Monsters or psychopaths

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!They who know how to split the atom but have no love in their hearts are monsters!.Krishnamurti.

I wonder if to be successful now we’d have to be monsters in at lastv a small way..Feelings don’t always carry over into actions though.Apparently 1 in 4 people in our society are psychopaths.It’s not easy to spot them as they are usually very charming.Beware of people who make big demands on you too early in a friendship.And charm is easy to learn especially  to be charming online.For then noone can see your eyes

Emotional claustrophobia

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I’ve got emotional claustrophobia and I love to be alone again

I’ve got emotional claustrophobia and I want  no more to do with men

I prefer to be with cats and trees;listening to wild honey bees.

So keep clear and don’t sit on my knees; and never kiss me or I’ll sneeze.

I’ve got emotional claustrophobia ,I need much tougher boundaries

So please don’t call on me for tea.I shan’t let you in,you see.

I like dear people very much; but never use me as a crutch.

I prefer to idle near a tree;people are too much for me.

I prefer to see you from afar and learn from my own radar.

I’ve got emotional claustrophobia and severe  psychic pneumonia

So come to visit me,one day.But  keep the silence for I pray.

I’ll give you cakes and Ceylon tea,as long as you don’t question me.

I’ll fry your bacon,boil your eggs  but never show me both your legs.r

And if you want to make sweet love,you must wear a silken glove.

Whisper nothing in my ear and that may just avert my fear.

I must be married first of course so then I’ll have a quick divorce.

Don’t lean on me for I’m not strong and I cannot keep upright long

But you have legs yourself ,you know.So use your own and they will grow

Boundaries are  useful too,as keeping clear saves catching flu.

But if you’re lonely  use a phone;don’t phone me or I will moan

I now swear and curse a lot;if you see me,don’t forget!

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Annie’s new autumn outfit

Photo0324Annie was getting ready to go out with Stan to a Wedding.She wore her newest Autumn/Winter clothes.On her lower half she wore a full,long snakeskin print skirt over a fifties style stiff petticoat whilst on her top half she wore a deep ochre boat necked jumper.Underneath  her skirt a pair of chafe prevention shorts gave her extra warmth.She debated for a while about shoes and eventually decided her teal calf length boots from Hotters’ Sale with a pair of socks from Next would suffice,She looked in the mirror.Her freshly washed hair[ with a sulfate free shampoo ] sprang from her head not unlike one  of the Gorgons’ distant relatives.

shoppingPicking up her full length leopard skin coat from Jacques Vert and her red handbag she ran to the door where Stan stood.He wore a machine washable suit from Marks and Spencer with a blue flowered shirt and striped multicoloured tie from TieRack .His short hair was covered  by a woollen hat as they were going to a Jewish Wedding and he did not wish to offend anyone with his bald head.

How does my   new makeup look asked Annie?

I can’t see it at all,Stan said shyly.Do I need my reading glasses?

It’s what they call the natural look,she replied.I have got on continuously creamy foundation in light beige over  Clarins every day moisturiser and  tjeir sunblock Factor 50.

It is so expensive that I can’t eat meat fo a month.

My goodness, Stan moaned.What shade is that  lipstick?

It’s called Romantic Rose,she said .but it’s really more a light coral with a hint of red.

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As for my eye makeup,it’s the usual purple mascara and teal eyeshadow.

Do you think coral and purple go together? said Stan  querulously.

Never mind,she replied,I am more worried about my skirt.Is snakeskin a mistake at a Wedding ?

Oh,no,said Stan.It will remind people of Adam and Eve in Eden.And the snake is also a phallic symbol which seems good..I am just not sure about the leopardskin coat.

Don’t worry she replied I have got a plain dark brown coat in pure new wool here.Shall I wear that?

Stan sat down  on a folding chair to wait for her to finish powdering her complexion with MaxFactor Creme powder and topping her lipstick with a thin coat of some preservative so that if she kissed anyone the lipstick would not bleed into the fine lines around her mouth.

Suddenly Stan’s chair folded up and threw him to the ground.

Is it broken ,he asked nervously from the doormat..

No, it’s ok.I don’t want to ring 999 now.Let’s see how it is when we get back.

