My eyes were set upon some other world

The white geranium was a birthday gift
It flowered profusely all  last summer long
When winter came, I hid it in  the  hedge
To protect it and its loved life prolong

In spring I took it out to give it light.
Already flowers were visible and large
And so it lived  upon my  patio steps
I hoped that many buds would soon emerge

My eyes were set upon  some other world
I did not look at it for  seven weeks
The same large flowers were there yet looking grey
At last ,I realised  my mind  had been asleep

I picked it up to pull it from the pot
It broke in half ; it was   man  made,oh fool!
Yet for an entire year, it had me tricked;
As if I mistook tin for precious jewels.

Oh, absent mind; oh cruelly confused gaze.
Oh,woman blind;how foolish are  your days!

 

I have shuddered

I have  heard  grass singing in  the wind.
I   have walked through poppy fields in  sun
I have  struggled  when dark rain descends
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I have watched  trees’ shadows in the ponds
I have  crossed the  arctic wastes of pain
I have  heard  grass singing in the wind.

 

Another soul is writing  with my hand
I have  wept  while loaning him  my pen
I have   struggled  when dark rain descends

 

I have seen  the edges  of the mind
I  have   sensed a  silence un-contained.
I have  heard  grass singing in  the wind.

 

I have  grieved for   all who are confined
I have  cringed at  creeds of  cunning  men
I have  crawled  when  crushing  rain  comes down

 

 

I have seen the storm  through camera lens.
I have felt the   solar system bend.
I have  heard  grass singing in  the wind.
I have  shuddered  when dark rain descends

Seasons blurred

In temperate climates ,seasons ends are blurred.
So many days by  two seasons are shared.
Even by midsummer in  high June,
Many flowers have gone,have gone  too soon

Yet Michaelmas is marked by daisies tall
And roses still  show blooms  throughout  the Fall.
Mysterious, new and precious  buds are born
Will such  joy  help  us  bear our thoughts forIorn

In hollow  winter  depths of  ice and cold,
When dark,short days  so  heavily   unfold
Then we know with  Fall and summer gone ,
Dark earth shields seeds  until their time shall come

The paradox we face is how to judge
When   anguished hearts and faces by tears smudged
Tell us life’s too painful to go on.
Then from  hearts cracked open,  life   spurts forth again.

As we loved

The honeyed  words invented as we loved
Now have no other  speaker but myself
Lost, unique, the husband, once beloved
The honeyed  words  invented  as we loved
Now, from my vocabulary they are shoved.
I no longer speak these words,this unique wealth.
The chosen  words  invented as we loved
Now have no other   listener but myself

Imprisoned spirits

How like a prison is my cubicle;
A prison,a trap, a cell,a place of fear.
For humans,this is truth indubitable;
We need to roam ,to see,to smell,to hear.

Yet in the bureaucrat realm , we must observe,
The rules laid down by generations gone.
And from their ancient code ,we cannot swerve.
Even if by rules we are undone.

Did Archimedes    sail boats  in his bath?
Did Moses fear to see the burning bush?
Did Einstein follow someone’s else’s path?
Did Socrates give voice to utter trash?

Imprisoned spirits are to revolution called.
Unless by Ariel they would be mauled.

The loving gaze

What constitutes us  is the loving gaze
We’re held and seen  and so we know ourself
Long shadows from the past and childhood days
Connect us to the life   in us displayed
Words come later,phrase by holy phrase.
Freely given love’ s our  human wealth
What constitutes us  is the loving gaze
We’re held and seen  and so we know ourself

Oh. happy mean;oh centre that can hold!

