• Ballispipes(voice box)

• Ballybant(belt)

• Banglin

• Bant(twine)

• Banterin(haggle)

• Baokes(beams)

• Barley

• Barm-bo(barm dumpling)

• Barmy(Silly)

• Barrowfells(barrowfields)

• Barst(burst)

• Bat(hit)

• Beawt, bowt(without)

• Beylin(Boiling)

A kettle beylin on het fire means home
A place of greater safety, allus known
Mi mam wer  mekin  bread and  dad wer heah
I  live now cos mi daddy drank that beer

T’cat wer sat down on   our old rag rug
I was in ‘t kitchen  peeling spuds
We had ehn old gas cooker  and a sink
Otherwise we’d only pen ‘n ink

Mi ballispipes are useful as I hum
Hopin’ song will bring mi daddy home
But  now and then they cause some people wrath
Like a woman in my  Wensday morn Art Class

She shouted ,is there summat wrong wi’ you?
Where to start, is Confession ever new?
Abaht mi singin’ I  don’t sing bi will
I think it’s daddy, he is wi’ mi still

Oh daddy I  don’t miss your ballybalt
On my bum it left eternal welts
Yet you sang me lullabies and   I rode  on ye back
A livin’ ,breathin’ ,human haversack

This photo is from Mike Flemming’s Natural History Blog

http://home.btconnect.com/mike.flemming/

Auden and God

“In the 1950s and 1960s his  [Auden’s ]religious views began to coincide with those of the Protestant theologian Dietrich Bonhoeffer, whose letters from the Nazi prison where he was eventually murdered had expounded an adult, “religionless” Christianity that had left behind all childish fantasies of a protective, paternal God. Bonhoeffer’s God experienced human suffering: “It is not some religious act which makes a Christian what he is, but participation in the suffering of God in the life of the world.” Auden told friends that of all the doctrines that the early Church had condemned as heresies (such as the Gnostic and Manichaean heresies that regarded matter as inherently fallen or demonic), the only one in which he believed was patripassianism, the doctrine that the Father voluntarily suffered with the Son.”

One fine summer night in June 1933 I was sitting on a lawn after dinner with three colleagues, two women and one man. We liked each other well enough but we were certainly not intimate friends, nor had any one of us a sexual interest in another. Incidentally, we had not drunk any alcohol. We were talking casually about everyday matters when, quite suddenly and unexpectedly, something happened. I felt myself invaded by a power which, though I consented to it, was irresistible and certainly not mine. For the first time in my life I knew exactly—because, thanks to the power, I was doing it—what it means to love one’s neighbor as oneself…. My personal feelings towards them were unchanged—they were still colleagues, not intimate friends—but I felt their existence as themselves to be of infinite value and rejoiced in it.

