I thought that I would use this voice to type in because my fingers are still a little bit inflamed ;not all of my fingers mysteriously it’s the little finger on my left hand which swolle.After I had the operation on my arm in July my left thumb and wrist became very red and swollen for several hours despite the fact that the operation was on my right arm.
Life is very puzzling I went to a walk-in centre on Saturday to see a doctor; he has given me some very strong antibiotics.On the leaflet inside it says that these antibiotics can cause one to have hallucinations or to become agitated or both I suppose I would certainly get agitated if I had a hallucination unless it was a hallucination of something very good .
I suppose many people may have such hallucinations but they don’t go to the doctor because they like them. I can guess if you saw a beautiful person coming into the room smiling at you,would it matter if they were real or they were just a figment of your imagination brought on by the antibiotics?
These tablets can also cause you to get a red rash all over that looks like chicken pox The thing is how will you know it’s not chicken pox? I really don’t know I certainly feel rather peculiar. I feel as if I’m not really here whether that is due to the antibiotics all the infection or due to my being constrained in what I am able to do because of this infection
I cannot tell . I believe that they have and more and side effects but I have not read the rest of the leaflet .It was either this or becoming more and more unwell and it unable to go out so I decided to take them as the doctor seems very sensible too.
He is not my usuak doctor because on Saturday is in the United Kingdom we cannot see our own doctor but we can go to a walk-in centre and see a nurse or a doctor depending on how serious we are feeling or how seriously they think I condition is but I went straight into the doctor ;anyway we’ll have to wait and see whether his worries are justified because to be honest this is the fourth lot of antibiotics I have had since I had the operation on my arm in July
I know the feeling that I am not getting any better yet because they kill good bacteria as well as bad ones. Well they’re not really bad but there’s just too many of them in the wrong clothes it’s a bit like you, you could say it’s rather like a protest March when you get too many people crowding into Trafalergar Square or some of the London spots where political people like to wand waving flags showing we don’t like Donald Trump.
Personally although I don’t like what I have seen of Donald Trump so far I do not think there’s any point in English people having a demonstration about it and in fact they haven’t.
I was just using it as an imaginary example to illustrate a point I was making but it was in my imagination you see; it might even be a hallucination that I thought I saw a crowd of people in Trafalgar Square but it was these antibiotics made me believe that and in fact there was a nobody at all in Trafalgar Square except me and a lot of bacteria.
I thought the bacteria might stay in Trafalgar Square and let me come home at 3 from all ills if you get what I mean which will be very difficult because as well as being agitated ,suffering hallucinations I’m also suffering from confusion division and profusion
I am just teasing the computer because I am speaking and the computer is typing and it is trying to make sense out of what I’m saying; actually it’s not doing too badly really.It seems to be doing better now than the one on my previous computer so this is meant to be funny but it’s not coming out terribly funny is it?
Anyway I was looking on Google to find the name of a man who only seen on YouTube giving a lecture about Sigmund Freud and I find the book which I believe this man had written but the actual man that I saw on YouTube was not the man that I saw previously so I am getting very puzzled .Because the man I am looking for is much older than the man that I found although he seemed a very pleasant man.
Pleasantness is not all we need in men ;we need the man to be the right man even if he is not very pleasant .In fact they are very pleasant they’re all psychoanalysts so they are used to dealing with people with problems
The most peculiar thing I ever read was a man was having therapy and one day the therapist got a letter problem on his girlfriend saying that she was very sorry that he had just died. Was the therapist was upset !!
He sent a very nice letter of condolence to this girlfriend but heard no more. 6 months later he got a phone call and it was this man he was not dead at all it was a trick and he wanted to come back into therapy.
Strangely this was permitted as they could use as his behaviour to try to understand him at a deeper level ;that he wanted to shock people and frighten them because it appears that the first two years of his life his father and mother had not got on and separated when he was 2 years old and he had been subjected to a very violent environment of course he didn’t remember it; he was what we call acting it out.
It seems very peculiar to me;how did he manage for 6 months pretending to be dead I mean where was it ?D id he go to work could you eat could you sleep question mark
I think he was a very talented man because not many of us would have the imagination to end our therapy by telling the therapist that we would do it we were dead
Maybe it gave him a feeling of privacy because psychoanalysis could seem intrusive to patients as they have to say whatever comes into their head but that might make them feel vulnerable and they want to create a barrier between them and the psychoanalyst and say you’re dead and sending him and invite to the funeral knowing that he will notbe able to come at that time will be a very good way of creating a barrier
So this goes to show that you should have some boundaries so you can save yourself from being intruded upon, but it is a rather extreme to pretend that you are dead. Surely any sensible human being could think of a better way of saying I do not like this therapy and I am not going to come for 6 month besides it will save me money as well
I suppose some people would like to hibernate but it could be quite useful if we went into a coma and now you’re lying on your bed and woke up and it was next summer
Well I think I have tried this voice to typing and although it’s not too bad it’s that my just contained some errors the problem for the reader is to decide which are the errors and which are not errors. Thank you
How my heart sings 