Enriched with age, we  suffer from the cold,
Yet torrid heat’s   a danger to the heart.
The passion that a youthful one  just moulds
Would kill  some  humans old and over-bold.
Oh.  happy mean;oh centre that can hold!
This will give  us one fine place to start.
Enriched with age,  we  learn to deal with cold
Yet torrid heat  still threatens fragile hearts

Note:

Slouching towards Bethlehem by W B Yeats  has the line,The centre cannot hold

 

By a liar

The sun burns like  the Richmond blacksmith’s fire
Fierce flames   are  gleaming by   the sides of  clouds
The weather forecast is constructed by a  liar
To hide the  knowledge  of funereal pyre
The Social Contract  melts ; the flames fly higher
The dead are gathered  in;the fields are ploughed
Silently we say goodbye, without a choir
The sun burns like  the Richmond blacksmith’s fire
Fierce flames   are   glowing  by  the sides of clouds

When my mind is still confused by sleep

When my mind is still confused by sleep
I’m relaxed and I’m  full  of  hopeful dreams
The  sudden  shocks of  memory  make me  weep
The feelings  of my love are strong and  deep
But when with strangers I must be discreet
Avoid the talk of men and  wily schemes
When my mind is still confused by sleep
I am relaxed with  head  of joyful dreams

For  some  invite me to a dating site
And some  avoid me,   dreading I may tempt
They fear my glowing eyes so clear and  bright
Still visible without electric light
They think I’ll  pull  their man  with all my might
So now I try to look wild and unkempt
Lest  some  invite me to a dating site,
And some reject me  fearing I will tempt.

Late summer weighs us down with sullen heat

 

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Late summer weighs us down with sullen heat

Even cats and dogs sit still as stones

Gone are early flowers with fragrance sweet

Late summer weighs us down with sullen heat

The hot flagstones  make music of my  beat

As people  wander brandishing their phones

Late summer weighs us down with sullen heat

Even cats and dogs sit still as stones

Moonlight Monologue for the New Kitten Péter Kántor

The old kitten is replaced by a new baby kitten
the old dog by a new pup
like a dead Monday by Tuesday.

They stroke the new kitten in their laps
so that their excess affection won’t go sour,
so that it will love them in return, like the old one did.

But for me they aren’t replaceable,
not the kitten, not the Monday, not anything else;
for me they never die.

They only distance themselves, or dwell in me
disappearing into the distance: they dwell in my heart and ears,
like the Moonlight Sonata dwells in a piano.

Gone? No new rain rinses the shower-scent
of an old Monday from me,
no matter how hard it pours, hisses, stream

Black Cat Rainer Maria Rilke, 1875 – 1926

A ghost, though invisible, still is like a place
your sight can knock on, echoing; but here
within this thick black pelt, your strongest gaze
will be absorbed and utterly disappear:

just as a raving madman, when nothing else
can ease him, charges into his dark night
howling, pounds on the padded wall, and feels
the rage being taken in and pacified.

She seems to hide all looks that have ever fallen
into her, so that, like an audience,
she can look them over, menacing and sullen,
and curl to sleep with them. But all at once

as if awakened, she turns her face to yours;
and with a shock, you see yourself, tiny,
inside the golden amber of her eyeballs
suspended, like a prehistoric fly.

Where nude police with guns strut stiffly by.

He says we’re going to bed this afternoon
As melancholy  clouds  droop from the sky
I like the sun to  fry, to heat my womb

I like the flowers each with its  dull dead blooms
On burning   grass with him, I sinned to  fly.
He says we’re getting bail this afternoon

If there is no sun, there is no  moon.
If  we cannot stalk, then we can lie.
I out my sins  to  thrive, to bring  down Rome

I    scorn the  beach, where Europe showed it’s ruined
Nude starched police with guns strut  stiffly by.
He says we’ll have  the climax   S & hemmed,

I sing in tunes invented by my clones
I would be dumb  yet how the grey ghosts sigh
I  hear the sunbeams screaming in the Zone

 

If  it’s   very hot I have  clothes my own
Burkinis  are  the   big hits of today
They says we’re going to Jail this afternoon
I  hope that God will speak  and  throw us down

Emotions and desires with syntax meet

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Poetic form, oh architecture  sweet,
Sonnet,terza  rima,villanelle;
Let me   sense your truth in  sentence  neat

Emotions and desires  with syntax meet;
The sentences,   like waves, each softly swells.
Poetic form, oh architecture  sweet.