WH Auden

Photo by Andre David Manjon Escobar on Pexels.com

Emile woke  Mary up at 7am.It was a  Sunday in  late October, grey and damp though the sun was still not  too low
Go away, she told him.The clock has changed.It’s not 8 am yet.I have to wash my hair as well.Get the Observer out of the basjet for me.
I can’t read. the dear animal replied.And why don’t you rebel and stick to Summer Time?
I know Stan wanted to send you to Eton but we couldn’t afford it.Yet you understand days and calenders, Mary joked   savagely
She got up and found her fleece dressing gown; it was   conker brown covered in coloured spots.She went downstairs and gave Emile a Whitby kipper.Then she made some tea and took it upstairs so she could drink it while she came round from her dreams
Suddenly Annie ran into   her bedroom wearing a  long black vinyl coat and  red knee-high boots
You never locked the back door, she howled like a lost  leopard which has had no  food for weeks
I don’t suppose anyone wants my old TV as it is only 19 inches.And my Chromebook is not something worth re-selling.I do have a new coat.
How about Ray Monk’s life of Wittgenstein, Annie asked her defiantly, her apricot lips pouting childishly as the Riemann of Paris lipstick glittered uncannily like an imaginary number in a dream of Godel.
The people who might enjoy reading it are by virtue of that , not the sort to steal or buy it on the black market.
That is very racist, Annie told her.You should say:the beige market!
Then nobody would know what I meant, Mary said lovingly
Anyway, do you want to come to Marks with me? They have some beautiful coats in
I’d like a pink wool coat, said Mary thoughtfully
Quite right  ,said Annie.Bring back feminine colours
Actually, gay men might like pink coats, she continued.But if they go on the bus they might get dirty.Come to think of it, so will women’s coats
They will have to buy pink puffa jackets and we can wash them at 30 deg.Mary whispered
Using a special detergent, Annie asked?
I have never seen a detergent for washing gay men.I don’t think they will fit into the washing machine.On the other hand, you are small so you will fit in
Shall I get undressed first, Annie asked furtively.
Yes, I’ll try to put you on a  short wash for 15 minutes but it is your choice.Maybe a bath would be safer?
No problem, said Annie intellectually.Are you having one with me?
You’d better be careful, Mary ad-libbed.It might be sexual harassment.
Well, I am not gay , said Annie.
You never know till you try, Mary giggled ,like a child behind the school canteen
Why, we might become gender fluid and then who knows?
And so say all of us
Miaow

Using google maps I see
I can walk to Tewkesbury
It will take me 50 hours
Just time for the milk to sour

If I have a motor car
I can get there in 3 hours
Is it worth it just for once?
£20,000 at a glance

I wonder can I hire a bike
I have an old one but it’s white
The tyres have rotted and it’s sad
Better just to say its dead

No wonder the Royal Family
Spend so much on fealty
Their own train is very good
If only if it were real  brown wood!

“To pray,” Auden wrote, “is to pay attention or, shall we say, to ‘listen’ to someone or something other than oneself. Whenever a human so concentrates his/her attention—be it on a landscape, or a poem or a geometrical problem or an idol or the True God—that s/he completely forgets his/her own ego and desires in listening to what the other has to say to him, she/he is praying.” This may seem a denatured idea of prayer, but Auden took it seriously, and seems to have prayed in exactly this sense”

I sent this article to a few friends.One sent  back an elegant and beautiful  description of his view of the world and what it has within it though  being an atheist he may not pray in the [old fashioned] Christian sense.He may pray in the above sense but to him  it’s not prayer it is being alive and experiencing that

Another lapsed Catholic sent a short note saying  she wasn’t interested in God
She didn’t ask me what it meant to me or why it had seemed interesting enough to send to her.She may like me have suffered the utter boredom of a convent school

Are some of us living in a complete and enclosed world so we don’t care what interests  others? And we feel safe.After all, the boredom of the Rosary nearly drove some of us insane.That was no prayer that was rubbish to me.Yet some people have found it a help in times of trouble/Maybe just feeling the beads is nice?

I suppose in Auden’s piece he wants to be involved in humankind and the world of nature, the Universe of some aspect of that.And he also liked the invocation of the  spiritual by means of rites and rituals which has been part of our history from the start……

A bit like music or an art show….?

““To pray,” Auden wrote, “is to pay attention or, shall we say, to ‘listen’ to someone or something other than oneself. Whenever a human so concentrates his/her attention—be it on a landscape, or a poem or a geometrical problem or an idol or the True God—that s/he completely forgets his/her own ego and desires in listening to what the other has to say to him, she/he is praying.” This may seem a denatured idea of prayer, but Auden took it seriously, and seems to have prayed in exactly this sense

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/w-h-audenI

A starting phrase, a melody alert,
A trill of birdsong may our ears caress
As sensitive as a baby’s little hands
As touching as the lover understands
We join together in one human heart

As round the world the News our minds will hurt
As round the sacred, carelessly we skirt
As dimly we perceive the  last combat
Then let us be  like  music sung unplanned
From startled phrase

Arpegionne, cello,Franz Schubert
Do not  leave before the great concert
The music gathers from the world’s own lands
Shared  in trembling  heart and soul’s demands
Till all to peace may  make  their minds convert
Give us that phrase.

