On the last train,Warsaw to Moscow,change Niegoreloje.1939

Elena,a baby wrapped in woollen clothes.
On the last train,Warsaw to Moscow,
[ change Niegoreloje.]
1939.Father,mother,brother
You passed through the Arctic Wastes of life.
Still as if travelling on a train
To an impossibly far destination.
As you left, the German Army crashed into Poland
Lost,your aunts
Your cousins.
Your culture.
How does God select the damned?
You had your own baby,here in England,
Not lost like all those others.
Your father died by his own hand,
The hand of history;
The fingers twitching,
Not sure where to point.
Then settling into frozen grief
A sculpture only your mother saw.
You saw too,Elena.
You always saw,though you can’t remember.
The long journey,your mother’s breast,
Your father’s silence.
Only the dead know that silence.
Only the dead weep
With the rocks and stones .
And the ice in each eye
Fell like snow down your cheeks
As you held your own infant.
Warsaw to Moscow,
Moscow to Jerusalem.
Always journeying
Looking for what they can never find:
The home they left behind
The presence of the dead
Lying in gaunt heaps
Like rubbish.
Your aunts, Elena.
Your cousins.
You never knew them.
But there’s a hole in your mind
Through which the Polish wind blows forever

Philadelphus “Belle Étoile”

Deep down in the clay and soil
Where the worms and brethren toil
Roots of all my garden shrubs
Twine in their long lust and love.

Invisible  yet holy life,
Sacramental, without price.
Love is hidden in the dark
Waiting for the spirit’s  spark

Uncountable the ants and bees
The insects on  old hawthorn trees
Our own souls are destitute
We are   turned to market fruit.

Until when we die, at last
We provide the worms repast
Love is gentle,love is kind
Where is  love when we are bound?

People prisoners in their strip
Prefer death  to soldiers’ whip
People, all beloved of God,
Who will hold the judging rod?

What was chosen may be spurned
When the  love  to  grey death turns
No past choice  is ever bound,
As the deer falls to the hounds.

My heart is singing like  the little birds in Dent

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I see the wild geraniums, smell that scent
I feel all nature is embodied there
My heart is singing like  the little birds in Dent

Into a mountain stream my lover went
The sheep then gathered for a wondering stare
I see the wild geraniums, smell that scent

When Easter comes,we heed the death of Lent
Soon leaves will cover hard ground winter bare
My heart is singing like  the little birds in Dent

The limestone in the hills  where walkers wend
Attracts me to the pavements  flowered fair
I see the wild geraniums, smell that scent

From Alston down to Ullswater descend
The image of the  tyrant mountains stares
My heart is singing like  the little birds in Dent

 

How may we come to live as if we are
Kin to  flowers, no  longer conquerors?
I feel the wild geraniums, visceral scent
My heart is  happy like  the little birds in Dent

 

 

Sylvia Plath: between poetry and painting

http://www.bu.edu/writingprogram/journal/issue-9/doomchin/

 

“Defining Plath

While Plath is traditionally categorized as a confessional poet, critics like Howe and Davison fail to recognize the ekphrastic quality of many of Plath’s poems. As defined by the Oxford English Dictionary, ekphrasis is “a literary device in which a painting, sculpture, or other work of visual art is described in detail.” Each poem in which Plath comments on or discusses a work of visual art can be defined as an ekphrastic poem. Ekphrastic works are interactive and draw clear links between writers and artists. By writing an ekphrastic poem, one enters a pre-existing conversation; one work could not exist without the other. In essence, many of Plath’s works are dependent on works of others, showing her deep veneration for the painters whose works she incorporates in her own.

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THE DREAM, HENRI ROUSSEAU, 1910.

“Yadwigha, On a Red Couch, Among Lilies,” Plath’s 1958 poem, was written in response to Henri Rousseau’s The Dream, painted forty-eight years prior in 1910. The painting, Rousseau’s last and largest work, places a young nude female reclining on a red sofa in the middle of a lush jungle, full of vibrant foliage and lively animals. According to the Bulletin of the Art Institute of Chicago, “Though the public was thoroughly perplexed, the artists rightly hailed The Dream as one of the milestones of modern art” (“The Henri Rousseau Exhibition,” 20). Plath, in her poem, points to the perplexed reaction of the public, choosing to address Rousseau about his painting by discussing their questions.

