http://www.btf-thyroid.org/information/leaflets/37-psychological-symptoms-guide

Quote:

People with thyroid disorders often have emotional or mental health symptoms as well as physical symptoms. This is especially the case for people with hyperthyroidism (an over-active thyroid), hypothyroidism (an under-active thyroid), thyroid related eye disease, or thyroid cancer.

What kind of emotional problems might I experience?

Whatever your type of thyroid disorder, it can make you feel more emotional than you felt before and you may find that your mood changes, sometimes rapidly and unpredictably. Common emotional problems are:

Over-activity

• Anxiety – a feeling of nervousness, with butterflies, heart racing, trembling, irritability, sleep difficulties

Under-activity

• Depression – low mood and difficulty enjoying things, tearfulness, loss of appetite and disturbed sleep
• Either over-activity or under-activity
• Mood swings – snappiness or short-temper which people often call ‘moodiness’
• Sleeping difficulties

What about mental health problems?

Mental health, or cognitive, problems that can occur, most often with thyroid under-activity, include:

• Difficulties with concentration
• Short-term memory lapses
• Lack of interest and mental alertness

These symptoms can cause older people to worry about permanent memory failure (dementia) but in fact they are rarely as severe as seen in dementia.

Made from a watercolour painting using digital software~By Katherine
Died after eating   my Carbonnade of Beef.Verdict: Sad but unsurprising
Got a steak knife in his eye then fell into the dustbin.Verdict:Silly
Fell out of my wife’s bed.Verdict:Womanised till  his heart wore out.Sensible
Killed by me.Verdict:Human error
Died while slicing bread with a carving knife.Verdict: no logic
Drank my urine sample.Verdict:Proved I have an infection
Fell off the roof.Verdict:common assault by the  pavement
Got a vibrator stuck in his nose.Verdict:Sexually  inadequate
Fell over a suitcase  onto the rail tracks.Verdict: train came early.Inevitable
Got too hot and dived into  the Humber: Bad memory…. he could not swim
Fell of Flamborough Head,Verdict: Not from Yorkshire, hence stupid
Fell off Micklegate Bar:Verdict:Vain
Dived into the Ouse.Verdict: Blind drunk  and ignorant of the laws of nature
Ashamed of wetting  his trousers.Verdict:Insufficient reason for suicide.Murder by persons unknown
Fell out the window.Verdict:Not sure why,

https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poem/only-bread-only-light

Will you  kindly hear my Confession,Father?
Yes, I am  here.
I have committed the wrong sins.
Any sin is wrong,dear
I mean,some people break into a bank and steal millions
Yes, but they usually end up in jail
Well, in jail I wouldn’t have to boil  my husband’s hankies
But won’t you feel sorry  for him with no drawer of neatly ironed hankies?
Maybe after a few years
Get back on track.What are these sins that you call wrong?
I am fuming with rage,madness and jealousy but I don’t let them show.I act pleasant
Well, that seems very kind to me.
Not to you.To my sister and my brother
But  our minds are not our own.These feelings arise.It is not a sin unless you do something cruel because of them
I’m unsure if I believe that.Is there no way of living where we don’t have those   feelings?
I suppose if you lived on top of a pillar in the desert but your mind might wander back
I think it would.Why do minds wander?
They get frustrated by boredom.So maybe you need something stimulating to do and then you need to be contented
I thought I was contented.But clearly I am not.There’s always somebody somewhere who  has more  then I do
You seem to have a brighter mind than many.
Yes,it wears me out.
You should  just wear it lightly
How do  you wear a mind?
In or out?
When in doubt,say nowt.
And do you repent?
I am trying
I so agree.You are but never mind.God has forgiven you now.
I’m not sure about these rites.Still,It lets us reflect which is good
For your penance look in a mirror and admire yourself three times a day
Well, that’s a very  unusual penance.Can’t I whip myself and call myself a bleeding idiot?
Now, that really would be a sin.What are you ,a sado-masochist?
Oh,dear.I have fallen  into evil ways.I hope  God won’t turn me into a pillar of salt
As a child, I thought it was a pillow of salt
We all see and hear things in our own way.
May the Lord  bless you and keep you
May he let his countenance shine upon you
Amen

https://www.theguardian.com/books/booksblog/2010/dec/15/poetry-protest-politics

” ………the Peterloo massacre in 1819, where magistrates sent in cavalry to disperse a crowd of over 60,000 who had gathered to protest for political reform.

Shortly after the massacre, in which several were killed and several hundred injured, Thomas Love Peacock wrote of it to his friend Percy Bysshe Shelley in Italy. Shelley was so moved by Peacock’s description of the events that he responded by penning The Masque of Anarchy, a poem that advocates both radical social action and non-violent resistance: “Shake your chains to earth like dew / Which in sleep had fallen on you- / Ye are many — they are few”.