In the mirror, who do we perceive?
Do we see ourself,does it deceive?
We look different when in varied moods
Ungrown  people  love to sulk or brood
We see ourselves but how are we received?

If  a friend looks sad, perhaps they grieve
We are mortal.,death will snatch with greed
As we turn to dust with ancient leaves
Reflecting on the truth, do not look rude
In the  mirror

Where one has has ventured  must she lead?
Far from home, barbarians spread their seed
Europeans savaged worlds approved
Forced conversions  madden God indeed
With no mirror

the same mirror:
mobile, glancing, we call it poetry,

fixed centrally, we call it a

religion,
and God is the poetry caught in
any religion,
caught, not imprisoned. Caught
as in a mirror

that he attracted, being in the
world as poetry
is in the poem, a law against its
closure.
There’ll always be religion around
while there is poetry

or a lack of it. Both are given, and
intermittent,
as the action of those birds –
crested pigeon, rosella parrot –
who fly with wings shut, then
beating, and again shut.

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2008/nov/29/nick-laird-poetry-religion

EXTRACT:

Though an atheist – in that I believe we’re here only by happy accident – my sensibility is religious. I like ritual and heightened states. I like mind-altering drugs. I believe in invisible forces – radioactivity, magnetism, sound waves – and I’m more than willing to sit for an hour listening to a church organist practice, which I did just last week. And I’ll let myself shiver along with the immense chord changes. I don’t like faith but I’m fond of its trappings- the kitschy icons, the candles, the paintings, the architecture and, especially, the poetry. Though many great religious figures, from Augustine to Screwtape, have taken prose as their instrument for confessing or cajoling, when it comes to praise, poetry’s the usual choice. I’ve been reading Robert Alter’s magnificent new translations of The Book of Psalms, and “My heart is astir with a goodly word”.

The relationship between poetry, those goodly words, and religion is hard to quantify. Both involve the hidden, working at the borders of the sayable. They share an experiential dimension. Personal religion involves a private speech act (prayer), chanting (psalms), heightened states achieved by ritualised words. The Lord’s prayer is one of the first poems I learned. Leached of its import by years of mindless recital, it’s almost a Sitwellian sound poem to me.

The Narcissism of Minor Differences

“The English and the Scots. The Serbs and the Croats. The Sunnis and the Shiites.

If you look at some of the fiercest and bloodiest rivalries in history, what’s striking is not how different the opposing groups are, but how similar. Sure, they often hold different beliefs, but they live as neighbors, share ancestry, and hold similar customs.

In his 1930 essay “Civilization and Its Discontents,” Sigmund Freud commented on this dynamic, noting that it is frequently “communities with adjoining territories, and related to each other in other ways as well, who are engaged in constant feuds and in ridiculing each other.” Elsewhere he notes that the phenomenon is not limited to ethnic or religious peoples either: “Every time two families become connected by a marriage, each of them thinks itself superior to or of better birth than the other. Of two neighboring towns each is the other’s most jealous rival; every little canton looks down upon the others with contempt.”

If as a teenage football fan you were caught up in a cross-town rivalry with another high school, you know of which Freud speaks.

So what accounts for the peculiar hostility between groups of people that are in many ways quite alike?

Freud chalked it up to the innate human proclivity for aggression and the desire for distinct identity. To see one’s neighbors reflect and mirror oneself too much threatens a person’s unique sense of self, and superiority. It’s what political scientist Stephen Brooks calls the “uncomfortable truth of resemblance.” To alleviate this injury to one’s ego, one downplays their similarities with others and emphasizes their divergences — which can be amplified into seemingly unbridgeable rifts.

