Day: August 18, 2024
The trauma of no food or vocation

Is not being poor a trauma not so different from long drawn out war
Where the mother wonders how she will feed her baby
When she herself can’t have the food she needs or wants.
where doctors communicate by text
And when you phone you are told to go online and fill in an e- consult form
How can the in larticulate do this and is it why they become abusive something I don’t recommend in any case.
I suppose everything is relative as they used to say.
Can your children do their homework somewhere quiet in winter; can you heat another room?
Where do we draw the line between war torture and everyday life for the poor the mentally ill the inarticulate the frightened the ashamed?
If even a mother with a partner and the safe job and money can fail to be good enough as Dr winnicott taught necessary
How much work is it for the mother who is alone, who hasn’t got enough to eat and is then supposed to be good enough for a weeping sobbing baby
I think people will say well she shouldn’t have a baby if she can’t afford to bring it up.
I don’t go along with that statement
There’s a strong urge to procreate and it’s not happening enough now in modern society anyway
The education woman doesn’t want to lose her job or suffer too much boredom.
The teenager who’s not got qualifications may see motherhood as a career of a sort but she doesn’t know until the various board what the devans are like.
Why is it the responsibility of an individual like that to be 100% the care of this new baby when she’s never had any gift from society except schooling that she can’t learn frox.
In any case as soon as you are old or ill and can’t lead what is called a normal life society will seem grab you and put you into some institutions probably even worse than being in a real prison.
Yes there’s a lot of old people who are essentially imprisoned with no visitors and people say that they’ve got dementia so they weren’t no but I tell you they do know.
She said to me each day is like a year what do you do to past the time?
Hunt anywhere old people should not all be together similarly babies she’s not really reiness eight hours a day
Its a trauma not to live in a mixture of people. But why should a woman spend a whole life loosing after one baby when it could be it a nursery with 40 others and she could be travelling on the train into London to be a civil servant in the ministry of pensions
Oh maybe she could work in a factory where chickens come round on it and t on a conveyor belt and she has to put her hand in and pull that inners out as they go by on their way to be turned into chicken korma even with rice
It seems to me that there’s not much life it is not traumatic for many people and I wonder why that is
Grandad works in a coal mine for 50 years but he didn’t seem to be traumatized by that he was proud because in two world wars he was working under the ground and it was valued highly by the government and everybody else except those who paid the wages.
I suppose he didn’t expect much but he was married and had six children. Unfortunately my grandmother died young I never heard him complain although he did like to watch women dancing on the television I mean inside the television you understand what I mean
I saw his eyes gleam only once but I was interested by that
So how does something become a trauma like being left with six we never had enough to eatchildren of school age and their mother to bring them up?
Trauma used to be the physical injury and then gradually it became psychological or emotional.
It’s something that happens that your mind and body cannot take in and process so that it becomes a memory it’s too much so you choke on it and somehow it’s dissociated and cut off.
So you are split into parts which can’t seem to communicate with each other except through physical or mental symptoms.
Will it help to go to Walsingham and see a reluc from the heart of a boy is just been declaree to be a Saint by the Pope? If it helps why not?
Don’t talk about it these things mean something to the faithful and we all need faith at times.
Sometimes I think that heaven ans hell are in the unconscious mind
God maybe in our unconscious mind and that’s why we should respect it and be humble enough to know that there are parts of us which may be touching the sacred and therefore we need to be humble sometimes. But not humble before the government or the crazy people the populists and their hangers on
Well was it trauma when you couldn’t have those trainers that your friends had all the phone
Sometimes your mind and body can process it but it’s a big effort it may lead you to develop new skills but leave you rather shaking 9n your foundation maybe it is the lack of faith which is the trauma
Then we look for somewhere else to find the face and it could be following your bliss if you know what bliss really means which does not mean permanent joy and excitement all day long it means finding your vocation and that used to come from God and it may still come from God if we see God in a different way.
Intuition dreams interesting new thoughts finding the path was never easy
Dissociation

She left her body sitting by the bar
She observed the people from afar
She saw herself drink coffee eat a cake
She felt unreal, how should she navigate?
How courageous was this sister struggling on
Well aided by her husband and her son
She even went to art class drawing flowers
She bought some paint and thus had happy hours
For some months the chemo drugs did work
But in the end there was not much good luck
She could not breathe she could not stop her cough
After that I never heard her laugh.
Through the glass so darkly we now see.
Face to face with God I hope she’ll be
No more dissociation,no more fear.
The world is worthy of our love and tears