Like Shetland lace, the  patterned forms repeat
Oh,draping shawl, be not obsessive hell.
Let me   sense your truth in  sentence  neat

Our language starts as  babbles and small  greets;
From interactions, we  learn words  as well.
Poetic form, oh architecture  sweet.

Poems and music , each  has  rhythmic beat.
Each may give us peace or vital thrill
Let me   sense your truth in  sentence  neat

Underneath the oak trees take your seat.
Read aloud  or silent,as you will.
Poetic form, oh architecture  sweet;
Let me   sense your truth in  sentence  neat

 

 

IF THIS BE LOVE

 

If this be love,then let me have your hate.

If you be true then let me hear your lies.

For this, my heart, your message comes too late.

For now my need is for the thoughtful wise.

If this be marriage,let me have divorce.

If this be holy, hasten I to hell..

For love comes in its time without such force.

And of its message ẃho am I to tell?

If this be love,then let me dwell alone.

If this be love, I will be forever chaste.

Your love is like a bomb. that breaks my bones

A love that lays your world and mine to waste

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Love can shake us to our inner core.

Hence of your love I wish to hear no more

Where is the boundary?

If there is bad poetry   and good poetry how about grey poetry?

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The poem was not a diamond  nor a pearl
Nor was it even moonstone  they surmised
But  in the weekly news, it got a mention
Which gained the author looks of great surprise.

The postman and the milkman lingered longer
The  dustmen were all eager to commend
They rescued other writing from recycling
They told the author it was in demand.

Or if not now, then maybe in the future;
Like Ted Hughes, we ought not to destroy.
The driver’s  done an OU course in writing
Everything from Pontefract to Troy.

The postman wrote us verses  every Xmas
The milkman gave us readings from our palms.
The dustmen read the Times  if it was folded
If it was creased, then they were up in arms.

Save letters, lists and diaries when handwritten;
Even the old  table where you write
Perhaps your  golden pen from Haifa
And the Esterbrook which knew your daily plight.

I don’t know where Sylvia’s stuff was quartered
But now it fills  great rooms  with gravitas
Innumerable academics sift it
Has all her suffering brought her down to this?

So build a shed and make it dry in winter
Get heavy duty bags from Shangri La
Every single sentence you have written
Put it there before you cross the Bar

In your Will,do mention your grey  verses
Leave all to the University of Rome
If they    don’t really  want  to shelve them
Make a university  of your home.

 

A tyrant’s spell makes ruin seem like fate

Writing poems is easy,in the end
For they exist already in the tongue.
We  remove excess, and inappropriate,  mend.
Hence what is left cannot be written wrong.

The longer and more complex is the poem
The easier for the poet to  sculpt to shape
But brief and succinct verses  hide, or roam.
Empty is my paper and I  mope.

Or are words  a  mere random heap  of stones
A poet ,  a builder of a drystone wall?
Skeleton,  or heap of  beggars’ bones
Awaiting  flesh , for which desire they call?

Maybe a hidden body in the woods,
A hand protrudes and dogs run all a-bark
Lazarus waiting  for  his unique   God
Who alone  provides the  living spark

Frankenstein or Saviour, who can tell?
Construction  may obscure  and then  too late;
Both  good and evil can  be written well.
A tyrant’s spell  makes ruin   seem like fate

Happy to do nothing,nothing seek

Rich deep silence brings pleasures unique
From  peaceful green of  trees where small  birds  hide.
The work within the mind  may be complete

About our souls, we each must be discreet
Even to those  who’re  living by our sides
Rich deep silence brings pleasures unique

Happy to do nothing,nothing seek
Innocent as  young,beloved bride
The work within the mind  may be complete

Ignorant of Latin,Hebrew,Greek,
The heart needs no such learning to decide
Rich deep silence brings pleasures unique

I listen to the  world around me speak
Underneath the turmoil,love’s alive
The work within the mind  may be complete

In our society,  sensitive means freak.
Yet, by our intuitions, we may guide
Rich deep silence brings pleasures unique
The work within the mind  may be complete