Freud called this phenomenon “the narcissism of minor differences.””

https://www.nybooks.com/daily/2018/08/17/behind-the-anti-semitism-crisis-of-jeremy-corbyns-labour-party/

Although Stan was 92 years old he still rode his bike as much as possible in the summertime.He was out in the garden pumping up the tyres before going off to the Library when suddenly his neighbour Annie appeared at the gate,bedecked as usual in finest Scottish tweed with a long pendant on a solid 22 carat gold chain swinging nonchalantly from her neck,with a matching ring attached mysteriously to her upper lip
“Who’re you,the Lady Mayoress” he joked noisily as he felt nervous.
Where’s Mary?” she whispered shyly.
“She’s up with her widowed sister Joan in Scotland ” Stan admitted nervously.
“Joan,that’s not a very Scottish name!” Annie joked.”anyway how about we sit down here on this bench for a moment”.She pulled him vigorously towards her.Stan responded regretfully yet politely
“I’m afraid I can’t stop.I have all these  old books overdue and the library shuts in 15 minutes.
“Don’t worry, sweet heart”, she cried softly.”I’ll pay all your fines.I’ve just come into loads of money.”
“Oh,how’s that.my angel” Stan murmured into her ear.
“I just shot Bert.If you help me to get rid of the evidence,I’ll share the loot with you.”
At the funeral,Annie was dressed in a beautiful dark brown suit from Jaeger.She went around the room making sure everyone had enough food and drink..As she leaned over towards Stan her heavy gold locket,inside which was hidden the bullet that killed Bert,swung over and hit Stan a glancing blow on  his temple.
Stan fell to the ground where luckily there was a thick  wool carpet
“Do you think we should ring 999?” someone asked sarcastically.Within minutes paramedics arrived.
“So,is it that chair again?” they clamoured.
“Yes,this foolish old man fell over and the leg came off my new antique chair.I’ve only had it a few days and it’s not insured.”
“Did anyone ever tell you,your eyes are like deep pools in the Sargossa Sea?” The paramedic whispered into her right ear.I’m  Dave,by the way,her muttered.
“Have you still not finished that Creative Writing Course?” Annie shouted,continuing..
“I’m getting tired of you admiring my eyes.What about my nose?”
“Has anyone ever told you,your nose is the shortest they’ve ever seen?” he said furtively
“That’s a bit boring” Annie retorted. angrily
“Yeah,maybe I should change to Art,” he ruefully moaned, his eyes on the ground
“I love the way your deep blue and turquoise eye shadow is melting round your eyes and running down the sides of your nose.”
“Hurry up and fix my chair,and while you’re about it,you may as well take Stan down to A and E for a head X-ray.”
Glancing  slyly at Annie in her Jaeger suit with carefully contrasting deep coral blouse and opaque teal blue 80 denier tights with 6 inch stiletto heels to complete the outfit, not to mention her raspberry coloured bra which clashed violently with the coral blouse, which, as it happens, was more transparent than she realised, Dave picked up a hammer and began,excitedly,to mend the broken chair as this would put her in his debt.
“This is what life is all about,my boy” he thought.Little did he know the true tale, that Annie had murdered her husband merely because she felt very  bored.
Boredom is very dangerous.If you are affected why not go out and look at some hats?

Image by Katherine from a photo she took 2013

The late night news was very black today
Get ready for the angst , be mobbed by tears
A whale has swallowed Brexit and Ms May

No more shall little children, heedless, play
For  love imperfect has not paid their fear
The late night news is very grim today

Let the moon and stars each turn to grey
As in their grief they weep with hate sincere
A whale has swallowed Brexit and Ms May

Who will pay the bill  or  write the Play
Can  it be that lady, Germaine Greer?
The late night news is very grim today

Where do whales live,how about E bay?
Or in the House of Lords, is there a pier?
A whale has swallowed Brexit and Ms May

