Whom once you loved

For that phantasm conjured in your mind
For onto me you brought down from above
A torment bitter and   hard words unkind.

Used to  friendship from within your books

You did not understand that I was real
Irritation grew as you did look;
You threw your poisoned  arrow  at my heel.

Whom  once you loved you  then began to hate
If not perfect, then intolerable I must be
And then you cursed me with this  sorry fate
Our child was born and him you’ll never see.
Illegitimate and born in desert grey.
I carried him alone from death’s dark way.