1. 1:  dark

  2. 2:  done or taking place in the dark


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The darkling thrush

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I leant upon a coppice gate
      When Frost was spectre-grey,
And Winter’s dregs made desolate
      The weakening eye of day.
The tangled bine-stems scored the sky
      Like strings of broken lyres,
And all mankind that haunted nigh
      Had sought their household fires.
The land’s sharp features seemed to be
      The Century’s corpse outleant,
His crypt the cloudy canopy,
      The wind his death-lament.
The ancient pulse of germ and birth
      Was shrunken hard and dry,
And every spirit upon earth
      Seemed fervourless as I.
At once a voice arose among
      The bleak twigs overhead
In a full-hearted evensong
      Of joy illimited;
An aged thrush, frail, gaunt, and small,
      In blast-beruffled plume,
Had chosen thus to fling his soul
      Upon the growing gloom.
So little cause for carolings
      Of such ecstatic sound
Was written on terrestrial things
      Afar or nigh around,
That I could think there trembled through
      His happy good-night air
Some blessed Hope, whereof he knew
      And I was unaware.

The Last Performance BY THOMAS HARDY

“I am playing my oldest tunes,” declared she,
      “All the old tunes I know,—
Those I learnt ever so long ago.”
—Why she should think just then she’d play them
       Silence cloaks like snow.
When I returned from the town at nightfall
      Notes continued to pour
As when I had left two hours before:
“It’s the very last time,” she said in closing;
       “From now I play no more.”
A few morns onward found her fading,
      And, as her life outflew,
I thought of her playing her tunes right through;
And I felt she had known of what was coming,
      And wondered how she knew.

A gentle touch can help the sad at heart

Cutting hair is like   creating art
My kind hairdresser said this to me once.
Her loving touch can help the sorry heart

 

If I were cutting hair, where would I start?
I smiled at her and gave firm response
Cutting hair is  a  creative  art

 

Upon which side do you desire to part?
I was day- dreaming,my mind was in a trance
A gentle touch can help the sad at heart

 

Another lover’s not what I have sought
I can’t withstand the  torments of the dance
Looking good  is  a  creative  art

I  never enjoyed the way men talked and fought
I am a  stranger to  the rules of a romance
A gentle touch can help the sad at heart

I kissed a man but it was self defence!
I  never let him get a second chance
Cutting hair is like   creating art
A loving touch can help the lonesome  heart

Unless I love the lost too.

 

  • I can’t love you
    without loving the whole world too.
    I can’t open my heart
    unless everyone can be part.

    Wait for me.
    I’m not afraid.
    Wait for me.
    I may be delayed.

    I see you in my mind,
    Smiling, sad and kind.
    I can’t love you
    Unless I love the lost too.

    Give me your hands
    Outstretched across the world.
    We’re all one
    Love has begun

How much beauty can a human bear?

This music does caress my inner ear
Takes me to my childhood joy and love
How much beauty can a human bear?

The vision of the lighted candles here
A symbol  of the starlight far above
Beloved music will caress my inner ear

And God   does dwell in those who sense him near
But overlooked , he’s  but a clear grey dove
How much beauty can a human bear?

And see, God laughs to be revered
As she enjoys the flutter of my glove,
While music  does caress my inner ear!

The God who’s true does not depend on fear
But holds the soul as it  allows their love
How much beauty can a human bear?

God is here  and not at  one  remove.
And in his grace we each can gently bathe
This music shall caress my inner ear
How much beauty can a human bear?

 

But come back as an adult till we’re done.

Down grassy banks we rolled  for joy and fun
Like children playing out   in freer times
Then back to being adults we would come

We wrote each other letters filled with puns.
We wrote the letters often, with good rhymes.
Down grassy banks we rolled  for joy and fun

The bills and the housekeeping we would shun
Though now and then we’d wash away the grime
So back to being adults we would come

He fed a  robin daily and it ran
Inside the house when he had passed his time
Those grassy banks ,oh, happiness and fun

When  he grew older and his time was gone
I sat nearby and struggled with my  poems
I had to be an adult by design

Don’t count the cost nor allocate the blame.
Don’t feel  the guilt neither   the heat of shame
Down grassy banks enjoy   the ancient fun
But  come back as an adult  till we’re done.

What is the world when unadorned

When first I saw your soulful face,
I wished to dwell in your  embrace.
I wished as well to clothe you in
The sacred images within.
To find a home for love without;
To fold my dreams all round about;
Your loving body and your face
Were covered in such joy and grace.
I found my dreams were cast aside;
The world of meaning denied life.
What seemed most precious now is fled
As I lie sleepless in my bed.
What is the world when unadorned
With all that in my heart I’ve formed?
There is no meaning I can trace.
As in a mother’s empty face.
On these grey rocks. my path is hard.
From paradise, my self is barred.
To struggle or to grief succumb,
When this dark day of mourning’s done?
Into His dazzling darkness dart
My dreams and love like dying sparks.
Into His Mystery so fair.
I’ll cast both hope and my despair.
Thus my dreams will be transformed
To show themselves in other forms.
What feels a loss may foretell growth.
On my hope,I’ll take an oath:
“That nothing in my life is waste;
That I have not for phantasms chased.
And you are human,as am I.
Let’s live again until we die”