At times of upheaval and unrest, is poetry’s role to fan the flames or cool tempers? Down the centuries it has proved remarkably effective at both. Against a background of civil unrest in 1970s America, Gil Scott-Heron told the world “you will not be able to stay home, brother”. In his searing, satirical masterpiece “The Revolution Will Not Be Televised” on the album Small Talk at 125th and Lennox. Scott-Heron offers a line in tightly-wrought comic surrealism; “The revolution will not show you pictures of Nixon blowing a bugle and leading a charge by John Mitchell, General Abrams and Spiro Agnew to eat hog maws confiscated from a Harlem sanctuary.” But it is as much his delivery, his voice impassioned but not quite righteous, that electrifies the poem.

Scott-Heron’s influence is evident in a generation of young British spoken word poets and performers who have emerged with a political agenda. Scroobius Pip(the name is taken from an Edward Lear poem “The Scroobious Pip went out one day / When the grass was green, and the sky was grey”) recently offered a corrective against the commercialism of his peers with “Thou Shalt Always Kill”. Coupling Generation Y’s fascination with cultural ephemera with a strain of political invective reminiscent of alternative comedy in the 1980s, he demands; “Thou shalt not judge a book by its cover./ Thou shalt not judge Lethal Weapon by Danny Glover. / Thou shalt not buy Coca-Cola products. / Thou shalt not buy Nestlé products.””

If we  leave the EU will it mean we can’t go to Switzerland for euthanasia? If so, we could make money by opening our own death centres? Like A & E.

If we commit a sin there won’t be many priests to confess to after the fall in men entering seminaries Oh, good, says Dawkins.Confess  on Twitter and someone is bound to  punish you.Whether God is on Twitter is unknown

We don’t hear the word sin much.Why not?

Why is there a Light programme on radio but not a Heavy one?

The suffering,  the imploring  faces lost
What Saviour could ignore their savage pain
Some are saved  but what has been the cost?

Sitting in our stylish,cosy house
We see them on the News and then again
The suffering,  the imploring  faces lost

Into a new Hell they’re  daily tossed
Are we bystanders watching full of shame?
They are sacrificed, what has it cost?

The Germans  thought Herr Hitler a good boss
As  for murdering Jews, were they to blame?
The suffering,  the imploring  faces  massed

Are we like them by our defence gross
Kept from conscious knowledge and so lamed?
They are sacrificed and we are lost?

Affectless and schizoid in the brain
We  came to be the devils in the flames
The suffering, the  imploring  faces ask
Can you see us,? You’ve destroyed our trust

On the Pennine Way, they kept a bull
The farmer didna like the walkers there
On the Pennine Way it wasna dull
On the Pennine Way ,ain’t no seagulls

On the Pennine Way, there were a stile
The  farmer coulda  maybe got a bear
On the Pennine Way we walked 6 miles
On the Pennine Way  and  disused rail

On the Pennine Way  there was  green grass
The farmer heard it singing with no care
On the Pennine Way there was a lass
On the Pennine Way,she had to pass

On the Pennine Way the bull was large
The farmer   claimed he’d  done it for a dare
On the Pennine Way the walk was hard
On the Pennine Way,the House of Cards

On the Pennine Way we walked right by
The farmer said he  liked  my golden  pear
On the Pennine Way we coulda died
On the Pennine Way,  Lord we’d abide

On the  Pennine Way  our courage held
The farmer said he’d cross the bull and hare
On the Pennine Way there was a field
On the Pennine Way, a mirror shield

On the Pennine the bull turned round
The farmer he was  muttering as he stared
On the Pennine Way in cap and gown
On the Pennine Way in study brown

On the Pennine Way we won our spurs
The farmer was enraged, the bull don’t care
On the Pennine Way the ghosts are fair
On the Pennine Way,my love and I

O bird surprised,  how you glared
Cruelly eye to eye
Over a dry stone wall
The force, the killing gaze
How could a human defy
This fascist force and power?
You judged like a god
By no human commandments
We stock still on the lane,frozen
A clock ticked
A hand moved
You rose like a  demon chimney sweep, straight and up
We could not  lift  our feet
From the earth
A strange kind of birth

https://www.brainpickings.org/2017/10/11/a-life-of-ones-own-joanna-field-marion-milner/

“In 1926, more than a decade before a team of Harvard psychologists commenced history’s longest and most revelatory study of human happiness and half a century before the humanistic philosopher Erich Fromm penned his classic on the art of living, the British psychoanalyst and writer Marion Milner (February 1, 1900–May 29, 1998) undertook a seven-year experiment in living, aimed at unpeeling the existential rind of all we chronically mistake for fulfillment — prestige, pleasure, popularity — to reveal the succulent, pulsating core of what makes for genuine happiness. Along her journey of “doubts, delays, and expeditions on false trails,” which she chronicled in a diary with a field scientist’s rigor of observation, Milner ultimately discovered that we are beings profoundly different from what we imagine ourselves to be — that the things we pursue most frantically are the least likely to give us lasting joy and contentment, but there are other, truer things that we can train ourselves to attend to in the elusive pursuit of happiness.

