Annie grew more optimistic.

P1000006.JPGStan was polishing the windows again with his blue cloth.The computer was on and as soon as he finished the sitting room windows he planned to look at a google document  he was co-writing with his girlfriend Annie.She only lived next door but they both liked sharing new techniques of various kinds. He sat down in front of his  computer and looked at his mail.
There was an email from Annie.
“Hi Stan
I didn’t really want to keep some of those remarks you made at the bottom of our documents when we were both online having a chat,so I have deleted them. They were not related to the topic we were discussing so I know you won’t be interested.
with my  love,Annie
Stan felt  angry and cross. He went very red.What was so dreadfully wicked about his remarks?He had only asked Annie if her dead husband George might have been bisexual.Stan had once seen him kissing a man round in the park.Annie didn’t seem bothered last night.She never gave the impression me she didn’t like it.
Anyway, she should not have deleted it completely without asking me first.
He sent her an email saying he was very angry with her for attacking his freedom of speech.It was unethical.It was too powerful .He must assert himself
So he was not going to work simultaneously with her on any more documents ever again nor chat on IM or Google chat
.
When Annie got the email she was stunned.She apologized to Stan immediately but he refused to accept it.Nothing she said could change his mind.So they were both feeling utterly dreadful.
Why did he want to know if George was bisexual?She wondered.Was he saying it to try to turn himself on or me?Or is he just interested in sex of all kinds like most people secretly are?
But it was not concerned with the document which was about ill-treatment of prisoners in India under the British Empire
We have so little time together, with him being so busy.I wanted to talk about us, not poor dead George.Whatever George’s sex life, he’s dead now.So leave him in peace.
Meantime.Stan was thinking about how women were always interfering in his life, correcting him and improving his grammar.Making him cups of tea when he wanted brandy.He liked talking about bisexuality.
It made him feel a sense of wonder at the differing habits and desires of humans.Why couldn’t she just go along with it or at least say something then rather than deleting his words secretly when he was off-line?
He was a man.He was not going to let a woman ride over him like a steamroller. Annie must learn her place in the scheme of things.
Where is that, asked his tom cat, Emile.
I’m not sure but it’s not above me.It’s either the same or lower.
Can’t you forgive her?She may be in another dimension, another space, another universe of discourse?
Certainly not no way.Stan answered,
But you love her, you said many times in here.I heard you
All the more reason to maintain some boundaries!Love is not the be all and end all of life
Next she’ll be cutting bits off me with her pinking shears, he cried in horror!
She’ll castrate me.She’ll turn me into a woman.
She won’t, she’s a woman, said Emile.She wouldn’t ever harm you.she’s very gentle.
She has invaded me, she has crossed my boundary.
Some people would be glad, mewed the cat.He was always hoping a lady cat would come by.
Meanwhile, Annie was sitting sobbing wetly in her bedroom.She really enjoyed co-writing documents and letters with Stan.Now he won’t do it anymore, she whispered softly to herself
She had not cut anything from the document, just the little chatty remarks they had been indulging at the end, but still, he was really mad at her.He must be feeling truly upset and aggravated beyond human endurance.She had assumed too much and now she was paying the price.She cried and sobbed loudly for a while.Her eyes were bright red and bloodshot. not attractive at all.She was so sad she had unwittingly distressed dear old Stan.Life is so tough she thought reluctantly.I wish I were somewhere else.
Still, there were those new neighbors who had just moved in across the road.Two brothers, both very handsome.I wonder if they like writing on the computer, she thought.That cheered her up a bit, though she was very fond of Stan.In fact she loved him greatly and had kissed him gently yet thoroughly many times though she had never actually gone to bed with him ; never known him in the biblical sense.Was that the problem?Too late now either way, she muttered balefully
So in her mind, she was moving from loving and adoring Stan to being puzzled by him.Was he afraid of being dominated by a woman?What would he be like as a lover?
But why try to talk about bisexuality?Could he not have thought of something else?
There was a new book by Betty Dodson teaching women how to have orgasms.Would he have enjoyed discussing female anatomy and pleasuring her naked female body and its organs of love and all the rest,[she always liked a kiss on her throat]?
Well, she would never know now.That was certain.Definitely.
Thank God I’ve found out what he’s like before things went any further.He might be a little too dominating or perhaps not enough?
In fact, she was so upset her thoughts began to turn towards women.
Would it be better all round to love a woman? Especially as I could show her how to have an orgasm having been studying this book for some weeks?Though she may already know, I guess.Still, a change is as good as a rest!
How do I find a woman who’s into other women, she thought.Can I find one on the internet?Will there be a club we can go to?How exciting!
So Annie grew more optimistic.A woman wouldn’t mind a few words deleted from a chat either.So a feeling of mild joy came over her and her sobbing died down.
Stan was sitting in his kitchen feeling superior and dominant.Except Annie had not come for coffee so it was hard being dominant all by himself.He began to feel depressed and morose.Should he change his mind?Would he lose his window of opportunity
Why is life so trying.Why are women so manipulative, why do they all turn out fakes, he asked Emile.
It’s partly one’s own character, Emile replied.
Hearing this Stan lost his temper and threw a cup at Emile.Luckily it missed but Emile stalked out and went off to the shed leaving Stan more alone than ever.
How hard life is Stan shouted. I feel like topping myself. i”ll jump off the roof.I’m going to ring the fucking Samaritans.
Just then his wife Mary walked in.
What’s up Stan?
Nothing dear.I just dropped a brick on my toe
Why have you got a brick in here, in the lounge?
I was playing with it.
With a brick?
Well, it has a certain cold masculinity, he replied.
Shall I make some drinks?
Yes, please.
Oh, look there’s Annie walking past arm in arm with a woman.
I knew George was bisexual but now I see she is also or maybe she’s gay!Were they both gay?Is that why she only kissed him and never went further?
Well,it’s not our affair, said Mary quietly.
Aha,thought Stan.That’s what you think.If only you could see inside my mind.
Inside his mind though , he was wondering if Annie would ever see him again.But I will not forgive her, I won’t.I won’t!
What he might have said more truthfully was “Can’t”
For indeed,it is hard to forgive people for trampling into one’s sacred space even if it is an accident or misjudgment not a deliberate attempt to dominate.but if not ………
Such is life, alas.
We are such fools as dreams are made of.

