I have just read in the Guardian that the government is not going to make its target treatment by march 2027 and the hospitals are saying they don’t have enough stafd. well I am waiting myself 

I was referred on the 15 day urgent cancer pass on the 27th of October and I got an appointment for Wednesday the 11th of November at 3:15 p.m. which was just within the time limi

Put on Tuesday the 10th of November I got a firm call five o’clock in the afternoon saying there were cancelling my appointment because I am disabled and need hospital transport and they claimed they couldn’t get transport to bring me home. The person who told me did not seem very intelligent 

It’s confusing because someone else gave me to understand that if I was waiting two or three hours for transport a member of staff would have to stay beyond their time when they were being paid but when I spoke to the dermatology nurse she said that she and others are there eight o’clock. So it is mysterious but I have to wait another two weeks for a morning appointment.

It seems to me that this is discrimination against disabled people because I am waiting for almost a month. But if I were able bodied and settling independently then I would have seen the consultant this week and I would now be either told I don’t have cancer or I will be on the path towards treatment whereas I’ve no idea now and I must say I found it a great shock to have it cancelled so late. Some hospitals which I have been to what is called a common discharge space which is a waiting room really. That seems like a sensible idea but not for the management at the local hospital here.

When I mentioned it might be discrimination legally they seemed astonished beyond words. Anyway I’m just about recovering from the shock. But it seems to me there’s some lack of thought and that might be slowing down people on the pathways towards cancer treatment.

Everything is done very slowly it seems to me that then I’m only one person so I shouldn’t really generise

“Photons have mass ? I didn’t even know they were Catholics. When cats prey can dogs meditate?

Is humour necessary to become a mystic? Yes,but it is not sufficient.

Life is good if and only if we realise we have a choice What it is noone knows.

I found my first phone in the drawer by chance C 1 -01, a Nokia, coloured pink Memories of my flower photographs

We look but we don’t see,oh,happenstance

Now I shall pour out the tea and drink

I found my first phone in the drawer by chance I saw cats and dogs but no giraffes

Now I might just sit to muse and think

Of memories and my flower photographs

We walked around those gardens holding hands

Saw the iris and the rose.oh God be thanked

I found my first phone in the drawer by chance You preferred the sea shore.edge of sands

The waves ran on our feet, the fishes winked.

Oh memories ,oh all our photographs

Like the fish, you also sent a wink Just before you died, a smile , cheeks pink

I thought you looked much better,but no chance

Blessed memories of our lives in photographs