When doubts and drawbacks struggle in the mind
And certainty seems but a demon dream,
When the faith to love is what no-one can find
For even when asleep, the mind still schemes

When darkness and defeat seem close at hand
And lights dim even as we pray for peace
when wrecks and ruins rile the native sands
When in this life we feel we've lost our place...

Then at the saddest depth we see the light
Surrounding with such warmth,with love adorned.
The path that seemed so wrong now leads us right
And in our hearts, warm feelings are new born

Within each storm there is a calm still eye
From there we see the fiercest clouds blown by

Was this the apple,then,your mother’s breast,
Which father thought was his to oft caress?
And when,in deprived rage,you bit to test,
In answering rage he vowed to  you harass.

So then you learned that you could hate as well,
For punishment struck hard in your small heart.
Your memory was unworded,could not tell;
Though pain and anguish made your soft skin smart.

As unknown as the journey to your birth
As shocking as the grief of unmeant wrong..
As frightening as the gauging of your worth
As sudden as the ending of a song.

Impossible to foretell or to prepare;
The  ambivalence of our love is hard to bear

How like a prison is my cublicle

Where I await the medic on his rounds

I bite my nails and chew their cuticles

But take care not to make a single sound

Were I to  don this backless gown supplied

And lie uncovered on this small hard bed.

I feel as if  someone will think I’ve died.

And like a book I will remain unread.

Alone and naked like a new born child

Or like a suspect in some  secret jail.

I must keep hold of thought and temper wild…

No cries,no screams,no not a single wail..

How easily we ‘re plucked from normal rounds

And hurled into a maelstrom with no bounds