You  porcupine, he shouted out, I prefer a seal

My lover went to Lapland as he found  me rather warm
You  porcupine, he shouted out, I prefer a seal
Are you sure.I questioned him, for I did not wish him harm
I have to get away from you, I  prefer my conger eel.

He set off in his motor car, the ferry was quite late
He  was a little angry then but soon he became calm
He got talking to a mermaid and  now she is his mate
She lives deep in the icy sea and he loves her frigid arms

I don’t know how you would feel, if after twenty years
Of being called a porcupine, when swaddled iin his arms
Your lover went  to the North Pole, and left you only tears
At least I can enjoy my bed without  his wild alarms

The melody is not the words but how they are combined
I  have lost all faith in men , unless their names form rhymes
I  know we have got clocks today but meter bends the time.
As dancing bends the space around the movers  rapt, sublime

 

To be original without the sin

For us to feel we’re real it seems we need
To be original without the sin
To be embodied in our thoughts and deeds

So those who cannot write nor even read
May be ahead of scribes in origin
For us to feel we’re real , we have to bleed

God himself embodied was revealed
Some  feel they   encounter him within
We must feel embodied in our thought and deed

As we age our body’s life recedes
Yet right until the end, we drink  life in
For us to feel we’re real  we  have to need

Senses, oral,  genital  proceed
Until mature, we  hope for love  again
We must dwell embodied  for this deed

Raw  intellect can  plunge us into sin
We split into a thousand glacial  grins
For us to feel we’re real it seems we need
To  live within in our body full and green

 

I beg your jargon

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Political correctness
Often truly vexed us
We texted for  ” men”
Now and again
I beg your jargon
You seem  very ardent
Mind my tongue?
Was it in the wrong?
These “men”  took out ads
As they wished to be lads.
Wanting new women
Who liked to go swimming.
But now the soul mates
Cannot ever state
Whether they want a man
Or a cat or a woman.
Is that really fair
Like Icelandic hair?
I guess in the end
Freud will descend.
You  have got hysteria
And you are inferior
I know it all
From the rise to the fall
Sex is the basis
For homeostasis.
Get knotted, mein herr.
Danke schon, Pa.

