I have enough derision already.

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Hello.what brings you here?
My feet doctor.
I have enough derision already.
Oh.dear.I have reduced vision too.
Are you hard of hearing?
No,my ears do it all by themselves.
You don’t understand.
I wear underpants but I have no standing in the community.
I’m a doctor.
Well,you could have fooled me.You have fooled me.
You are a complete nitwit.
What wit are you on about?
Nits!
Do you mean lice or knitting?
Oh,my God!
Are you enjoying a vision?
No,God is rarely on the television.
You need to get tuned in?
Shall I drop out first?
I’m tempted to spank you.
Well,I’ve always been a glutton for punishment.
It’s a prank.
A plank is quite useful for crossing mud.
Who is helping whom?
I don’t even know Hoom.Is he new here? I once read Hume.
This is hopeless…
Don’t give up……….. try a Samaritan…
Where are they?
Inside the handset.
No,I give in.Why am we here?
I have an idea……….
Oh, no……it’s too late.
For what?
Hush.. just listen……..
There’s a kind of hush, all over the world tonigh

I tried to make a pie crust from a bell

They say that we enclose our soul in shell.
But then we are cut off from our true self
It keeps away the demons loose from hell

We may keep our hearts that way as well
And so we are cut off from inner wealth
Today we all  enclose our souls in shell.

Sometimes trifles will not set or gell
Some may gain advantages by stealth
I blame those  wicked demons loose from hell

I tried  to make a pie crust from a  bell
The copper is not good for human health
They say that we enjoy our souls in shell.

A symbol is like water from the well
The meaning can be dug out by himself
I like those  wicked demons   hot  as hell

We petrify, we ossify our selves.
We try to buy our  grace from  off  the shelves
They say that we enclose our soul in shell.
It keeps away the demons  and all else,

Two trifles each weekday

He wanted some trifle
As he had an eyeful
She gave him his wishes
And he washed  the dishes.

He wanted another
So she phoned his mother..
Two trifles  each weekday
And three on a Sunday.

He was diabetic
And almost ascetic.
She was psychotic
And never quite got it.

He liked the great  sea shore
And sanded wood floors oh
She liked the true heather
Whatever the  weather.

They bought jars of bees’ honey
And spent more than their money.
The bees liked them more than
An egg loves a fry pan

 

 

And duvets wrote strange poems in language loose.

How kind the air I breathed was when I walked
How  stuffy when I’m back inside the house
The place where ghosts of lost ones call  and stalk
How kind the air I breathed was when I walked
If only sheets and pillows learned to talk
And duvets wrote strange poems in language loose.
How kind the air I breathed was when I walked
How deadly it now seems inside the house

Lilac in the darkness where love dwelled

The afternoon is ended but the sky
Is lilac in the darkness where doves dwell
The neon lights of town are raised up high
The afternoon is ended at the sky
They  call to me, why did he need to die?
No poet nor priest  can own the words to tell
The afternoon is ended but the sky
Shows lilac in the darkness where love dwelled

Invisible but real

Invisible but real it hangs between
Myself and  all the others of this world.
This sheet of tears ,  this cover felt not  seen
Invisible but real it hangs between
What is  real and what  is  a mere dream.
My face is wet  with tears that  softly welled
Invisible but real, they hang between
Myself and   other lovers of this world

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In my dreams he is alive again

The face that was familiar is no more.
Yet in my dreams ,he is alive again
If ,by a chance, his life could be restored
It would affect me like the hidden chord
Which played, my own life force would go.
That one must live and one must die is plain
The face that was familiar is no more.
Yet in my dreams ,he is alive again

Heather and a silver light

Old man,bending over,
arched like a fallen moon
in a dark lilac  winter sky.
joy and pain wrestle my heart across the emptiness
and toss it up like a damp rocket
to fall in a hidden corner where mice live.
Would that not be a good ending,to be dust
to these little creatures nesting
in my chewed green twine and my tartan basket?
They have eyes and shiver in my hand when I rescue them
from the cat…
as any heart might.
Now night falls on the newspaper basket
where the damp Times and the Guardian mix into glue
and tomorrow the sun will rise;
it will just be the garbage
with no poetic undertones nor deathly hushes..
Heather and a silver light
you stand on a hill top like a god
looking over his domain.
Strong and now weak
it’s the human condition
Everlasting life is too dangerous for us.
Silent,motionless,home of beetles
bit by bit we fall away
into the mother soil
with cracked jugs and dropped coins
for a future academic to dig into.
Transparent hand touches me.
Whose might it be but yours?

Where once a cat

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The apple tree,now bare of leaves,
Still bends in worship to the sun.
The sap flows down into the earth
Its fruiting year is done.

Where once a cat sat on the branch,
And children played below,
Now only sparrows hunt for crumbs,
and patterned snails slide slow.

The sun is setting to my left;
where is the slivered moon?
The day is deeper than a dream,
and over all too soon.

Oh,come,my lover,to my bed
And hold me in your arms.
I’ll rest against your fragile chest,
Whilst you enjoy old charms.