Who would have thought that vote would bring us here?
Weep well, oh mine eyes,have you  got no tears?
The late night news was  wonderful today
A whale has swallowed Brexit and Ms May

https://www.nybooks.com/articles/2007/12/06/auden-and-god/

““To pray,” Auden wrote, “is to pay attention or, shall we say, to ‘listen’ to someone or something other than oneself. Whenever a man so concentrates his attention—be it on a landscape, or a poem or a geometrical problem or an idol or the True God—that he completely forgets his own ego and desires in listening to what the other has to say to him, he is praying.” This may seem a denatured idea of prayer, but Auden took it seriously, and seems to have prayed in exactly this sense. The only value he found in “petitionary prayer”—prayer that asks for something—was that the act of expressing desires can reveal what they are, so that “we often discover that they are really wishes that two-and-two should make three or five, as when St. Augustine realized that he was praying: ‘Lord, make me chaste, but not yet.’” Auden prayed to a God whom he knew he thought about in falsely human-centered terms, but only by doing so could he listen with any attention: “I can see…what leads [Paul] Tillich to speak of God as ‘Ground of Being,’ but if I try to pray: ‘O Thou Ground, have mercy upon us,’ I start to giggle.””

I need a good sinner
I am  not Hungary
Where is the damage?
Is there a desert in the kitchen?
The Neg’ev… sounds like my wife
Are you a misphlogistonist?
Do you like a beginner at  dinner?
Why do we always have three horses every night
Sorry, three hearses.
I like an  egg fish
Sign,aye. Give me a pen.That’s an order
Is Rael still here?
He’s gone over to Rome
Wireless in Gaza?
Tireless at Murder
The order is   in Gatwick  they say,
Is this a war or just a piece of one?
Conflict with glassy fists is vulgar,regina.
Where will it all end? At the bottom.
So King David had his Hotel and Solomon had the Temple then some terrorists blew up the Hotel.Where was King David at that time? I see they are now Rulers
I’ll say this for King Herod.He knew his pie from his  irrational jumbles
Why, I never knew he built a new temple all by himself.
What a Nero!
Do you like the Pope? I didn’t even know he was on FB!
Do you ever bleat? Join Blitter or otherwise Bitter.
What a nun, aeon!
I scrambled   my legs on  a low heat
We can’t even  afford an oven.
What did they do with them after Auschwitz.. give them to Charity or sell them to another  evil Fascist country to pay for the re homing of the survivors who were refused entry to   the UK or USA and then we complained when they decided to flee to  the Holy Land.I bet Jesus wept all night.Unless he was not a survivor
That made me blink.
Oh, fire a blank.for God’s sake.That’s blass venomous.. you will remain in hell >
I told you to vote Leave, so don’t claim me
It’s still a free cointreau,I daresay.
Food for the bitch, work for the  whore.
Death  to the Menace.
What   about God? He’s not got a blog yet so no About

• 

  Everything abstract is ultimately part of the concrete. Everythinginanimate finally serves the living. That is why every activity dealing in abstraction stands in ultimate service to a living whole

• Edith Stein

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2014/01/the-jewish-mark-twain/355735/

” Her book is nothing less than a cultural history of American Jewry as refracted through its most celebrated artifact. Fiddler, which debuted in 1964, is placed within its moment. After a couple of decades of postwar assimilation during which Jews, like Catholics, won gradual mainstream acceptance, ethnic identity was beginning to reassert itself. The melting pot was being reimagined as a salad bowl, and the movement that Fiddler helped launch would eventuate, 13 years later, in Roots. Some potential backers worried that the show would prove to be “too Jewish.” Its Jewishness, in fact, turned out to be the key to its success.

But what exactly did that Jewishness consist of? If Fiddler marked the early days of multiculturalism, it also represented the climax of the process by which the Jews of Eastern Europe were rendered safe for their grandchildren, reduced to a set of reassuring stereotypes—poverty and piety, laughter and tears, candlesticks and chicken soup and “warmth”—that preserved them not so much in amber as in schmaltz. The paintings of Chagall, the photographs of Roman Vishniac (redacted to eliminate signs of prosperity or modernity), books like Life Is With People (1952) and, indeed, The World of Sholem Aleichem (1943): for the new suburbanizing Jews, those Unitarians with yarmulkes, such artifacts performed a complicated kind of psychic work. They gave them a past to adore, but also one that they could proudly leave behind”

