I carried him alone

For onto me you brought down from above
A torment bitter and   your words unkind.

Used to  friendship from within your books

You did not understand that I was real

Irritation grew as  fierce  you looked;
You threw your poisoned  arrows  at my heel.

What once you loved then you began to hate
If not perfect then intolerable I must be
And then you cursed me with this  sorry fate
Our child was born and him you’d never see.

Illegitimate and born in desert grey.
I carried him alone from death’s dark rays