Right,said Stan.Let’s go before any more chairs collapse or any paramedics arrive.

Cyclamen in winter

Waxy flowers poking through
Snow so white
Flowers bright.
Made me think of you.

I see once more your dark red hair,
Soft as snow,
On pillow.
Now my bed is bleak and bare

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Face alight,flower to sun,
I loved you.
Love so  true.
Fear by love,overcome.

Cyclamen in  the snow,
Pink and red,
Now frozen,dead.
Love was,oh,so long ago.

But never gone from in my mind.
Thoughts so deep,
Upwards seep.
Love was gentle,love was kind,


Always in my mind

Tears well up and wet my eyes.

In the land that dreams dwell in

In the land which dreams dwell in

where love and hate and life begin;

where swiftly the deep rivers flow

from those lost lands of long ago.

I wander through wild poppy fields

Underfoot the dark earth yields….

I see the flowering fruit trees start

Their blossoms gather round my heart…

I hear the sparrows sing with joy

And bees their busy wings employ.

In those lost lands I saw your face

And now I long for your embrace.

Are you real,am I deceived?

From this earth we all must leave.

Earth to earth and ash to ash

Glory,pride and boasting pass.

Leave me soon,my dearest one

For I,too, will be called on.

Just love lasts, but truth is real

Keep the to that and your ideals..

Earth to earth, we rest in clay

We must give all self away

Softly on this earth I roam

Seeking still my love and home,

for until the very end

Love and kindnss may descend.

Soft as wings of butterflies

Tears well up and wet my eyes.

My heart has melted into yours

Thus we grow and die like flowers

Beggars can’t be choosers:English sayings

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Only the wealthy can choose freely but does it refer to money or to other forms of wealth like having many friends, having a spiritual life,having a creative mind?It could apply to any of these.I wonder if new saying develop or whether our ancestors were better at creating them than we are?

She bit my head off:English idioms 1

Have a nice day.dear?

Yes,but the Headmistress bit my head off when I asked for a day of holiday next week/

OMG… where is it?

It’s in this bag.

Well,let’s call an ambulance and see if they can stitch it back on.

Do you know.I think I feel better without it!

Well you can’t go out like that! How will you see with no eyes

God works in mysterious ways.So do I.

Well,I am going to make a complaint.I won’t let this pass by.And she didn’t even eat it.

No,she bit off more than she could chew today.

She must have a big mouth.

And that’s not all.She sleeps with the caretaker as his pay is inadequate.

She’s a tart.

Well,her tongue is tart as I can testify.

Take a bag of sugar round and pour it over her head.

This is quite ludicrous.

I’ll try to do better in future.

Plank you so kuche.

Alfred arrives through the catflap late one night

Alfred didn’t like it when I shut the kitchen door so last week I showed him the cat flap..to no avail.But last night at 10 pm he walked into the sitting room looking very pleased with himself.His tailw as bushy and waving gently.He eventually went for a drink of milk.By yhen I was wondering if he would want to stay here alll night but after a while I could see him outside washing h imself sitting on my garden chair. DSC00077

Bulls

Should someone tell the government that the Royal Family are mainly foreign genetically or does being English pass down through the mother?

Why anyway do we keep calling people foreign?We are all foreign to someone!It’s a question of our viewpoint.How about in the USA.Do they call each other foreign there?

I suppose we evolved to prefer our own families but also that is where there is most violence.So love is not enough,in any case.Most of us hate our nearest ones now and then.

Is it fair for the USA to start wars but not to help the victims caused by the collapsing states in the Middle East.Why don’t they take some of the poor Syrians as well?I expect there are a good number already there and it’s a big country.

If you live in an all white English village and are terrified of Muslims,Jews,Roman Catholics and dogs how about moving to Alston in the Pennines.It’s the highest town in England and probably the coldest so it might not suit people from a hotter climate..You go there and they can stay down here in the lowlands..BTW there are a few bulls roaming free in the Pennine Way!