Plath responds to the structure of Rousseau’s painting in a compelling way. The painting appears to have a random composition; elephants, lions, birds, monkeys, and other animals seem to be randomly strewn about the canvas, interlaced with overwhelming amounts of greenery and lilies; mysterious snake charmer is shown emerging out from some trees, and the nude figure, Yadwigha, is arbitrarily thrown onto the canvas lounging on a sofa. There is no clear order to how Rousseau arranges things. Additionally, the subject depicted, a nude on a couch in the jungle, is incredibly random and perplexing. However, Plath contrasts this randomness by approaching her poem in a methodical way. She chose to write her poem in sestina form; a sestina is “a poem of six six-line stanzas (with an envoy) in which the line-endings of the first stanza are repeated, but in different order, in the other five” (Oxford English Dictionary). The form is structured, complicated and deliberate. Plath clearly put a lot of thought into how the poem was arranged.

For the sestina’s six line-endings she repeats, Plath picks the painting’s most pertinent images and concepts: “you,” “couch,” “eye,” “moon,” “green,” and “lilies.” “Lilies,” “green,” “couch,” and “moon” are all visuals that stand out in Rousseau’s work. The repetition of the painting’s pertinent images allows the reader to envision the painting through her words and points to her astute attention to detail and respect for the painting. Her use of “you” underlines that this is a poem in which she is talking both to Rousseau and Yadwigha (depending on the stanza) because she wants to interact with both the artist and the subject. “Eye” represents the “eyes” of different aspects of the painting [“under the eye/Of uncaged tigers and a tropical moon,” (4–5), “Dreamed yourself away in the moon’s eye” (28)]; Rousseau’s vision [“But to a friend, in private, Rousseau confessed his eye” (35), “To feed his eye with red” (38)]; and the eyes of critics and museum patrons [“It seems the constant critics wanted you… To turn you luminous, without the eye” (8, 12), “The couch glared out at the prosaic eye” (20)]. This emphasis allows Plath to differentiate between artistic vision and critical response, recognizing that there is merit to both points of view. She notes that art is meant to be created and commented on. Plath features the imperative relationship between artist and critic, taking on the role as critic by writing her poem. In turn, her poem is a piece of art—she is aware that it will be criticized, just as Rousseau’s painting was. This recognition through mentioning critics directly in the work signals a parallel Plath draws between Rousseau and herself, making her connected to the art of the past. She is clearly mindful of “the presence of anyone but herself,” unlike what Howe asserts.”

Every night you’re trying to come home

I wake up warm from dreams ,yet all alone
Every night you’re trying to come home
The shattering loss made splinters  of my bones

Bandaged like a mummy, am I born?
In the dream you hold my hand and run
I wake up from  these anxious  themes alone

I’ve still  got your ashes and the urn,
Where are you and what have  you become?
Your shattering loss  has scattered all my bones

Now I sleep and rest with turned off phones
I  can’t bear impingements,I ache sore.
I wake up from  the anxious dreams   alone

Inside my soul, from Other love I’m torn
Afflicted,disconnected, from my core
The shattering  of my world makes me forlorn

I think I hear your foot step by the door
My heart by a sharp dagger once more gored
I wake up slow from dreams I am alone
The  fearful loss fragmented  my heart’s home.

 

To narrow is to do what Satan knew

The first poet was the one who found the new
Perception without wish to change what’s seen
With wider focus showing different views

Mostly we see what we wish to do
A goal, a task, expectation not a dream
The first poet was the one who saw anew

And having started kept their minds unglued
So played around in sunlight’s happy beams
A wider focus shows us different views

Life can be a  broader avenue
Like rivers are combined from little streams
The first poet was the one who saw anew

To narrow is to do what Satan knew
To follow just one path to an extreme
A wider focus shows us many views

 

The poet shall not judge  not ever blame
All the bored who cast off their deep shame
For poets are the ones who find the new,
With wider focus, welcoming  such views

 

 

 

The affect of his choice.

How can it be he is no longer here?
How can it be I do not hear that voice
His presence haunts me  from his  battered chair

Though I  have  money and no needs to bare
I  feel the grief, the affect of his choice.
How can it be that he has vanished here?

What is the world when loss  turns to despair.
When every sheet  by weeping is made moist?
His presence haunts from his   beloved chair

Now we learn  the symbol of the hare
Unpeaceful, hunted, jugged   or humdrum roast
How can it be when love  should counter fear?

Into the real, we stand and longtime stare
We’re  begging, blaming, badgered, shamed and gassed
Some presence feints  with ours  in  death’s own lairs

Now the world of man has long surpassed
The time we could blame God for what we ‘ve missed
How can it be that He is never here?
His absence haunts: symbolic, suffered, real.