In 1934, under the pen name Joanna Field, Milner released the results of her inquiry in A Life of One’s Own (public library) — a small, enormously insightful book, beloved by W.H. Auden and titled in homage to Virginia Woolf’s A Room of One’s Own, published three years after Milner began her existential experiment. Milner would go on to fill her ninety-eight years with life of uncommon contentment, informed by her learnings from this intensive seven-year self-examination.

In the preface to the original edition, Milner admonishes:

Let no one think it is an easy way because it is concerned with moments of happiness rather than with stern duty or high moral endeavour. For what is really easy, as I found, is to blind one’s eyes to what one really likes, to drift into accepting one’s wants ready-made from other people, and to evade the continual day to day sifting of values. And finally, let no one undertake such an experiment who is not prepared to find himself more of a fool than he thought.

This disorienting yet illuminating task of turning the mind’s eye inward requires a practice of recalibrating our conditioned perception. Drawing on Descartes’s tenets of critical thinking, she set out to doubt her most fundamental assumptions about what made her happy, trying to learn not from reason alone but from the life of the senses. Half a century before Annie Dillard offered her beautiful lens on the two ways of seeing, Milner writes:

As soon as I began to study my perception, to look at my own experience, I found that there were different ways of perceiving and that the different ways provided me with different facts. There was a narrow focus which meant seeing life as if from blinkers and with the centre of awareness in my head; and there was a wide focus which meant knowing with the whole of my body, a way of looking which quite altered my perception of whatever I saw. And I found that the narrow focus way was the way of reason. If one was in the habit of arguing about life it was very difficult not to approach sensation with the same concentrated attention and so shut out its width and depth and height. But it was the wide focus way that made me happy.

She reflects on the sense of extreme alienation and the terror of missing out she felt at the outset of the experiment, at twenty-six:”

I went to a Salon
They cut off my hair
I saw it was raining
As I ran away

If you still love me
Send me a note
Or send me an octave
For I love men’ who smoke

If you are jealous
It’s not my affair
We never married
Unless we  in a lair

Give me your money
Give me your clothes
I’ll be your banker
And hear all your woes

The News  drives us crazy
But it gives us a thrill
It’s free and it’s cheaper
Than swallowing a pill

When Harry gets married
He will wear a suit
We will be happy
And wait for his fruit

Meghan is lovely
Pray for a child
If it is black
It will cause no surprise

Perhaps Fergie’s daughter
Will marry a Jew
They are not Christians
So Jesus ain’t too.

Then her dear sister
A Muslim will wed
So for a long time
They will all be in bed.

That’s why it’s better
To marry at night
You can be bedded
Before it gets light

It was dark this morning when I opened my eyes
Seemed like the trees were coming to get me
They hit the windows of that empty house
Showing me what they could do.
Storm warnings erupt from  newspapers
Like firecrackers
I gave away my raincoat
It’s been raining ever since
Though no Rabbi here  prayed for it
Palestine is burning
They need more than rainwater.
More than a Flood
The Tsunami might be almost there
I was glad it was 7 am
It’s raining

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/articles/69120/why-is-the-great-american-poem-so-hard-to-write

Extract

Poets are persons aware of aloneness and competent to speak in the space of solitude—who, by speaking alone, make possible for themselves and others the being of persons, in which all the value of the human world is found.

This belief in “the being of persons” is so unfashionable it’s almost refreshing. But if Graham’s speaker is too incoherent, Grossman’s is all too coherent, the voice of someone who—having long ago decided that he’s a poet—apparently feels no need to revise awful proclamations like this one, from “The Famished Dead”:

Now look! That other shadow is Pat, my
old nurse.
She had no body even then. She wore what
nurses wore instead of bodies in those days.
That’s why her being dead now makes no difference
to me. What’s important is still her body.
“Take it off, Pat.
Instead of breasts to suck, you wore two pins.
Instead of a cunt, God knows what you had there.”

There are humanists, and then there are hams. Grossman, here, isn’t after the choppily well-separated thing, the self-contained poem. Rather, he’s a good example of those contemporary poets who, to borrow Paglia’s words, “treat their poems like meandering diary entries and craft them for effect in live readings rather than on the page.” Certainly, Grossman’s use of exclamation points, italics, and lurid words makes his work ready made for the podium.