 

 

 

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The sacrificial victim overwrought.

Humans can be classified like nuts
To give a new  description  on us all
Some are soft and some hard to split.

Some of us have walls like prisons built
Some of us  divide  what might be whole
Humans can be classified like nuts

This simile is bad so I shall quit
Yet I might have discovered were I bold
Our defences keep us hidden  in a script

Some of  us are fat, some have no butt
Some are hot and some feel  freezing cold
Humans can be classified like nuts

What our parents said’s not Holy Writ
Yet we do need boundaries to hold
Our defences keep us hidden  in a script

We act the part that we unconscious caught
I might be the black sheep in the fold.
The sacrificial victim overwrought.

We are all  mere creatures who might fall
Like Eve who shared the apple with us all
Humans can be classified  like ducks
Some are deft and some  get cruelly struck

 

 

 

The wild wasps sting and savage is the air.

The cauldron bubbles as the witches stir
The walls are convex, and the spoon  is steel
The population struggle without flair

There is too much heat and little air.
In such trials, our worst selves are revealed
The cauldron bubbles as the witches stir

A newcomer may see fresh ways to go
But will their new perspectives be concealed?
The population’s jangled nerves are bare

The length of  time, confusion and despair
Makes even nerves  of gold too hot to seal
The cauldron bubbles as the witches stir

The deep emotions feared cause many tears
And lonely are the sick who’ re ridiculed
We creep like frightened wolves into our lairs

The death of love, the elevated fools;
The calculations deviant of misrule.
The people stumble on the way to where?
The wild wasps sting and savage is the air.

 

 

 

For sale

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Jam pan for sale.Pure silver lining and lovely copper exterior.Free to first socialist to make an offer.Otherwise, try TKMaxx .I did and I nearly won the  General Election.
Several high-quality women’s suits with rather short skirts.Suitable for short politician or woman who famcies herself..Apply quickly to 10 Downing Street.WC too.
A few new Apple Macs with dents or tooth marks in.Still in working order.Apply to the Daily Heil in writing.On paper.
778 pairs of leopardskin shoes with kitten heels.Some have jam stains.
£25 the lot
20  jars of face cream  for older skin [does not work  on face but good for renovating shoes]
The Sun is setting.All offers  considered

 

 

 

 

32o the lot

My heart is light

The weight of loss that crushed me has been raised
My heart is light ; my eyes glow like blue pearls
By  my dear human friends, I feel  embraced

By my caring friends, I have been praised
My heart is lifted ; I feel love  return
The weight of loss that crushed me has been raised

Now I have refound my own true face
And by  the angels, I’m no longer spurned
By dear human friends, I feel  embraced

The past three years have maimed me in their way
The knife cut out,, the flesh beneath was  burned
The weight of loss that crushed me has been raised

I foresaw, but lived through dangerous days
I paid my debts and bore the burial urn
By dear human friends, I was  embraced

 

And yet I weep for him who has been torn
I feel the wound, the ache, which must be borne
The weight of loss that crushed me has been raised
By beloved human friends, I feel  embraced

 

Since we had the Referendum mad, deranged

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Which of us accept there’s been a change
An upsurge of real interest in  who rules
Since we had the Referendum mad, deranged

This England feels to me unreal and strange
With Food Banks and increased racism in  the News
Which of us accept there’s been a change?

Who will now perform upon the stage
A politician must not be amused
Since we had the Referendum mad, deranged

A hidden coven will  choose and re-arrange
They hope for a society once refused
Which of us accept there’s been a change?

