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They took,took you away,away.
They took you away
And nevermore will I see you.

The blonde with the artificial smile
Said it’d be just for a while
But I saw the black shape behind her
As she came through our door
And never more will I see you.
Nevermore be near you.

Why did she not see,
Why did she not look
Why no appointment but a raid on our home.

They made you go to a gym
When your valves were leaking
You could not eat,you could not speak
But you had no choice
And said,next week we’ll come to your house
To fit a few grab rails
I thought I was going crazy.

They tried to keep you out of the hospital
But you died in A and E
After 3 days of the gym and walking
So officially you were not in hospital
That maybe was the idea.
And we  never had that quiet cup of tea
Never had anything together again
And  late one evening,you could not speak properly
But you were worried about how I’d get home
And what I would eat.
So I said I’d take a cab
Because I can’t walk very far
Especially seeing what I saw…..

They said I was too anxious 48 hours before you died
That I should go home  and watch TV
And soon you’d be there with me
But now I am thinking,
How soon will I be THERE with you?
No-one not even the cat came today.
But I saw some moths in a rug!
And that is good because wildness is normal
Cleanliness and neatness are only gained with effort.#

Today I have moved your chair
And the table where I put my little laptop
I played a video of me singing so I could go into the kitchen
And you would think I was sitting by you again.
I read a poem I wrote for you even though I don’t  like the way I read
But a smile came on your face when you heard it
Your eyes were shut but you were listening

 

Oh, each day, is always that day for someone,some where.
We all lose and we all grieve for love is risky
But not to love is a curse.
So today is that day for me
And for women and men in  this world
Whose love is dying.
It’s our  good fortune to have given love
And received love.
But oh,today is the day that they took  you away
And I can  never,ever say
What I wanted to tell you as we drank tea
That you were the the best one for me
And I remember climbing cliffs and jumping over stiles
~Walking the Pennine Way,
Wish we were there today
Oh, please,can’t you stay?
Come back for one day…..