After seeking help from every source
I fell into despair, without a voice.
I hated God, I could no longer pray.
Every day was torment,every way
When someone takes their life we’re seized by pain.
How can we ever know such love again?
Silent and alone in deep despair
My pain itself became a silent prayer
In my room I saw a golden light.
Which wrapped itself around me, held me tight
Go back into the world he counselled me
I will help you in your agony
I felt such love, I’ve never since forgot .
How deep despair untied the sacred knot
We’re meant to live with others not seek God
Though God himself may find us with his s rod.
Angels guide us to where we should be
Don’t try to cross the river, do not flee.
No one is an island said the poet
In our suffering, sometimes we can’t know it
I’ve never seen the golden light since then.
I’ve had friends and lovers and my pen
How my heart speaks 