When words no longer work

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When words no longer work

wonder

wish

want

When words won’t come

compensate

contrive

When my voice breaks

snaps

sunders

strains

When I want to talk

touch

tenderly

towards

But you are not able

about

abandoned

absent

You are no longer

listening

live

longing

When I need to find a meaning

In the shape

form

structure

But I ‘m stranded

Stuck

Sucked under

Swallowed

Then I reach out to you

I want your touch

tenderness

tranquillity

temerity

Sometimes words don’t seem enough

endless

empty

emotive

ejaculatory

Yet words can console

conjure

quilt

charm

captivate

cover.

Stretch out your hand

across the emptiness

and touch me with your fingers

friendship

faithfulness

forgiveness

frailty

fever

touch my heart with words

and I will hope

expect

await

be grateful

grave

garbed in joy

When words don’t feel enough

When all we want is touch

Or to see

sigh

sob

sing

Words can be shaped

changed

contorted

controlled

challenged

Words are all we have

To make us love

To make us live

To make us alive

To make us sing

To make us stand up

To console,words may be
Almost

 

Just

Enough


The last Kabbalist in Lisbon

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Photo by Magda Ehlers on Pexels.com

https://reformjudaism.org/jewish-life/arts-culture/literature/last-kabbalist-lisbon-richard-zimler

Beginning:

The Last Kabbalist of Lisbon is a compelling murder mystery and historical novel that uses the catastrophic events that overtook Spanish and Portuguese Jewry in the fifteenth century. These events mark an important period in Jewish history that is often overlooked. The book is a “crash course” in the nuances and details of the persecution, forced conversion, clandestine worship, expulsion, flight and renewal that marked the Sephardi passage. The period is often referred to as the “Inquisition,” though this name is somewhat misleading. Many of us do not realize the magnitude of these events which, for its time, was as devastating and earth-shattering to the Jewish world as the Holocaust would be some five hundred years later.

I feel deep shame as a British citizen

 

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https://www.theguardian.com/news/2019/jun/29/jewish-novelist-uk-talks-cancelled

Extract

A bestselling novelist says he has been dropped from two literary events in the UK in recent weeks because he is Jewish.

Richard Zimler, author of the celebrated 1996 novel The Last Kabbalist of Lisbon, said two cultural event coordinators had terminated negotiations on publicising his new novel because they feared a backlash from anti-Israel campaigners. Zimler has no connections with or family in Israel.

The author’s personal publicist, who asked not to be named, confirmed that two organisations had pulled out of initially enthusiastic discussions about events with Zimler, whose latest book The Gospel According to Lazarus was published in April. They feared his Jewishness would alienate Palestinian sympathisers among their clientele and could result in protests, the publicist  said

As the mighty bull said to the cow

To suffer   used to mean  to let, allow
As the mighty bull said to the cow
But we won’t suffer pain without despair
Like the poisoned nits feel in your hair

To ask for what you got is villains’ talk
To wear a  mini dress is women’s right
Men can wear them too if they desire
Though hairy legs  are bad  for  serious liars

What about the ants that live with me
Is it right  to offer them some tea?
Spider’s webs are seen as  cruel and wrong
You prefer the houseflies in a throng?

 

We   each must decide what we dislike
Are we panic stricken by our plight?

Enjoy,Endure

Enjoyment  is the happy side of life
Endurance is hard work , we hate the pain
In  the night the ghastly ghosts arrive

In golden sun the bees buzz round the hive
Enduring needed darkness , we see  plain
Enjoyment  is not attained   by Western lives

In  Bangladesh, our clothes are  made by slaves
We  choose deafness  as they suffer,groan
In the night  revenging ghosts arrive

Up the sea will rise in giant waves
It drowns the poor and weak ,does Darwin mourn?
Endurance  makes the poor  die under strain

The Jews   of Europe had no  holy graves
Now they are accused  of plots again
In  the night,  will Nazi ghosts arrive?


When we die what will of us remain?
Grenfell Tower and Brexit   leave their stain
By trauma  disenfranchised ,unadorned
The  ghosts of the unborn  will  scream in scorn