At last the voters woke and were enraged
We were feeling lost,  bemused confused.
Since we had the Referendum mad, deranged

Once there was a parliament of fools
Maybe stupid people stood to lose
Which of us  can see there’s been a change
Since we had the Referendum mad, deranged

 

 

Disguised by  jewels,  the ugly croak their lies

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Discovered by an accident of fate
By those who have the courage and the eyes

He who is a fool cannot be wise
His character displays his flimsy traits
Inside an ugly rock a jewel lies

The powerful will steal and speak in lies
With knives, they will cut down the ones who fail
Fight for those with courage and wise eyes

Since bedroom tax and food banks, who has died?
How many poorer mothers sit and wail?
Disguised by  jewels,  the ugly croak their lies

From the heart of love  the arrows fly
Like refugees, we come to love derailed
Fight with those with courage and wise eyes

Oh, human beings, do not leave it late
Repair the evil ,  no more  desecrate

Inside an ugly rock a jewel lies
But who has got the courage and the eye?

Corbyn’s  very wise to make plum jam

So Corbyn’s not the fool who makes plum jam\
Reviled by all the media  up to now
Yet he’s hurt the Tories with his thoughtful  plans

Raised on protests over Vietnam
He did not  falter, hit by  multi-blows
Corbyn’s not a fool who makes plum jam\

His own party’s Elite were out for him
They sought again, again to make him go
He mocks the Tories with his clever plan.

 

Jack Horner, I recall, got out the entire plum
Will Labour’s  bosses wish for him to go?
Corbyn’s  very wise to make plum jam

As he washes out his  cast iron pan
He chuckles with delight which overflows
He mocked the Tories with astounding plans

Old man May puts out their wheelie bins
Theresa May  resign! Your dread won’t win
Corbyn meditates as he boils jam~
He’s  bonked the Tories with his iron pan

Poetry, protest, politics

 

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2010

“We can take draw solace from the fact that both our historically strong and newly evolving poetic traditions – performance or page, pastoral or post-industrial – will be there to remind and inspire us, to offer solace or make us think a little more deeply about what has just taken place. As the dust settles on last week’s events it is perhaps time to heed Shelley’s advice from almost two centuries ago; “Stand ye calm and resolute, / Like a forest close and mute, / With folded arms and looks which are / Weapons of unvanquished war.””

Because I  feast  on algebraic texts

I voted for the one who cooked the best
My gut tells me how I  relax is wrong
Because I  ate the algebraic text

I voted for the one  whose muscles flexed
My mind became a spinning wheel of song
I voted for the one I loved the best

On weekends I  dictate to men, the loony pests!
As I type the book  where sums are wrong
I concede I  flunked the algebraic test.

I see the exit polls  all  have gone West
I knew my calculations were unsound
I voted for the numbers.  cleverest

I seem to have a mind which cannot rest
I  heat pyjamas just to get unwound
I concede I  bonked Al  when he  felt depressed
I am in doubt  while seeing flaming tongues
I tamed my  plastic tiger before long
I voted for the books I loved the best

 

 

My eyes drag down, opaque the fragile lens

As this era  ends, we hold our breath
Our guts and vitals shiver with suspense
Eyes protrude, face pales, whose is the death?

The forces of the media oppress
They never even  pay, less recompense
As this era  ends, we hold our breath

Blunders made, dilemmas will oppress
Too much thinking does not make more sense
Protruding eyes, pale faces whose the death?

Each of us believes we know the best
But no-one is at ease, we tremble, tense
As this era ends, we hold our breath.

I wonder how to greet this  dreaded test
My eyes drag down, opaque the   fragile  lens
Protruding eyes, pale faces whose the death?

As the tigers launch, men smile content
They have satisfied their egos in this dance
As this era  ends, we hold our breath
Eyes protrude, face pales, whose is the death?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Like a mass communion without words

In Bedzin and in Krakow they breathed in
What they denied in conscious thought or word.
The ashes of the Jews, the shades of skin

Penetrating lungs so deep within
The dead  unburied mixed, in air secured
In Bedzin and in Krakow, mortal sin.

