Christ came down as weak as candle light
In a stable with no heat or light
Who will celebrate the birth of God
When we each deny our rage and spite
Psychosis swallows up the dark of night
The star that shepherds saw has filled with blood
Above a stable with no heat or light
We live with fear, we know who has the might
Can our minds contain both bad and good
When we each deny our rage and spite?
We fail to know how others suffer fright
That they are persons too , not understood
Christ came down as weak as candle light
We are each a world, there is no fate
I see the tears run down the face of God
When we each engage our rage and spite
Shall we lose in darkness or in flood?
Asked a man bereft of his true love
In a stable with no heat or light
Love is born, is frozen, is denied
My little helper




Watched by men who look without a face
Boris Johnson thrown out by his wife
Now he has a different tole in life
He has a girlfriend will he have more kids?
Lucian Freud was surely up for this
They say he might have had perhaps thirty two
With all that sperm what is a man to do?
He could take Precautions as they say
I prefer icecream but let’s go stray
Lucian Freud was not a man to rule
They say he once burned down his own Art School
He married once, he married twice but no
He would not be captured in Soho
Beautiful and strange he made his mark
Boris Johnson has a nuclear heart
Winter will come down upon us all
Europe we are sad, almost appalled
Sadness for the surgeon who cured me
The cancer grew like rampant lush ivy
He is Greek and no-one else was skilled
To leave me looking better than God willed
Will he go back to where his grandad came?
Say a little prayer for my dear face
I don’t want to suffer but all will
We’ll die sooner, sadly Boris kills
The NHS is going slowly to its grave
Watched by men who look without a face
We may miss the very clues we need
Emotional claustrophobia is widespread
We fear our feelings,fear the sudden dread
We swing between attraction and dismay
Others have been seen to sink to prayer
Yet all alone at Xmas we are sad
Even our other choice was dread
People who can madden with crude noise
Feel some one else might love their voice
Silence is like music in its joy
No intrusion, no strong words to annoy
But if we flee intrusion at great speed
We may miss the very clues we need
Oh, to find a lover joyful in our space
When we long for touch, for wild embrace.
Between intrusion and abandonment
Between intrusion and abandonment
We hope to find a place of trust and care
A place where we can spend our loving wealth
Communion starts.our hearts enjoy love’s health
Here our bodies and our souls are bared
Between intrusion and abandonment
Walk as does the tiger with its stealth
Treat your loved one well as both prepare
A place where each can spend this loving wealth
And if you are alone, stay with yourself
Do not neglect that soul who’s always here
Without intrusion or abandonment
Quietly sings the soul for all is meant
We’re inspired by hope and not by fear
To clear a space , to learn the dove’s lament.
Take the tiller, love itself may steer
Our voyage through the unknown ocean’s near
Between intrusion and abandonment
We seek a space to share our loving wealth
This frail membrane is our boundary
My room is warm and comforting and light
This feels like kindness , brings my skin delight
I remember being held in loving arms
And soothed by songs as sweet as any balms
Let the lamplight run across the eyes
Let them soften to a wider gaze
Let the hair be free from wax and sprays
Let the skin enclose us, be our way
We can’t deny the skin is often pricked
Or beaten by a parent who’s too strict
More fragile than a leaf from any tree
This frail membrane is our boundary
Floating into sleep in reverie
I lose myself while God imagines me
Well as it’s free we do not have to pay
I went to vote, the queue ran down the street
Strange to see the British change their ways
None were holding phones nor were there bleeps
Eager faces, animation sweet
Well as it’s free we do not have to pay
I went to vote, the queue ran down the street
The staff were kind, the voters were no sheep
They did not need a shepherd for this Play
None were holding phones nor were there bleeps
The politicians crippled by conceit
Put fake websites on the net today
I went to vote, the queue ran up the street
I alas am old but I still sweat
The stupidity of gossip is made clear
No-one made a video of my seat
I did not queue, a cripple may shed tears
All I have is sight loss and burnt ears
I went to vote, the queue stood with no light
Smiling, patient people black and white
Never join conspiracies or choirs
Why do we love those who love us least
To prove we can obtain whom we desire?
He makes cruel comments at the wedding feast
Do not call this man a nasty beast
An animal is better than a liar
Why do we love those who love us least?
He shouts in rage because his shirt is creased
Throws your letters into the coal fire
He makes crude comments at our Xmas feast
I do not mind if you are dressed in fleece
Wear nylon shirts and shoes with laces wired
Why do we love most the late deceased?