Of course, whether Grossman actually reads Descartes’ Loneliness at live readings is beside the point; throughout the book, the speaker, frequently referred to as “Allen,” booms his voice outward as if the reader’s skull was an auditorium. He begins one piece with the proclamation, “O Kid!” Another one starts with “Look!” Here’s a megaphone of a stanza, from “The Invention of Night”:

Song is extreme work. Help me, river sister!
It’s getting dark. Hey, sweet water! Flow fresh
through ocean’s salt. Give me some words for him
I love, so he can give words to someone else.
Start love’s gift once more:—WORDS FOR
ANOTHER.
So everybody will have something to give someone.
If not, I’ll drown you in oceans of salt tears.
Then you’ll be indistinguishable from tears.
This is Arcadia.

I read the Guardian and the Independent.I looked at the Fashion pages where I found I needed
.Special pyjamas for Xmas
A new dress and shoes for Xmas
Guidance on how to dress fashionably in January while keeping warm
To know that clear plastic is the thing for Spring
What to wear at parties? What parties?

If I got what they recommended ,I’d be £1000 in debt

I know how to survive January in style. :a long wool coat because down coats are too hot inside shops
A scarf which I made myself
Boots or shoes.
A warm nightdress and an electric blanket
For Xmas I have  clothes in my wardrobe already.I won’t buy a dress.The heating would need to be higher.I can’t afford that.

I expect they run these articles to get advertisements.

After death has overwhelmed our life
We cannot waste our time by reading tripe
We care for goodness,beauty, without strife

Severed is the husband from the wife
And in escapism she has found no hope
After death has overwhelmed dear life

Savaged is her bosom by the knife
Bitter is the taste and dark the eye
We care for goodness,beauty and not strife

The first part of the loss is just a half
Yet many wish that we should tell them lies
After death has overwhelmed our life

How can it be he’s here,but not alive?
Through the plangent darkness I must grope
We care for beauty, wish to calm the strife

Give me back my lover for one night
He will understand this sabotage
After death has overwhelmed our life
We make love with pain and dark,dark strife

I have altered the colours using Pixlr Editor online as with a chromebook you cannot download any software.
I find experimenting is fun.

I got a scanner and have just found how to scan to my chromebook.This was the nearest sketch I could find

The only way into truth is through one’s own annihilation; through dwelling a long time in a state of extreme and total humiliation. Simone Weil
Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/simone_weil_403834?src=t_humiliation

I think WordPress is very rude to folk
As on the page was,Rubbish, and be damned
Who is the demon who to me out-spoke
It don’t like the crap what I have wrote!

Ar least they could send email just to me
I don’t want “garbage” for my folk to see.
“Rubbish, you are nothing” was the line
It sent a horrid tingle up my spine

I don’t mind a tingle in my heart
Just because we’re old, love don’t depart
But fear and loathing are too much for me
I shall have to go and brew some tea

I looked again and “publish” did I see!
The Freudian errer was entirely me

Today I fill the bin with ten dead leaves
A tree that perished in the wintry breeze
A plant that died  inside the house called mine
But nothing that I read about online

Today the kitchen bin is taken out
Kleenex tissues, dirty  little thoughts
So confessing sins was that as well
Clearing out the smut that in us dwells

Boundaries round the purified,the good
Separate it from what we  think is  bad
We must not let two become confused
Holy Smoke, the lines symbolic muse!
!
I throw out stuff that should not linger here
Transgression makes the sinner feel impure.

Anaemia comes in fourteen  hundred types
The steam iron kills the germs and then ignites
Babies use ten thousand paper wipes

We gnaw the fruits of nature,tender, ripe
The kettle boils and  fuses all the lights
Anaemia comes in fourteen  hundred types

Grandad used to smoke a polished pipe
The house flies danced and mother lost her might.
Babies use ten billion paper wipes

Are my sins all mortal, do I lie?
Will the devil die and  leave me right?
Anaemia comes in fourteen  hundred types

Evil is immortal. god is blithe
He thinks,he calculates and then he writes
Babies use ten trillion paper wipes

People  queue for sales all through the night
As angels  scatter from the orange lights
Anaemia comes in fourteen hundred types
But porn  is like a nuclear bomb online

The cold wind slapped my cheeks with hands well chilled
A blind and natural force  cared not for me
A hint that I was soon to pay my bills

First consider death and make a will
There are  no autumn leaves.not much to see
The  wind  of age cracks minds as if to kill

No more  shall we climb  in  the  Cleveland hills
Not lie in heather,drowned in honey bees
The cold wind slapped my cheeks with hands well chilled

How we’re ground in Nature’s  deathly mills
A hand, an eye, an ear, we watchers see
A hint that we are soon to pay  our bills

Who  creates and who if unfulfilled
Shall make a war and set no prisoners free?
The cold wind strikes the soldiers’ eyes  like drills

To God, the orphaned infants make a plea
I look,I see those  Auschwitz silver trees
The cold wind slapped my cheeks with hands well chilled
The ovens burn, the blackbird sings its trills