I’ve been beside myself ever since I was in the hospital. When will I get inside myself I wonder? I understand why people believe in spirits because you can really feel as if you are not inhabiting your own body that your spirit is on the ceiling looking down and watching your body moving about.

This used to happen to my husband quite a lot and also sleepwalking very very strange. I had a noise in the middle of the night and he wasn’t here so I went downstairs and he was in the kitchen with his striped dressing gown on putting water into the kettle. I asked him what are you doing and he said I’m making the tea.

I realised he was actually faster sleep and somehow I’m honestly getting upstairs into bed

Some people have killed while they were asleep like that fortunately he never tried to strangle me

And where are you when people look at your face and they can see that you are not present but you’re not consciously fantasizing but you are not there in some sense,

So I wonder about these old expressions like she was besides herself when she lost her engagement ring,

I’m interested in having a lot of old sayings the body is involved whereas I don’t think it is in modern phrases

My heart was in my mouth

Some of these things are wonderful I like them very much