The nearby people turned to burial urns.
The human dust by  breathing was allured
The ashes of the Jews, the shades of skin.

So  Europe took their human ash within.
A graveyard we became unknown, impure.
In Bedzin and in Krakow, more of sin.

And who they thought destroyed  lived on in them
Controlled their lungs, their hearts  their minds uncured,
The ashes of the Jews,borne in their skin.

Like a mass communion without words
We ate and breathed the Jews, the gays, unheard
In Bedzin and in Krakow  we walked in
The ashes of the lost, the glades of skin,

Casserole of teeth in tears.

New  Jerseys cremated
Boast potatoes
Smack it potatoes
Red bunions
Sprung onions
Casserole of teeth in tears.
Chicken , hurry
Casserole of  lamb in bier.
Cheery tomatoes.
Fresh ballad daily.
Pot of wee for two.
Bring your own water to drink here,
Pot boasts of beef.
Potatoes au Marcon
Strumpets with Lure pack.
Baked jeans on toast

Is the Vatican a sin?

4936a-photo0121_001Pray Father, give me your guessing.

My guessing!Don’t you mean my blessing?

Oh, probably.Possibly..who knows.So have you any sins to tell me?

Yes, I broke a glass jug.

Whose was it?

It was mine, Father.Surely it’s not a sin to break your own jug?

It is if you hit yourself on the head with it!

What made you do that?

I was angry with myself…I had been committing effrontery.

Do you mean adultery?Your main problem seems to be bad language.

No, Father I never say” F*ck”

You just did.

Well, I had to do.I had no choice!

That’s what they all say…if only I heard some original sin I’d find life more interesting.

Well, it’s hard to think of anything original to do especially if it has to be a sin too.You are just not using your creativity.

All right Father, Put your hands up.i’ve got a gun.

Where did you find that?

In my wife’s handbag.

Now we are getting somewhere.. that’s threatening a priest, interfering in your wife’s privacy and stealing a gun.Any other sins?I could shoot you, I suppose.

No.no!That is going too far.

Shall I slap you?

No… just say something rude to me.

Your sermons are the most boring I have ever heard.

Well, that’s enough…I’ve never been so insulted in my life.You have been very lucky then… you should hear what people say to me!

Well, you are both ugly and unintelligent.I don’t know how you had the nerve to marry.

I had no choice.She forced me.But I gave in quickly in case she changed her mind.

And you have seven children.

No, they are not all mine. .And they are Jewish.How can they be Jewis?

My wife is Jewish!

I thought she was just a lapsed Catholic.

No, let’sshe’s Jewish but not even an arranged marriage could be arranged for her so she used her imagination and decided an overweight ugly Catholic would be grateful for her love,And are you grateful?

Yes, and so are all her lovers!

Who are they?

The curate is one of them and has two children .. they look just like him too.

And does she want them raised as Jews?

She lets them rise naturally and go with the flow.

Do they have to wear hats?

Only in the Synagogue!

Are you Jewish too.

Yes,it’s quite handy as we have Sabbath on Saturday and then we have Sunday on Sunday if you see what I mean.

I never met anyone who practised two religions before.;

Well,I figured it would double my chance of salvation!

Well. I must speak to the Rabbi.For your penance you must give £50 to Homeless at Xmas.

Am I absolved.

If you stay any longer you’ll be dissolved!

Thank you, Father.

And take that gun away.I don’t want it.

I can get you a good price for your cassock.

Why,thank you,my child but I need it.

Well,Jesus had no cassock!

Well, he was a  Jew…I am a Catholic.

Now,that makes me think.

Think what?

About the Vatican…

Let’s not go there,

Shalom

A space to be unseen

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Small rain in  summer
Pools on large green leaves,
Makes all birds dumber
Silently they weave.

Wrens fly to and fro
Nesting near the house.
They know where to go
With nestlings and spouse.

Simple life of green
Hiding in  lush leaves.
A space to be unseen
Humans only grieve.

Where is our safe space,
Where can we  live well?
As anguish veils the face
In green thoughts I dwell.