The past has a task

York Minster Original photo  in York by my sister Eileen.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jan_Hendrik_van_den_Berg

“The past has a task.As long as this task is not fulfilled,the past will,in spite of every control,appear in the sense of the unfulfilled talk.To be cured means to be able to move.”
“The past is not possession of a past time,the past is what it was,what it is, appearing now.
The past that is real,is real now.It’s being real in this way is not without meaning.The past plays a part;it has to fulfill an actual task for better or for worse.If the past has no task to fulfill,none at all, it will not be there.”
J H Van Den Berg
“A different existence.”

http://www.janushead.org/10-2/Romanyshyn.pdf

We are disgraced

Did God create us for the Shopping Mall

Or to ponder over weight and belly bold?

If he approached would humans hear his call

As prophets did  in mystic days of old?

Seeing God  or hearing  that small voice

May be possible no longer while we spend.

For we look for beauty  or advice on  what is choice

Instead of rosary,what else  might moderns hand?

Instead of tenderness, below, above

We hope to find love handcuffed on the rug.

And  promises are lost as well as vows.

Vibrating dildos  surround us  now like  bugs.

God has hidden for we are disgraced.

We forget  our lowness and his holy face

Biting

77be5-photo0383An apple bit by woman caused our grief

So ordinary yet an act of will.

To  think if she had merely bit the leaf

Sweet  holiness would surround each human still.

When Sylvia  bit  Ted  Hughes upon his cheek

She marked him for her future appetites.

Consciously she   looked for  kind love  sweet

But marked him more for  evil  in her rite.

Jonah was not bitten by the whale

Which let him hide inside her womb-like form

And so he was allowed in her to sail

Until his calling  hearkened him go home.

Biting wit and words can also cause much grief,

As caterpillars feast upon a  leaf..

Burned

Your love,like the blaze of a sun
Warmed me…
Your arms,like sturdy branches
Held me.d
Your eyes, like greem pools,
Entranced me.
Your lips,tender and fierce
Seduced me.
One day,your love turned to fire
and burned me.
your arms were weapons
with which to strike me.
Your eyes, now jealous,
pursued me.
Your lips,now bared like an attacking lion’s
Bit into my flesh like a demon
And the hot sun became the fire of hell
Wanting to destroy me.

Come live with me

Come live with me and be my helpmeet now

I’ll share my only bed with you  and how!

If you let me love you

I’ll darn your old gloves 4 you..

If you  come and meet me brow to brow.

Come live with me and teach me all you know

About poetic licence and Soho

I’ll mend your vacuum cleaner

And  learn expressions  meaner.

How cheerfully the hours to come will go,

Come live with me and  be my lover true

Without one,how will we ever do?

I’ll set up model railways

And learn the Jewish weekdays

Come live with me  and I will sweep your flue.

Come live with me in Norway on a fjord

I’ll  mend my Canon powershot  if I’m bored.

I’ll watch the flowers growing

And then we must be sowing.

How happy Wittgenstein’d be if he’d  knowed.

Titles?


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Goodbye ,my glove, forever.I’ll never buy another you.

Socks in last year’s theme derided.

Fail who abhor the swings of Rawmayshing.

Some her,my love? What her?Oh,her.Ooh,her!

Raise   and hold the wings  of Bevin.For we won’t see him no more.

Scarlet women,for their hair.

God never made those little green nipples.

Where the crew sucks,planes don’t fly

Build me a pillow haven by your gate,

Do sue or not to sue.That creates tension.

My mind is filled with love and also with transcendental. irrational and plain non-vulgar numbers. by the infinity aleph null at least.

Are figures always   better than deeds?

The entire class of pupils who sat the exam does not intersect with the set of those who have gained a pass in mathematics 101.In brief,you’ve all failed. and Venn diagrams can soften the blow.Never heard of them?Feeling scared of them.Go and find another double of you,W.

Logic cannot prove  bread.

Yeast can invade your comb.Then we call it dandruff.So if you are making bread,now is your opportunity….

The heart can misrule all but the fool.For he has persisted in hos folly.

Delilah  cut my hair too.

Moses saw a  burning dish.Was it King Alfred’s cakes?I have never mastered history and fates.

Why where there so many doors in Babylon?

Why does God roast people and not potatoes?

A force,a force, my quink’s gone   and I’m hoarse.

