Day: May 22, 2016

Most strange ,we need to do what we most fear;

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How like a monster is my fear of pain
Expanding to fill all my heart and mind
Swelling like a  giant sponge   in the rain,
This fear begets  new  feelings more unkind.

For humans being chased by lions fierce,
Fear gives us the strength to  dash away.
But when by inner turmoil we are pierced
We cannot run  yet need  not be its prey.

Most strange ,we need to do   what we most fear;
Walk towards the pain with curious calm.
As else we may be maddened like King Lear
With no Cordelia to bring us balm.

To  feel in proper ratio to our   pain.
We need perception,grace and all their gains.

Now we must live them

I made a  cheese flan
Both burned  black and undercooked
It was edible

I guess my knack left
Along with my dear husband.
All’s been cremated!

That’s why I can’t eat.
I see Auchwitz and Dachau.
Christianity.

These ring the death knell.
That Pope was  no kind of star
Mechanical  thought

Christianity
Now has come to its ending
Crucified itself.

Resurrection
Will not do us any good.
We must start over.

But crawling on  earth.
Kafka made the images
Now  we must live them

To help me

He was with me then
As I searched for a new place
In which I could live

But he does not speak
He is my companion
He wants to help me

I don’t believe yet
That he won’t come home ever.
But I just pretend

When I am with folk
They tell me I am stronger.
Oh,comparisons!

Yeah,I need no-one
No words of comfort or love
I must be a stone.

My stoicism
A wonder to the  heavens
My dead face fakes   peace.

 

How?

Instead of arguing,change places
Logic  is not much use when someone  is overwhelmed
Shouting does not enable listening
Swearing  doesn’t either
Only calm will work ,but how do we get that?
The paradox of giving in allows all to win

She heard his crying

Palpitations
Made waves sing in his ears
Sea shells soft murmurs

This song so silent
Passed through walls and fences
She heard his crying

Outside the prison
She stood in her long rough coat
She trembled and shook

And he felt her there
Her vibrations moved him
That was how they danced

Pay and peace?

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peɪ/
verb
verb: pay; 3rd person present: pays; past tense: paid; past participle: paid; gerund or present participle: paying
  1. 1.
    give (someone) money that is due for work done, goods received, or a debt incurred.
    “the traveller paid a guide to show him across”
    synonyms: reward, reimburse, recompense, give payment to, settle up with,remunerate, tip, indemnify More
    • give (a sum of money) in exchange for goods or work done or to settle a debt.
      “the company was rumoured to have paid 450p a share”
      synonyms:

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      		 spend, expend, pay out, lay out, part with, disburse, hand over,remit, render; More
    • hand over or transfer the amount due of (a debt, wages, etc.) to someone.
      “I always prefer to pay all my bills by cheque”
      synonyms: discharge, settle, pay off, pay in full, meet, clear, square, defray,honour, satisfy, make good, liquidate

      “the company was unable to pay its debts”
    • (of work, an investment, etc.) provide someone with (a sum of money).
      “jobs that pay £5 an hour”
    • (of a business, activity, or an attitude) be profitable or advantageous.
      “crime doesn’t pay”
      synonyms: yield, pay out, return, produce, bring in; More
  2. 2.
    suffer a misfortune as a consequence of an action.
    “the destroyer would have to pay with his life”
    synonyms: suffer, suffer the consequences, be punished, pay a penalty, atone,make atonement, pay the price, get one’s deserts, take one’s medicine;

    informal get one’s comeuppance
    “I’ll make him pay for his mistakes”
  3. 3.
    give (attention, respect, or a compliment) to (someone).
    “no one paid them any attention”
    synonyms: bestow, present, grant, give, hand out, extend, offer, proffer, render,afford

    “he had always found it difficult to pay Martha compliments”
    • make (a visit or call) to (someone).
      “she has been prevailed upon to pay us a visit”
    • give what is due or deserved to.
      “it was his way of paying out Maguire for giving him the push”
noun
noun: pay
  1. 1.
    the money paid to someone for regular work.
    “an entitlement to sickness pay”
    synonyms: salary, wages, wage, take-home pay, gross/net pay, payment; More
Origin
Middle English (in the sense ‘pacify’): from Old French paie (noun), payer (verb), from Latin pacare ‘appease’, from pax, pac- ‘peace’. The notion of ‘payment’ arose from the sense of ‘pacifying’ a creditor.