 

 

 

There’s something in their gaze so enigmatic

There’s something in the silence of the statues
Like Bach played very quietly and true
That sends a human soul into a rapture
And stops us wondering what  we ought to do.

There’s something in their gaze so enigmatic
With peaceful hearts, they share their marble eyes
That now and then  dear  life becomes ecstatic
Until the special time will fade and die.

 

They’re proud and humble at the same quiet moment
Nothing  can be gained by attitude
Nothing can gained by smiling assent
Nothing  over which we humans brood.

And so goodbye to all the rumination,
All the to and fro of argument
For this is now a  silent  dislocation
From what we said and what we really meant

Lonely blue

I bought more cyclamen and recalled you
Wandering through wildflowers  by my side
I don’t know where to put them , they might die
Then I would feel so sad and lonely blue
All we read of pain and love is true.
Yet we let our hearts stay open wide
I bought some cyclamen and recalled you
Wandering through wildflowers  by my side
I have loved not widely but a few
I have touched on bliss  and when it flies
I have touched the grief that truly  lies
I bought  cyclamen and recalled you

 

 

s. On the last train,Warsaw to Moscow, [ change Niegoreloje.]

Elena,a baby wrapped in woollen clothes.
On the last train,Warsaw to Moscow,
[ change Niegoreloje.]
1939.Father,mother,brother
You passed through the Arctic Wastes of life.
Still as if travelling on a train
To an impossibly far destination.
As you left the German Army crashed into Poland
Lost,your aunts
Your cousins.
Your culture.
How does God select the damned?
You had your own baby,here in England,
Not lost like all those others.
Your father died by his own hand,
The hand of history;
The fingers twitching,
Not sure where to point.
Then settling into frozen grief
A sculpture only your mother saw.
You saw too,Elena.
You always saw,though you can’t remember;
The long journey,your mother’s breast,
Your father’s silence.
Only the dead know that silence.
Only the dead weep
With the rocks and stones .
And the ice in each eye
Fell like snow down your cheeks
As you held your own infant.
Warsaw to Moscow,
Moscow to Jerusalem.
Always journeying
Looking for what they can never find:
The home they left behind
The presence of the dead
Lying in gaunt heaps
Like rubbish
Your aunts, Elena.
Your cousins.
You never knew them.
But there’s a hole in your mind
Through which the Polish wind forever blows

Old and dehydrated folk

 

Two apples charcoal on blackHe put a new key in the ignition
But  the orifice was damaged past derision
So the car failed to start
I felt grief in my heart
Don’t say no plan came to fruition.

The connection  for the radio cord
Was broken so the music was barred.
I offered to sing
Or even to sting
This offer left everyone bored.

The state of fruition was good
When we went  to find  nuts in the wood
But  we got drunk on cider
The horse  and the rider,
Completed by bladders  a-flood

Now most public toilets have gone
Everything’s private or none
One is a coffee shop,
Another’s a polka dot.
There’s nowhere for parking the bum.

There is a puritan ethos around
So using a  loo is  unsound
Old and dehydrated  folk
Fall down in the grass in the park
Their blood pressure’s sunk to the ground

 

 

 

What, is a lowly Jew to be adored!

From the other room, melodic sounds
Fill the air,severe yet rightly proud
For frames are needed  as our  outer bounds
Within which imagination grounds.

It is five times a hundred years this  very day
That Luther put  objections  to the Church
Commemorated now in song and prayer
Yet  he may have helped the Hitler Reich

His hatred of the Jews knew not one bound
To kill them all was what he would have liked
So I cannot admire his works that deeply wound
Created by his appetite for strife.

If Jesus came back would we kill once more?
What, is a lowly Jew to be adored!

Stay a while here with his holy shadow

Sing a song to help the dying soldier
Sing a song to ease him on the way
Release him from your weary shoulder
And let him sleep in  shadows of dismay

It doesn’t matter that your heart is broken
It doesn’t matter he has got no bed
At last the love you feel has opened
And before he dies, you are by silence wed

Sing a song to help him with his leaving~
Sing as softly as a little bird
There is no evil that he is concealing
And you yourself have heard his final words.

And when his soul flies from the open window
You cannot stop it with your wifely heart
Stay a while here with his holy shadow
And then rise to your feet and so depart

We’re only human we feel sorrow
We’re only human, how we grieve
With trembling legs and  belly hollow
Appearances like this do not deceive

Or is it to manipulate she’s here?

