I remember playing with your face

Standing on your knee I saw you smile

With my childish fingers I would trace

Laughter lines and lips and how you smiled

I put my little hands on either side

And pushed your mouth together small and wide.

Then I laughed with joy that’l still abides

In the memory of our morning lives

Your eyes were blue and smiling like the sky

I loved to see you happy, see your joy

All to soon the Shadows would come by

And take away my dad your loving boy.

Yet in these little memories I can rest

Knowing my beginning was the best

A strange flawed beauty  caught my naked eye
As if some  monstrous beast is hiding near
Where deep rose clouds   hang from a darker sky

Now the rose has gone and all is grey
The night will fall and sorrow is our fare
A  shattered beauty caught by mirrored eye

Yet underneath  night sorrow there is joy
The wisdom of the  ages  does not stare
Though deep rose clouds   hang from a darker sky

Now I see some gold spread unalloyed
The artist we can worship ,love, revere
 Beauty, fearless, caught  in mirrored eye

Nature in her way will never lie
Yet she can kill  what humans   hold most dear
While deep rose clouds   hang from a near night sky

In the clouds of sadness faces leer
Hallucinations look but cannot jeer
Such beauty ,numinous ,affects my eye
While deep rose clouds  sing from a darkening sky

 

 

This icy axe has cut my heart in two

Never will I be a whole again.

Though still I cherish memories of you

The pain affects my heart, where is the clue?

The blood transparent does not leave a stain

This icy axe has cut my heart in two

The grief of death is worse than feeling blue

It’s worse than migraine worse  than feeling shame

Though still I cherish memories of you

So I will love your children in lieu

And with my writing make my feelings tame

An icy axe has cut my heart in two

Sometimes in a dream I hear your name

I waken up mysteriously feeling blame

An Icy axe did cut my heart in two

I’ll cultivate the memories, loving you