Then I was afflicted  by deep shame

I wanted to reject expected pain
So pushed away the feelings of my soul
But as I did not look,they came again.

To unreality,  my self was chained
And so I did not see the image whole.
I wanted to avoid expected pain

Such vigilance  will bring  a sense of strain
And ,too, a story always here,untold
But as I did not look,fear came again.

Then I was afflicted  by deep shame
My heart, once full of feeling, turning cold
I wanted to bypass expected pain

Let no human allocate the blame
But life  was almost a blocked,I paid such tolls
But as I was afraid,fear came again.

Now I see the best way is the bold
Like the lion who sleeps in the sheepfold
I wanted to reject destructive pain
Imagined visitors kept me in chains