The widow makes complaints, as if I’m God
Again she says she loved her husband  dear
I would love to help her if I could

There are a few alternatives to plot
Accept, endure, there is no answer clear
The widow makes complaints as if I’m God

She thinks committing suicide  is good;
Or is it to manipulate she’s here?
I would like to help her if I could.

I feel my mouth go dry as if I’m wood.
I have my own  new little boat to steer
The widow makes comp ints, as if I’m God

I can understand the thickening of the blood
My mind is filled with sadness  when she’s near
I would have surely helped her if I could.

It’s true that grief feels like a panic fear
Without  the one who loved you ,your heart’s seared
The widow makes complaints, as if I’m God
I can never help her, no one could

 

 

 

 

Without your love, I’m nobody I know.

Without your love, I’m nobody I know.
Our inter-self, dismembered,  broke apart
Give me courage on the journey slow

In good times , we may lose our self in flow
To be self-conscious makes shame rule my heart
Without your love, I’m nobody I know.

Do we have no self when partners die?
Bewildered, can I find the way to start
Give me courage on the journey slow

Where is my best path to discover
The way to mend a self,  holed by grief’s darts?
Without your gaze, I’m nobody I know

Like a ship   strikes rocks deep down below
I risk getting hit without some charts
Give me courage on the journey slow

Will I know myself when new betrothed
To mirrors unfamiliar to me old?
Without your love, I’m nobody I know.
Give me courage in the darkness gross.

From despair, we rise to be renewed

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The grieving one who never looks outside
Suffers like a prisoner in a cell
Yet they have some freedom to decide
To grieve, yet view our holy world as well.

To turn the eyes back to the lost and dead.
Is what we all may do  in painful  times
But to this natural world, we must be wed;
And under suffering, draw a heavy line.

From despair, we rise to be renewed;
To see our friends and make our hearts feel glad.
And  look behind  us with a gentler view
See the joy and love and signs of kindness had.

In the sea of grief, we’ll swim not drown,
And cast away  lead weights which pull us down.

Claws so sharp

I wonder if this cauliflower cheese
Will taste far better than its image looks
In the cook book where I see dead fleas.

I’ll add  some plum tomatoes and fried bees
After all ,I am now my own cook
I wonder at this cauliflower cheese

The fleas must be quite ancient, I suppose.
Unappetizing to the viewer who just peeks
Into the cook book where there are dead fleas.

If the fleas were living, I would freeze.
And wonder if a cat had read my books
I ponder on this cauliflower cheese

I guess I’ll put as well a few green peas
The colour otherwise is somewhat bleak
In the cook book where there are dead fleas.

The cat we had was black and very sleek
With claws so sharp they made my bladder leak
I wonder at this cauliflower cheese
In the cook book where I saw dead fleas.

 

 

 

When love and hate can enter no debate

We  draw a map of love inside our minds
Before we learn to speak and separate
And hatred too is structured by these lines

But owning such a map can make us blind
If we use just that to navigate
We  draw a map of love inside our minds

Some have mothers  tuned in and most kind
The map’s a good description of estate
Hatred too is structured on these lines

But some experiences we cannot bind
When love and hate can enter no debate
We  draw a map of love inside our minds

We need to let both love and hate combine
The pain and anguish may be very great
Our  mind is  better structured on such lines

Some may  think our life is made by fate
Others learn by how they correlate
We  draw a map of love inside our mind
And hatred too, is structured by those lines

 

The eyes of love

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They lay down in awe and fear,
Of what their love was bringing near.
They gazed into each other’s eyes
And so did tantalise.

They lay down to gaze into
the eyes and soul of one who’s true.
They gazed until, when overcome,
They were united into one.

Their souls and bodies were conjoined,
And thus their hearts were well entwined;
As honeysuckle on the walls,
In joy’s sweet arbours does grow tall,

Their loving lips and eyes and hands
Gave pause to time’s soft flowing sands.
and as they touched and gazed and longed,
The birds sang out in glorious songs.

Which is me and which is you?
Are we one or are we two?
I give you all myself today,
So this shall be our way

As unknown as the journey to your birth

Was this the apple then, your mother’s breast

Which father thought was his to oft caress?
And when, in deprived rage, you bit to test
In rage, he vowed to ever you harass.

So then you learned that you could hate as well,
The punishment struck hard in your small heart.
Your memory was unworded, could not tell;
Though pain and anguish made your soft skin smart.