On the patio stand my bay trees  in their pots
An acer red,a lavender   for gnats
The spiders weave their webs and so  do I
All I write down here  may be a lie
The truth’s a mountain. not a democrat

The toad crawls back  uneasy, the frog spits
I know I have retained a molten wit
My skin is healthy and it  slowly knits
The lord of death, another I defied
On the patio

The darker side is where my patio sits
In the evening,   by choice candles lit
Here an air raid shelter war defied
As we fought the Nazis and their spies
Wary of the past, alone  I sit
On the patio

To me this adage implies that someone in pain  needs only use more will power to blot out the pain.This is  false.If  it were true it would be dangerous.Should we banish the pian of a broken leg and continues using it we would do more damage or possibly go unconscious and even die.Will power is affected by fatigue,it is not limitless
When Jesus said,Take up your bed and walk to the paralysed or crippled  he said it  we  believe as the Son of God who could work miracles
Maybe some of the people’s problems were psychosomatic and faith in God might  give them confidence to try to walk.These things have occurred under hypnosis.I don’t have any data
But pain is a neccessary warning signal and we cannot turn if off. entirely.People born unable to feel pain don’t live very long
If you suffer chronic pain you do use all your will power to keep going.However it is finite and you pay a heavy price.Like you go shopping get home and can’t walk for 3 hours.

The only sensible  saying would  be “mind interacting with matter” and even that assumes Descartes division of us into a body and a completely separate mind where we live and  take decisions.I expect this is imagined to be in the brain.Since we still don’t know what mind and consciousness are  Descartes supposition may have had bad consequences.
If we pay attention to our body  in the places which hurt this when kept up for a good while can relax some muscles  and tendons.I used to do it for migraine but it would take at least 2 hours lying down and gently focussing on the pain which would gradually ease.Keeping very still stops one vomiting too.Of course you need a quiet place to do this and work is no that place
I have not yet found it helps arthritis but maybe it takes 3 hours or 5 hours and would not someone have written articles about it? Relaxing is usually good but  many people are strained at work and struggle to keep going.That’s why  A and E is full of drunken people at the weekend… they have be injured in falling or brawling
We educated people may blame these workers but could you spend 50 years in the coal mines [ and bring up 6 children alone]  which my grandad did? He didn’t drink much as in those days they were paid starvation wages and Mum had to go to Soup Kitchens sometimes.If he drank he had not much money
You may say if men didn’t get blind  drunk  then, why do they now? Ask a sociologist.It seems also to be common among  middle class youngish people.I feel it’s a release of tension and if you go back to your flat alone on Friday you might be judged a loser.I know of people who go  out of London on a train,get  home and  have no idea about it the next day.So it can be dangerous even if it helps arthritis pain

People who say, mind over matter, also are asserting their superiority to us sufferers who are weak willed  morons

I did an IQ test  once and I am a moron which seems odd as I used to be a mathematician!Really it shows they are rubbish on the whole
Rubbish is the in word now

The other technique which does work is Distraction.Meet friends and talk, write poetry, paint and draw.Get a camera and  play with it.Go out and get a whore.I am unsure where you get them from but maybe now we are all whores.
Go to a party and get utterly knackered.But when you go to bed you still feel the pain.So how about all those free books you can get? Anything out of copyright might be available as an e book.I know someone who has read the ancient Greeks this way and also Newton and Hook.He has few friends as most people don’t understand such things but if you do, read all night and then have a nervous breakdown
Going  mad may stop pain.I can’t say as yet  and if I do I probably won’t be able to write an article about it.But on the whole given mental health’s low status in the UK I will not advise anyone to even think about it.How do you go mad? Does anyone know the ideal way? First have loads of money for carers and a nice home with space for them….  and no doubt you will end up  seeing a CBT therapist who will train you to believe you are sane and have no pain.That’s a different kind of madness

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2016/jan/23/is-mindfulness-making-us-ill