Why did Henry 8th not admit he was an illegal immigrant illegitimately descended from  one of the louses of Lancashire such as John of Gaunt? I mean,telling lies is a sin is it not? What is not a sin,nowadays?See three blind mice.

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The dark blue skirt has flown and I am all alone

The skirt that I wore,that I wore,that I wore

The dark blue skirt that I ,I I wore,wore wore.

I wore no hat

The skirt that I wore to your, your, your  funeral service

Your funeral,the skirt I wore…that day,that live long day..

The skirt that I wore has vanished away

Since the old man decided  he’d die.

It hung very well,very well indeed

It hung very well,shall we say?

It hung very well  and draped elegant I pray

When the coffin came inside,came inside ,inside…

An now it has gone,like a flag  torn from its pole

It’s gone to its home high above

Across the blue sky,it  seemed to want to fly

On that very hot day, on that day, I say.I say!

When we sent you,my dear,far away,far away

It’s not a surprise   that  the skirt has flown so gay.

For such was its nature and way,oh,its way ois own way

The colour was so stunning

Black yet blue,becoming…

It turned the heads of the men,oh the men

So instead of saying,Sorry!

They said,May we meet tomorrow?

And this to my widow’s weeds,Indeed.indeed,indeed.

.Oh,leave me alone, like a toad under a stone

I’ll never love a man again,again,again,again

I have given away my heart

And  the deep hole is full of hurt

It pains me to think he has gone.

Has he gone?

No,don’t go.

Has he gone?

No,oh no ,John

I saw him in his chair

But my hands passed through like air

And empty was my  fond embrace..

Yet smiling was his face as he saw me dressed in lace

A wedding he wanted it to be,in my dreams,

my dreams and schemes

But it was but a sad  yet well right end

To the time  here on earth that he did spend

Spend,spend,spend

A working and a  loving for a while.

So if you see me smile,I do not you beguile

I  am dreaming  about what  gives me joy  yet truly hurts

That divine dark blue skirt and  my jacket of jet black

Have gone in search  of him,yet again,again

So high in the sky, with the square root of minus pi

For ever they will fly,they will fly, oh fly!

A sign of  heavenly love

Yet  heaven was not above

But down here  with my dove.

A weeping I’ll ever be,

For I shall never feel or see

his tender touch on me

A weeping and a wailing for a year.

His foot on the stair, his benevolent ,wide eyed stare

Oh,love,oh love,my dear.

Oh love where have you gone?

You were a  kindly one

For ever I’ll be rent

My skirt tore into two

After your big do

So out of the window it flew,oh how  it flew

And  now I’ll never see

My skirt and mon ami.

In desolate devotions I shall be.

Adieu,mon petit.

You were such a darling treat.

Till  we meet again

Tot ziens

Later, my dear  one

I too shall be gone but will  we meet again?

“Humane nation”

A solitary  golden stone marks the spot

Where an ancient civilisation once had life.

It’s not a weapon of mass destruction

Except to our lies and prevarication.

We are a  “humane nation”

announces the Honourable D.Cameron M.P…….

What happened in the thirties to the Jews?

And as  a humane nation  we are, we will toss a few pence to the drowning.

We at least cannot say we didn’t know.

In such a time,even a tabloid newspaper cannot hide the truth

That we are not foreign to each other

As we struggle in our different ways

To live and work and love.

We  can’t say “but for the grace of God” we might be a refugee.

As if it has anything at all to do with God.

We are feasting while the  Middle East burns.

Oh,Nero,Oh Rome.

How we despised you.

How we judged ourselves superior…

We have not yet been put to the test.

“And after the wind, a still small voice.”

“Why art thou here,Jeremiah?”

We hear God howl

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I learned a hymn in our old  grey chapel
I realized then God ate that apple
Eve took the guilt and asked no,Whys.
Since then all women need to cty
Yet we went to church and we all sang.
The organ played and the big bells rang.
But we never heard the  answer then
till a strange loud voice called out,”Ah! Men!”
I’m not sure if we were made to sing.
Yet, what but joy can we each  bring?
The psalms will comfort us at night.
And in the dawn we see the Light.
Then we rise up and our songs float out.
The cats miaow as they run about.
The dogs join in to bark and growl.
And from the sky we hear God howl!
Ah ,men

Tell me jokes terribly

I am feeling worn out and exhausted

The summer has passed me right by

Both t he dead and the living

Are sometimes forgiving.