As unknown as the journey to your birth
As shocking as the grief of unmeant wrong.
As frightening as the gauging of your worth
As sudden as the ending of a song.

Impossible to foretell or to prepare,
The ambivalence of our hearts starts here.

So cats feel proud of their unique access

Do cats feel proud of their unique access
At any time they  need a loving touch
On the laps of humans whom these cats possess?

They may stalk off  or lingering caress
Then bite  the hand that gave to them so much
Do cats feel proud of their unique access?

When  cats are lost it gives immense distress
To owners who by loving them feel rich
Theirs the laps that these dark cats possess?

Evolution’s brought to them success
As proud, they eye the world where they insist
They are owed  their  full, unique access

In a  home, a cat will  miaow, God bless
While rubbing  on our ankles with odd nips
Asking for the laps that they possess

I have even known a cat to kiss
As if to total intimacy pushed!
So cats feel proud of their unique access
To the laps of folk whom these  brave cats possess

Contemplated  simply with the eye

The mundane is the main part of our life
We do not note the wonder of each day
And waste it when we  cause unneeded  strife

For then we  in the dens of envy writhe
We could have peaceful hearts and live our  prayer
The mundane is the greater part of life

Contemplated  simply with the eye
The mundane changes when  attention’s paid
We waste our life when we   enjoy fierce  strife

To do our work  relaxed we might then  try
Leaving violent effort  to the crazed
The mundane is the greater part of life

Is it so  hard to love  that  hearts reply
We shall not open up for we feel grey?
We waste our life when we   provoke  fierce  strife

 

With the mundane, we look deep and cry
There is  great richness in   each  little life
The mundane is the main part of our life
We waste it when we  roam about unblithe.

 

 

 

In the end, the truth is where love lies.

With foresight, we may see  where  problems lurk
And  root them out before they start to grow
Yet often life’s mysteriously dark
And what we reap is what another sowed.

In hindsight,  this seems obvious and plain.
But some can  pick the  true out with no pain
Yet others choose  their fantasy again
They amble down a cheerful sunny lane.

Though what is real may not be what we wish
Better truth that hurts  than lies  that charm
Reality is not an easy  choice
Yet falsehood will mislead and even harm.

Insight grows with patient watching eyes
In the end, the truth is where love lies.

Worms

I wrote this when I was starting out and I noticed I was drawn to images of worms and beetles and life in the darkness under us.I was not aware of that when I began to write

Winter weather, frost, dark sky,
See white geese and silver stars.
Two cooing doves with collars red,
Are watching out for seeded bread.

From the sun, low in the sky,
Light falls slantwise to my eyes.
Trees bud, though invisibly,
Nothing that our eyes can see.

Bulbs shoot up from dark cold soil
Where worms and beetles quietly toil.
We take for granted air and sky,
Love the birds we see fly by.

But who can love the worms and slugs
And those creatures we call bugs?
So in our dark cold winter time,
Praise these creatures in the grime.

Without these worms, our crops would die.
No cornfields for us to lie,
Amidst the poppies’   wild red  blooms.
So we forget all winter’s gloom
.

Praise the snails and bees and ants
For these and spiders, let’s give thanks.
As the lightness needs the dark,
From darkness come life-giving sparks.

Enrich darkness with our gifts.
Look not always to the swift.
Slow and patient like these worms,
Nature’s lowness is my theme

On random deaths

We might have died in childbirth;
We might have died in war;
None of us imagined
Death in a grocery store.

We went out buying fruit and meat,
Fresh eggs and chicken breasts.
We wanted to make dinner
For this night’s Sabbath Feast.

But no-one knew that warm goodbye
Was to be our last;
A few shots and some bullets
Another life has passed.

What were our young children
going to feel tonight?
We should be serving love and food
As  the candles give their light.

Candles burn in memory
Of all the innocent,
who are caught up in tragedies
That someone else invents.

Let young men delude themselves
And politicians too….
Don’t forget those murderers
Could be me and you….

We are not so different
But for circumstance.
The murderers and their victims turn
In a macabre dance.

God’s position nobody’s divined.

God reached a position we can’t find
He moved  astute and humorous through the air
Being human we are almost blind

A game beyond the games of Wittgenstein
The willing player  has found a wondering flair
God’s position,  nobody’s  divined.