When shadows fall and night begins again

When shadows fall  and night  begins again
When  artificial light is all I have
I feel the grief of loss  in  biting pain

And by the evening ,energy is drained.
We list the memories of those we’ve loved
When shadows fall  and night  begins again

 

So like the moon ,my feelings wax and wane
And sunlight does not fall from far above
I feel the grief of loss  in    biting  pains

When no words seem appropriate to explain
The river rushes fast, but I’ve no  boat
When shadows fall  and night  begins again

At least I do not look for who to blame
But wish to live surrounded by a moat
I feel the grief of loss in   biting  pains

A premonition warned me of what came
And down I sank forgetting how to float
When shadows fall  and night  begins again
I feel the grief of loss  in  biting pain

The rage of living

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The point of living is to feel alive
Not caged  by  too high walls or steely fence
We want to love,be taken by surprise.

Our  wounded mangled self we can’t deride,
Recalling  fights and  struggles lived  through once.
The point of living is to feel alive.

We dither to and fro in puzzled ways
We feel the anguish, still and quite intent.
We want to love,be taken by surprise.

The self’s spontaneous, not a thing contrived;
Formed with love and  hate,with all intense.
The rage of living is to be alive.

When washed away by feelings glad,immense
That cross our borders without our lament
The  hope,the need of living is  our life
We want to  give and take  yet fear surprise

My canny lass

I can see you in  the  distance in the   meadows
You’re  walking all alone,  though it is late
I’m watching you and wondering what to do.
I  always keep to roads   that run    dead straight.

I’m sorry if you’re weary and forlorn
I’m afraid to leave the beaten track.
I even have a sat nav  on my bike
Perhaps if I  shout  out,you will come back.

I think you should  avoid the fields and hills
For you are old and stiff and  mad
I phone you on your Windows  phone again
To tell you ,you are being very bad.

toBut you asked me to  join you in the grass
To see wildflowers and  in blue   heather   lie
But  can’t you  see the dangers ever near?
Is it weakness   on my side or am I wise?

I once lay down   myself on   heathery moors
The Cleveland Hills, so beautiful a view
But later I saw I ‘d edged a cliff
So near to falling off,I never knew.

Since then I’m careful where I  walk
I  study charts and  maps and feel afraid
I get the weather forecast ,wear a mac
But is it a wise decision I have made?

I see that  you are sinking in a bog
I vault the gate and speed across the grass
I grab you and I pull you to  dry earth
I always did admire you,canny lass.

Oh,I’ll take you in my arms and get you warm
I won’t admonish you  or make a pass
I’ll give you hot  tea,check if you are harmed.
I love,I love ,I love my canny lass.

As brave as the old Vikings in  longboats
As wild as a cat demon in the hills
As  bright as a bronze shield in Northern sun
Oh,canny lass, be mine, please say,I will.

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Daisied fields

What shall I do ,the  widow asked her friend.
I feel this knife inside my heart again
What  can I do to make my sorrow end
What can I do to  stop the bloody   pain?

Do nothing, the  sweet friend  gently replied
Your task is  to  accept   your own despair
The  wisdom in your mind will work,she sighed.
Your body hurts and  for such  pain we  care.

Sit here and  count the daisies i n the lawn
No need to talk or  even think  or will.
As in this peaceful sitting for  a day
Your mind will    rest and  hope  and trust may call.

Receptive to the shivering, daisied  fields,
The heart releases; to  its  grace  we yield

I know you well enough to wish to care

I knew you well  for  just the  everyday
The little happenings which we have shared
But in your  grief, I  don’t know what to say.

How many losses hit you on  your way?
I know you well enough to wish to care
I knew you well enough for  every day

Is sorrow  what survivors have to pay?
I’m afraid  to feel  my dark emotions  bared.
So in your  grief, I   fear what I might say.

On your hand,my hand I gently lay
I lived near you when all was kind and fair
I knew you well enough for  every day.

I ‘ll comfort you  perhaps just for one day
We’ll live this darkness hour by   pained hour
Oh,in your  grief, I  don’t know what to say.