I note with a very loud sigh.

The radio sprung into action

A loud voice told me where to get off!

I had not touched the switch

Is my neighbour a witch?

But I did hear my late husband cough.

Later I sat in great silence

When suddenly the TV came on.

Is there some message here?

Is there an angel near?

My late husband was a   warm yet strange man.

I have lived for twelve weeks in dark mourning

But  now it is time for some  song.

Write me new sentences

Show me new entrances.

For with the living I  rightly belong.

I have been down to the Styx and seen blackness

But my life has not yet reached the  end

Make me laugh merrily

Tell me  jokes terribly

Let’s all be bad and be banned!

The straggling queue

The queue waits patiently in a  straggling line

For payment is demanded for our goods

We  no longer keep chickens ,ducks nor swine.

Nor hunt for rabbits in the green deep woods.

As flocks are ruled by farmers,so we live

We queue for buses, fill out forms when told

If  we offence or trouble ever give

We’ll soon be in the dock for being bold.

Yet is it wise  for rich folk to display

Their wealth and fortune to the passing crowd?

This is not  that loving Christian way

That asks consideration from the proud.

Modesty ,kindness, caring  are  now sins!

So beware or find that you have  been condemned

The museum of my heart

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4f9df-everyonecanwriteI’ve got just one letter
written in your hand
One short letter
I understand,
One is as infinity
compared to having naught.
I’ll keep this letter
In the museum of my heart
I’ve only got  one photograph
and that is  very old
but to me this photograph
is more valuable than gold
Time has thundered by.
Is it now too late?
But may there be a second chance?
Let’s not  accept  love’s fate.
No matter how we falter,
No matter  how we fail,
Can we still forgive ourselves
and rewrite this sad tale
One more   heartfelt smile
That will be sufficient
To rebirth a love grown frail
For once  this love was stronger
Once this  love was true;
So now we are  wondering
If we may create our love anew.
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Beginning the separate road

After the loss comes the separation of the roads we travel

I make sudden decisions to replace a chair,

get a new bright kitchen bin

But  I see that it will no longer be the kitchen you knew.

And your bed is covered in objects or clothes

awaiting a new destination.

I can’t sit in there looking at this green view

In case someone comes to the door…

I am slow on the stairs,you see.

And it’s no longer your room,, where you wrote your books

with our old cat lying across your shoulders.

Parts of it look oddly tidy

Then there are bags to divide up your possessions…books to keep?

Books to toss?

Clothes to kept  in memory?

i thought I could hear a voice speaking to me

I had kicked your red radio!

that was not your voice

This is  not a poem.

I am not myself.

Yet who else am I?

Maybe those we call mad

are  simply better at picking up signals

which the sane can ignore

but who can say which ones matter?

You are still here in your urn…

Whatever shall I do with you

Or without you.

This is not a poem

i am not dead

I am not a person.

the radio addresses me.

Am I alive?

Everything little thing  I do

makes me more separate from you.

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And therefore I am

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Freud was a deep and   bright man

He invented   neuroses , and wham!

We all  got laid faster

by this ancient master

I came to and therefore I am.

The shadows of the past haunted Jung

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When he span around

They were laid on the ground

But the mere sight of them bitterly stung.

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Adler was  the disciple number three

He  thought power was all,don’t you see?

But he lost Freud’s  hand

As  it lay on the sand

If anything’s queerer, ‘snot me

I’ll love three

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From Finland to the Phillipines

Egypt to Xanadu

From the North Pole to  the Netherlands,

I love only you.

That isn’t very Christian

Nor would it please the  Jew.

So  if I must be good,my dear.

Then I’ll love two.

When I get more holy

And know where the virtues be

I’ll  be  even better then

For I’ll love three.

When I get dark, old and grey

And soon will be no more

I’ll make Jesus happy,

For I shall love a score.

From Alaska to Andalucia

Berlin to Borneo

If God spares  me  much longer

I’ll love ninety four!

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