Impossibly  the  paths of nuclei wind
Cast a glance and upset the whole air
Being human we are violence blind

We cannot cast a light on his designs
Infinitesimal eyings push the photons where?
God’s position  nobody will find

From unknown spaces, love  and hate  combine
The light divides ecstatic,pure,two,bare
Human , we survive by being blind

Love God if you will, it is a dare
Powerful, vivid as leaps a March Hare
God reached that position we can’t find
In the Arctic wastes of our own minds

 

 

 

“Inside the mind of poetry”

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Inside the Mind of Poetry

 

“The greatest lines in poetry are infinitely quotable while having no definite meaning. What is a mind of winter, and why must one have one? It doesn’t matter. Wallace Stevens’ greatness lay in his ability to produce these kinds of anti-aphorisms, seemingly wise but ultimately ungraspable: Thought is false happiness. She sang beyond the genius of the sea. The only emperor is the emperor of ice cream. And, most pointedly: The poem must resist the intelligence / almost successfully. (Or, nay, successfully!)

I believe that to read poetry, one must have a mind of poetry. You must enter a state where you come to understand meaning-resistant arrangements of language as having their own kind of meaning. It’s quite similar to those Magic Eye posters from the ‘90s: If you haven’t figured out how to look at them, you can’t believe that anyone really sees the dolphin. (This metaphor has its limits, making learned skill seem like an on/off conversion; too, with poetry, even when you’ve mastered “the trick,” not everyone sees the same thing.)

Is this “negative capability”? I’m not sure.

Negative capability, as described by Keats, is rather delightfully poetic in itself, a form of imitative fallacy in criticism, a mental onomatopoeia. It seems clear enough by his own definition: “when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason.” But it’s so often badly paraphrased, in conversation and in print; Wikipedia defines it as “the capacity of human beings to transcend and revise their contexts” (to their credit this merits a “citation needed”). A concept so frequently muddled must be inherently mysterious and as such, perhaps, a shibboleth; if you don’t understand negative capability you won’t understand poetry.

There are probably people who go through life with a permanent mind of poetry. I am not one of those people. I fall in and out of it, and not at will. As I write this, I am not in it, and have not been for three or four months, which is to say, I have not been able to focus on or become absorbed in any book of poetry. Oddly, I have continued to write poetry. I continue to think about poetry, almost daily. As my Twitter feed reveals, one doesn’t need a mind of poetry to talk about poetry.”

A song is sung, sprung with the babbling I

The mind is like a river as it flows
From small beginnings to unending sea.
Endless and elusive  what it shows

As in the mud, the stark blue iris grows
So with life itself,  from dark we see
The mind is like a river as it flows

The boat rides on the surface as it goes,
From what once was to what is still to be.
Endless and elusive,  what it shows

Before we learn to speak, the music holds
The   baby and the mother company
The mind is like a melody  that flows

A duet  comes to life and life it moulds
A song begins sprung with the babbling I
Endless and elusive, life to show

In lucid realms awakening, we enfold
The many parts of self that outward cry
The mind is like a melody  that flows

Come now sleep, where dreams of mothers stray
Engaged with all the fathers of desire
In the mud, the still blue iris grows
The mind is like a river in full flood

 

This is not it

Impossible to move on because
Between any two numbers
There are infinitely many other numbers.
Time does not consist of equal increments
I saw the car fast moving towards me
And time slowed down, it was ten minutes
Before it hit me.
Elegantly I flew  into the air, second by  infinitely long second
Down below I saw life on a huge TV Screen
I was no longer there.I saw a Hand turning a wheel
Clockwork TV, I knew it.
I was flying orthogonally to the earth
I had a new perspective.No fear
A calm and endless peace held me.
Gravity interfered.Thin as I was,
I was not infinitesimal
Otherwise, I would never have come back
All I knew is, this is not it.
The tortoise won the race.

Smaller than the pebbles drowned sea moist

An agnostic yet I need my God
For many parts of life cannot be voiced
Without the sacred language, I learned of.

More a place  and less a cruel Rod
Willing us to have the rights of choice
An agnostic yet I need my God

Lesser than both lower and above
Neither is he man, nor girl nor boy
In the sacred language I learned of.

Greater than  the mountain tops  of love
Smaller than the pebbles drowned sea moist
Me, agnostic, yet I need such God!

Wilder than a stallion newly shod
Quieter than that little, still, small voice
In the sacred language I learned, read.

As by our own science, we are hoist
There’s humour in that  secret, still embrace
I agnostic, need  to walk with God
And use the sacred language I learned  of.