We’ll take a walk ,and movement shall be prayer.
We’ll smell the  damp green lawns and   lavenders
I knew you well  for  just the  everyday
But  when you grieved, I   knew not what to say

The second coming

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TURNING and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.
Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of i{Spiritus Mundi}
Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again; but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at laSt,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

 

 

 DURHAM  OWL 

 Short-eared Durham owl

meditating over the dale’s edge,
shadows the fields and folds
in elegant diurnal flight.
On windside, careful sight,
may swoop to prey, and away.

Your yellow broad-eyed look,
at once both sharp and distant,
holds me.
oh, silence,
oh, wind on green,
oh, earth,
sky.
immense your held vision,
sphere without centre,
pied geometer of flight,
sketch your descent and ascent.
Trees bunched by dry stone wall
call heart home

The heart of God

The universe may be the heart of God
And this  natural world  is  where he left his soul
Where good and evil fight and love is bred

 
By our perceptions we are slowly led
To  see   through light and so become more whole
The universe may be the heart of God

And yet some say he rules us with his rod
When  others in his love he does enfold
While good and evil fight and love is bred

Sometimes  alas  we feel that  God has fled
And shrink  our hearts   as   we feel  deathly cold
The universe may be the heart of God

He shows himself in signs and what he said
As in the sky his  sonorous thunder rolls
Yet good and evil fight and love is bred

To the mountain, were not the prophets led?
Till in their minds the  words  made up a thread
The universe may be the heart of God
Where good and evil fight and love is bred

Apple wood

I have a piece of  apple wood
I have my whittling knife.
I want to make a gift for you,
The best gift of your life.
Apple wood is sweet and sound
The tree grew here by me.
I chose the best part I could find
For the virtue of the tree.

 

 

Apple wood is a rare gift
We must make something whole,
For if you touch my apple wood
You can feel its soul.

 

The sweetness of the fruit of love
Is there within the wood.
So all who touch the apple here
Will be moved to good.

 

What knowledge did the tree conceal
That Eden was destroyed?
Was this a good metaphor?
Should it have been employed?

 

Sweet apples fall at random now
As autumn time has come.
And many Newton’s, all unknown,
Shall learn from every one.

Wildflowers

Gently dancing in the sun
Wildflowers grow,
they bloom,
are gone.

With no thoughts,they have no cares;
Yet their lives are gentle prayers.
May I walk in such a way
That I am alive to this all day.

So I see with widening view,
And joy and sorrows embrace too.
Then my time will come like yours...
And of us both nothing  endure.

As to the earth our bodies go,
All are one;it shall be so.

Maybe I had drunk too much black beer

I wonder if it’s  best to write in form
When I feel this panic and  bleak fear.
Breathing will be easier  when I’m calm

Will these patterns act like a soft balm
When I’m confused and have no real ideas?
I wonder if it’s  best to write in form

Shall I on  my  ego lay the   blame?
Or  my inner critic ever near
Breathing will be easier  when I’m calm

I thought  my  face looked very strained and plain
Maybe I  had drunk too much black beer
I wonder if it’s  best to write in form

 

Is this life  just God’s intriguing  game?
Am I sure if you are really here?
Breathing will be easier  when I’m calm

No need to panic when alarmed.
No need for the secondary fear
I wonder if it’s  best to write in form?
Breathing will be easier  when I’m calm

The earth has its own gravity and grace

The earth has its own gravity and grace
Perception will develop as we grow
Maintain the sacredness of this dear space

When we live we need to find our place
The process may be long and very slow
The earth has its own gravity and grace

The good and bad both need to be embraced
Grace comes easiest to those who’re low.
Maintain the sacredness of this dear space

Good and bad make patterns as in lace
And through the gaps, the living waters flow
The earth has its own gravity and grace

Life must grow at its own steady pace
By our intuition ,we will know
Maintain the sacredness of this dear space

Of the fruits of earth, the living taste.
Admire the flying birds from thrush to crow
The earth has its own gravity and grace
Maintain the sacredness of this dear space

 

Note:Gravity and grace is the title of a book by the French mystic
Simone Weil