Yet I don’t want to lose your care.
I want to go on being selfish
And having you always there.
I don’t want to feel your feelings.
I am aware that I’ve been very curt.
I want to go on ignoring you,
Because real knowledge will hurt.
The longer pretend to be ignorant,
The longer I opt not see,
The more I shall hurt my loved ones.
The more unkind and cruel I shall be.
I don’t want to see reality.
I’m frightened of what I might find.
I need a wise friend to be with me
Whilst I traverse the dark glades of my mind.
I am afraid to discover reality,
But it’s better for us all if we do.
I hope I can get enough courage
To be able to bear what is true.