A song about my cat

My cat went a roaming to find a new home.
Sing kitty,sing katty,sing Oh!
This cat was so clever he had his own comb.
Look up,now look down,stone the crows!

He went into the neighbours' and drank all their milk.
Sing,fridge raiding kitties.No,No!
Then he laid himself down on a piece of fine silk.
Sing,what the dickens,my lovely pillow!

He went to the butcher and ate all the steak.
Sing greedy,he's ruined my flow.
Then he went to the hairdresser for a shampoo.
Where else can a puttitat go?

He had no plastic,no money,no cheque!
Sing,cheater,sing creature,sing woe.
She sent for a Copper who paid the cat's bill.
And so  my puss came out all aglow.

Now my cat was glossy and plump and refreshed.
Sing:fancy,it all goes to show.
So he came home and said this place is best.
And he picked up his cello and bow.

He scraped some Sibelius and also some Grieg.
Sing: Northern lights can always glow.
But,he looked so self satisfied,I felt annoyed....
One should not let one's narcissism show.

But he was so handsome,I was glad he came home.
Sing,grateful,sing katefull,sing Ho!
And I hope he will never again want to roam.
Sing glory.sing story;Sing So!

Gales in May

Despite the season, we have gales and  rain,
When May  blossom and buttercups each bloom
I feel regret for Spring is on the wane
The summer’s short and autumn comes too soon.

Expectations block our  outer view.
We miss  brief moments when the sun breaks through
And makes the whole world glorious anew.
With laughter, leaves and flowers our souls imbue.

Let’s look again, with  eye blind to desire.
A shady day has still a pleasant feel
The air is scented and senses   still are fired.
Thus, from the darkness ,let’s a pleasure steal

The grass is green and flowers assert  allure
Even in the gale ,we find our cure

 

 

About Mary Oliver

“Attention without feeling … is only a report.”

 

 

Mary Oliver on What Attention Really Means and Her Moving Elegy for Her Soul Mate

http://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems-and-poets/poets/detail/mary-oliver

 

A still,small voice

1 Kings 19:11-13King James Version (KJV)

11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lordwas not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake:

12 And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What doest thou here, Elijah?

King James Version (KJV)Public Domain

About synonyms

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I was just thinking that you need to be careful using synonyms.For examplw

She had singular blue eyes
She had rare blue eyes
She had atypical blue eyes

Blue eyes are not rare   nor atypical in the UK.However if someone has particularly beautiful  eyes or eyes of an unusual shade of blue then singular might be an appropriate word to use of them.

What does the word “rare” mean?

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rɛː/
adjective
adjective: rare; comparative adjective: rarer; superlative adjective: rarest
  1. (of an event, situation, or condition) not occurring very often.
    “a rare genetic disorder”
    synonyms: infrequent, few and far between, scarce, sparse, scattered, thin on the ground, golden, like gold dust, as scarce as hen’s teeth; More
    antonyms: common, frequent
Origin

Fight,fight against the dying of the rhyme.

To be both fair and wise is not a  match
For men will want my beauty and my touch
But if at this they unthinking  snatch
They may find out my mind is rather much.

And if I read a book whilst they caress
It seems a cruel action for a bride.
More, if I inside out did wear my dress
It may wound  sore and injure husband’s pride.

I tease ,for I would never read in bed
If someone shared my cosy little nest
No,I’d go into the lavatory instead.
And practise for my next Su Doku  test

For all problems are solvable with time.
Fight,fight against the dying of the rhyme.