Never borrow men who have no price
Never join conspiracies or choirs
If they make “remarks” don’t on them feast
The old cathedrals have the tallest spires
With older men the risks are sadly higher
Why do we love those who love us least
Who cannot be polite at wedding feasts?
I googled “Ending war” but nothing came
The wilder edges, hidden cliffs of life
Sorrow slides into the hearts unnamed
As we see our neighbours fall to strife
We make our minds up, this won’t happen twice
We act from some gut feeling reason’s lame
Walking the wild edges,tossing dice
The anger and the rage pierce all, disguised
No caring for opponents. sharing blame
As we and many neighbours fall to strife
The smartphone has no answers I surmise
I googled “Ending war” but nothing came
The Pennines have wild edges that surprise
The white rose and the red rose compromised
The Queen used like a weapon in the game
As we and once loved neighbours fall to strife
See our faces wet with bloody stains
We prefer to fight, than use our brains
Oh,wilder edges, flowers, would bring delight
If our neighbours end this goddamned fight
I shan’t be alone
In my coffin I will have no phone
At last I shall be free like new born babe
But how will people hear my mobile groans?
Who shall write my story on a stone?
I can’t ring Emergency for aid
In my coffin I will have no phone
I must have a linen sheet untorn
Be reminded I’ve already paid
How will people hear my mobile groans?
Out we go, as in we, came alone
Will someone sing for me , oh humming bird
In my coffin I will need no phone
We will die as we have lived, atoned
I hope a human person hears my words
Help us all,dear God, to forestall groans
Free from medications .free of nerves
Straight to Heaven atop our loved ones prayers
In my coffin I shan’t be alone
I want to go with all my garden gnomes
My naked flesh
On my journey into sleep I hold
A little bag which holds a tiny phone
I hold a spray of GNT to bomb
My arteries as wide as a mother’s thumb
Yet I’d like to go in naked form
Trusting in the darkness as a balm
Before all, this I loved my naked flesh
That with my loved one I might be enmeshed
Now I seem in danger from myself
My own heart is severed from its wealth
Migraine of the heart can lead to death
Through my artery I express wrath
What other mysteries can my body know?
Thank God,I only signed for Pay and Go
I pray the silent music brings relief
Underneath the silence there is peace
A stratum clear ;a different way of life
With music ‘s just discernible relief
In the calm we find a pure release
Love can heal the wounds of a sharp knife
We embrace the silence ,welcome peace
The self may break ,may shake in disbelief
Render us to fragments,soul denied
Does music give discernible relief?
Do not bury loss and hide your grief
We mourn what’s gone and those who have late died
Company in silence brings us peace
Did you see your body lying creased
On the bed below your hiding place?
Play with music, pray for some relief
I find myself lie broken in a box
A jigsaw needing time beyond the clocks
Underneath the silence there is peace
I pray the silent music brings relief
Young Men Who Chase After Ghosts from “A Small Blue Marble” by Syd Weedon
Young men who chase after ghosts amuse me,when I fight through haunted night to keep them at bay.I want to say, “Just give them time; they’ll arrive,”but I don’t want to spoil their fun. Tissue frays; sharp becomes fuzzy. Night falls.Look straight ahead, not side to side. Shades gather.Don’t make eye contact or answer, or […]
When after death I lie deep in the earth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
When after death I lie in deep in the earth
My bosom,hands and eyes become your meat
You have no sun as you enjoy your feast
And none is chosen as we were at birth
O happy worm that of my flesh might eat
All of us are equal in defeat
None are high or low , what are we worth?
My brain,my hands,my eyes become worms’ meat
In the soil, we rest in comfort sweet
Let us all be blessed,God make no curse
You made the happy worms who will us eat
O remember the deep ash from Auschwitz’ heat
The little children killed without Kaddish
Those hearts ,those hands, those eyes no worm could eat
,
Why should we be satisfied by wish
When people burn or starve beside our dish
O Godly worm that of my flesh might eat
Let my very self become your meat
Eastern Orthodox Carols
The biggest part of our minds is the unconsious

My art
https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20160315-the-enormous-power-of-the-unconscious-brain
Exract
The non-conscious mind also plays a role in more sophisticated actions, whether it’s deciding on attraction to the opposite sex, completing mathematical sums or forming political views. There are even strange cases where people who are ostensibly blind can ‘see’, thanks to the non-conscious part of their minds: a phenomenon known as blindsight.
