The end is not night

Well if I get cancer and don’t live very long it will it will save me from much anxiety,

Will I go blind as I’ve already lost one eye? Don’t worry I didn’t lose it on a night out

Will I end up in a wheelchair in my arthritis gets worse?

Will I always have problems with food?

Will I forget how to write a villanelle?

At least when you get cancer you won’t be worrying about whether you will get cancer. But then I can always think of some other aspects of life to worry about like it comes to remission will it come back and after permission for another act.?