As all too soon each little day is done

I sat  on your old wall to see the sun
The wall is cold and makes my  rear end chill
As all too soon each little day is done

The day is ending and I ‘ve not  begun
To do my writing , let my mind be still
I sat  on your old wall  in winter sun

If we were younger we might have more fun
But  we  allow now  what we cannot will
As all too soon each little day is done

Must we finish what we have begun?
We gazed at  rampant water by the mill.
I sat  on your old wall  in winter sun

As a woman, I can love a  man
Them to their rest with singing I may lull
As all too soon each little day is done

Today my heart with love is very full
And happy tears  my  features like to swill
I sat  on your  stone wall to  eye the sun
As all too soon each little day is done

And wished instead of flesh, I was hard wood

The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods
My inner landscape’s clouded like the sky
And  anxious thoughts  into my mind intrude

I  disdain phone calls with impatience rude
For connections only make me want to cry.
The weather fluctuates as do my moods

Strange and lonely thoughts await in queues
I tell them they are foolish and they lie
More  anxious thoughts  into my mind intrude

I understand why people quarrel and are rude
I understand why imprecations fly.
The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods

But  dark clouds pass and   feelings change to good.
When self respect and love are each nearby
I shall befriend the  thoughts   which now intrude

I  panicked as  bad thoughts became a flood
And wished instead of flesh, I was hard wood
The sunshine fluctuates as do my moods
Those anxious thoughts  with love are now  endured.

Interviews with writers

https://www.loc.gov/poetry/interviews/wallylamb.html

 

“Many of the most important turning points in your characters’ lives are centered on trauma and loss. Do you think that the way people process these events is what defines them?

I don’t think people’s processing of trauma and loss necessarily defines them fully, but these surely influence the course of their lives. I was 12 years old when a dam collapsed at the northern end of my hometown, releasing millions of gallons of lake water that cut a path of death and destruction. Among the dead was a 27-year-old mother who drowned in the flood waters after helping rescue her three sons, ages four, two, and six months. I drew on that remembered local tragedy when I wrote We Are Water and, in the course of my research, became friends with those three little boys—who are now well-adjusted, middle-aged family men. Each has a successful career and a great sense of humor. Were these three brothers greatly impacted by the loss of their mother on that terrible night and the reality of having grown up without her? Certainly. But are they defined solely by tragedy and loss? No.

For the past 15 years, I have volunteered at a maximum-security women’s prison where I facilitate a writing program. Most of my students there had terrible things done to them as children and many have been convicted of having done terrible things. Some are serving life sentences and will die in prison. Yet each is a complicated equation not fully defined by the trauma she endured or the crime for which she has lost her freedom. In my novel The Hour I First Believed, Maureen Quirk, afflicted with PTSD and drug addiction after the Columbine trauma, must discover how to live a useful life in prison. In I Know This Much Is True, Dominick Birdsey must ride a roller coaster of emotional responses to his twin brother’s mental illness. In We Are Water, Andrew Oh must struggle with the grim truth that he killed a man in a rage and has not been caught. Should he keep his dark secret or reveal it? In my fiction, I’m interested in examining and depicting not only the ways in which trauma and loss derail the lives we may have imagined or planned, but also, and more importantly, how our responses to these can attest to the resilience of the human spirit. Thankfully, I have not had to endure the tragedies that befall my characters. But what we share in common is this: we are imperfect people living less-than-perfect lives yet trying to become better people.

Has your work with the female inmates of the York Correctional Institution changed the way you write your female characters? If so, how?

I grew up with older sisters and older girl cousins who lived next door. The only other boy on McKinley Avenue was a rock- and snowball-thrower named Vito, which didn’t exactly make him great playmate material. A loner, I frequently was thrust into the role of observer of my sisters’ and cousins’ exotic games of pretend—not a bad perspective for someone who will grow up and become a fiction writer. The girls were cowgirls and stagecoach robbers one day, Amazons in sarongs (old curtains) the next, harem girls the day after that. In the latter fantasy, I was enlisted to play the minor role of a sultan named Kingy Boy, which required me to sit cross-legged on the floor with a bath towel wrapped around my head turban-style and say things like “Peel me a grape” while they danced and undulated around me. All this to say that, from an early age, I became immune to the spell of “the feminine mystique.” I’ve always felt comfortable among, sympathetic toward, and amused by females, and I am aligned with and supportive of the tenets of feminism. This has served me in my interactions with the women of York Prison and my goals for them as writers.

If I have taught my incarcerated students a thing or two about how to write more effectively, they have taught me a number of things, minor and major, about life—everything from how to talk “street” and how to cook an English muffin pizza with a plastic bag and a hair dryer to how to use humor, art, writing, and sharing as survival tools in a harsh and institutionally hostile environment.

I reject the supposition that men are marooned on Mars and women on Venus, and that each gender, therefore, is doomed never to understand the other. That rejection has allowed the women of York Correctional Institution to give me the gift of their trust. Whenever they hand me writing in which they expose the hard truths and long-buried secrets of their pasts, or they read their highly personal pieces aloud to the group for the purpose of getting feedback, I am an eye- and ear-witness to acts of courage and generosity. Perhaps that’s the most impactful thing these students have taught me about writing and life: that taking risks, no matter how risk-averse one may be, will pay dividends in ways you might never have imagined.”

This variegated colour

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In between the darkness and the bright,

Graded shades of grey and lilac lie.

These variegated colours give delight.

And from my soul, I hear a gentle sigh.

As we live, we dwell in mysteries;

Must take decisions based on various views.

And unknown memories from our history

Emphasis the old , see not the new.

For true perception, humility is key,

Not for moral reasons but for sight.

The emptiness lets flood creative seas.

Allows bright rays of loving, guiding light.

We need to know we do not know at all.

And, trembling, hold the doors of vision wide.

So gentle should be judgements when we fail.

Then errors we’ll appreciate, not hide.

We must deal with life unknown, unclear;

Perception is a better guide than fear.