“There is debate in the field about whether consciousness even has efficacy,” says Eagleman. “By the time your conscious mind registers something, is it always just the last guy to get the news, and it doesn’t even matter what it thinks?”
Indeed, designers and advertisers have known how to control our non-conscious decisions for centuries. By using subtle cues designed to bypass conscious awareness, they can “trick” us so that we drive more safely, navigate cities in ways we do not realise and even drink more alcohol at the bar.
Race for the bottom

From the Guardian Newspaper
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/dec/10/racism-election-defined
Rather than understanding that all racisms, while distinct, are entangled with each other, we are encouraged to regard racisms as organised on a hierarchy of severity – one that perversely mirrors the power imbalance established by the idea of race itself. The reason why antisemitism is seen as more representative of “serious” racism is precisely because it has largely been seen as belonging to a “more racist era” in the past.
In contrast, the fact that Facebook ruled Islamophobic posts did not violate its “community standards” shows that Islamophobia has seeped so much into the everyday as to be seen as something other than racism. The same can be said for the racism facing black people, migrants, asylum seekers and Roma – especially as the Conservative manifesto has explicitly committed to confiscate the property of Gypsies, Roma and Travellers. Similarly, nearly 700 people drowned in the Mediterranean while trying to reach the shores of Europe this year alone, but the rising death toll of Fortress Europe is never identified as “racism”, due to our poor public understanding of race and racism.
The struggle for life
Self portrait
Starry,starry night
Here in Babel
If I wrote the perfect poem this week
After musing on the style and words
The world would end and no-one else could speak
How would the voters feel if this news broke?
Election Day would be no doubt absurd
If I wrote the perfect poem this week
From the Mail, God seems to be a freak
The journalists by such endings are deterred
The world would end and no-one else could speak
What is perfection, when does judgment cease?
Here in Babel which tongue will declare
If I write the perfect poem this week
My pen leaks, now my paper sheet is creased
Is this war or love, block eyes that glare
The world may end then no-one else can speak
As we bite the apple or the pear
We leave the milk for infants and their tears
If I wrote the perfect poem this week
This world would end then God might find life bleak
Brexit: which side are you on?
· Daddy’s coming home
At three o’clock, we ran across the park
Then up the Wigan Road, we children roamed
Past the houses and along the fields
Looking for our daddy coming home
Looking for our daddy coming home.
I was only two or three at most
We passed our church and saw the Pope in Rome
We climbed a fence and walked by fields of wheat
Looking for our daddy coming home
Looking for our daddy coming home.
From the distance came a tall thin man
A ladder on his shoulder, hair well combed
A bucket full of paints and all his tools
Look, Paul, is that daddy coming home?
Bernard, I think daddy’s coming home!
A look of shock, a smile, a cry, my loves!
He rushed towards us, happy and transformed
What about your mammy does she know?
Yes, yes, yes it’s daddy coming home
Yes, yes, yes, it’s daddy coming home.
Oh,Mammy had no idea of it at all
She thought we were just playing by the wall
Children were much bolder and more free
But Daddy went to Heaven after that
Mam was so depressed she killed the cat
Happy in the golden fields of joy
Happy with no money with few toys
Daddy never walked that road for long
I missed him so I cut off my own tongue
There’s always cake

What a great thing Food Banks are.You can meet people like yourself and if there are enough tins of baked beans you can ask someone round for tea.I expect if there’s no bread there will be cake
I hope there will be some PG tips tea.I hate foreign food even tea. and want real tea made in England and well brewed
Gosh even if you are rolling in money you can still trawl Charity Shops in Hampstead for cheap designer wear.The poor don’t need designer clothes.I mean, they don’t even know what they are, do they?And they are hardened to the cold.Why in my mother’s era they had no shoes and when you think about it. why does the government not ban shoes for people on benefits?
I think it’s wonderful of the people in Vietnam to make a hundred T shirts a day for 10 pence
I mean, it is a job all is said and done.I once worked as waitress and it is such fun during the vacation from Oxford.We are only there 24 weeks a year so I need to be occupied but only with my consent.My mother is descended from King Charles 2nd! He had lots of mistresses, such a naughty boy.Bring back the mistress but don’t marry her
The words were wise, the sentences allured
Once an Empire , once an admired place
Great Britain should now be in outer space
We lose connections, cut them with a sword
No-one seems to know where dwells the Word
We had a language rich and full of grace
Apostrophes and commas knew their place
The words were wise, the sentences allured
Shakespeare could quote music sung by birds
We were not wrecked by theories so base
Enjoyed by French professors , what disgrace
Sentences should ring out and be shared
The circles of our culture can’t squared
Where have gone our manners and our strength?
Where indeed has gone the National Health?
We have no reverie, we have no time
Belshazzar saw the writing on the wall
The words predicted death and so it came
The mightiest king is not preserved from falls
Is there wisdom in the deep that calls
True scholarship is hard , to name unnamed
Belshazzar saw the writing on the wall
Even blatant evil, none appals
We have no reverie, we have no time
The mightiest king ‘s no safer with his gold
Counted,weighed,divided, aren’t we all?
The words in Aramaic were no rhyme
Belshazzar saw the grave there on his wall
Once old ladies smiled knit infants shawls
They had joy though death came wandering by
The King of Babylon deserved his fall
Being alive seems near to a great crime
God may die yet love burns its small flame
Belshazzar learned the writing on the wall
The humbler people are, the less the fall
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Problem pupils
What shall I do with a dilated pupil?
a) Send them to the Headmaster
b} Give them a shrinking glance
c) Look away
d) Go to an Eye Clinic
e} is she having a baby? How can you see her cervix? Are you a doctor?
My glasses are reading any advice?
A} You have schizophrenia
B} You are a witch
C} You need an eye test
D) They are a surveillance device.Throw them in the bin
My lenses are plastic
a} You have had cataract surgery
b} You are deluded
c} They are ruining the environment.Hide them if you can get them out of your eyes
4} You want attention.? Ask for a glass eye next time
I inherited 11m pounds unknowingly
You tell me how I can do it too.Are you a Royal bastard?y
The optician also takes wax out people’s ears but it does no harm and we all have our neuroses.He makes candles out of it so he says
I saw my father running after the bus
We saw the trolley bus, small, like a child’s toy
Passing the bottom of our street
Once we went out on that bus to a park
Coming back,I was sitting at the front
Four years old
watched them all get off
But I stayed still; as the bus moved off
I saw my father running after us
He was shouting, but they went to the next stop
I felt no emotion except interest.He got me
The houses up the top had faces watching us
They were at an angle
The geometry was not simple
There was the back street we went on to school
My brothers left me,I was running
A bicycle boy rode over me
Nobody came
I was five years old
He lived on a steep hill, my 6 year old boyfriend
He had lovely red hair
He let me ride his tricycle
He had to catch me before I hit Wigan Road
Which was busy by the standards of the time
I was not afraid.He was under my thumb
I was six years old
When the cat has screamed
I
I see I’m very smartly dressed today
My jumper’s striped in black and clotted cream
I have a black skirt with embroidery
This outfit was not planned in anyway
I got dressed in the bathroom, the cat screamed!
I see I’m very smartly dressed today
The skirt is from a pricey place’s sale
The jumper ‘s M and S, is that obscene?
I have a black skirt with embroidery
The opthalmologist admired my taste
I seem to dress just like our much loved Queen
I see I’m very smartly dressed today
I feel so happy , that is no disgrace
From my chair I see the sun’s gold beams
I have a black skirt , flowers in their place
I used to wear a T shirt and old jeans
When I was teaching maths and losing dreams
I see I’m very smartly dressed again
I have a black skirt on, is that depraved?
To hear your voice
The music of your voice I shall never hear. I shall never play a duo with you. Would we harmonize? Or find some compromise? Does one need to hear the sound of someone's heart, transposed into verbal music.. Or can we manage without it? Ideolect Sociolect. Circumspect? Words reveal the lost soul. But not the whole story. Play it again But this time Speak it. I want to hear the music Of you.
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Meditating over the dale’s edge
short-eared durham owl
meditating over the dale’s edge,
shadows the fields and folds
in elegant diurnal flight.
on wind-side,careful sight,
may swoop to prey
and away.
your yellow broad-eyed look,
at once both sharp and distant,
holds me.
oh,silence,
oh,wind on green,
oh,earth,
sky.
immense your held vision,
sphere without center,
pied geometer of flight,
oh, swift descent and ascent.
trees bunched by dry stone wall
call heart home


