A complete wombshell to all

He had such a good session,it was enough to make a even a Freudian skip.
Her sudden marriage was a complete wombshell to us all… except the babe.
Have you never said something you meant?
He hit the dog with his Freudian whip..
She’s having a hip replacement… so Freud might wonder, what about her penis envy? Why stop at a hip when you can go the whole flog?
You may   leperously need to be analysed when you have had dreams of whorey ghosts knitting…
Do they smoke and say,”Spook, no hands?”

Golden threads

 Doodling

A deep pain woke me from my sleep.
Inside my soul there was a gap.
I tried to make it disappear;
To delete it from the map.

But still the ache persisted;
I tried hard to forget;
Till I sat down in my garden chair,
And stayed with my upset.

The sun may shine,
the birds may sing
But that to me
no pleasure brings
Because of my regret.

As I sat still upon my chair
To me three Angels did appear,
And they are with me yet.

They took my heart into their care,
With golden threads they are sewing there,
Until the work’s complete.

My task is just to sit quite still.
And let God’s angels do His Will,
As I sit  here at Her Feet.

An other lover

  • When yet another lover flees my bed
    and leaves me cold and lonely in the night,
    I wonder if it’s unkind words I’ve said,
    Or is it that my eyes have lost their light?

    I lure them in with all my female arts.
    They feel I’m like a spider with a trap.
    to lure ,devour,digest my foolish guests,
    They think there should be warnings on the map,

    But some who find me feel they have been blessed.
    I give them my attention and desire
    I give them gentle care and sing sweet songs.
    I give them comfort like a winter fire

    Oh,come back ,sweet one,don’t desert me yet,
    The clothes I washed for you are still quite wet.

Green leaves

Green leaves,in sun,in shadow,
Green leaves my heart is waiting for you,
Early sun has danced on you all day,
The air and earth conspire in joyous play.

Green leaves come out in spring time
Blossom cascades in generous gleams.
Green leaves,so many tints and shades,
Decorate so well my garden’s open space.

Green leaves,my heart is moving with you.
Green leaves,I love this golden time.
The sun and breeze upon my skin…..

He might be called Blitz

The new doctor is called Donald Bluck…
And odd name but he had good luck.
He might be called Schitz,
Or even Blitz.
He’s definitely not called Doctor F*ck.

I was 22 years old and one day,
When first I heard a young lady say:
what is that word
Lady Chatterley heard?
D H Lawrence didn’t use shades of grey.

What is the long term effect
Of admitting such words without tact?
Now they mean naught
So that someone ought
To invent a word hard to inspect.

A word like a small darting fish,
Not confined to a big round glass dish.
In the ocean of life
Not all words are nice…
Nor is life itself quite what we wish.

Words may take flight from our grasp;
Act like Cleopatra’s sharp asp.
Words kill or give life
Pattern chaos and strife….
Or give love to the dear one we clasp.

He whom I once loved

This is a sonnet which I wrote recently.I am trying to learn different poetic forms.Shakespearean sonnets are not in fashion.Nowadays rhymes and ballads are not in fashion but i find it educational to learn  or try at least the differnet forms.The form affects what topic you write about,Sonnets are often about love and hence about hate too.
Free verse is the most fashionable nowadays

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He whom once I loved I now do hate
His words and actions shared a harsh disdain
Refusing to allow this bitter fate
My boundaries now exclude his bleak terrain.
To win me, he displayed a tender care;
with courtesy and flattery he disarmed.
Then when my heart was opened up and bare.
he suddenly wthdrew his oozing charm.
His harshness ,rigid mind and  steely heart
Showed him a terrorist in my own sweet lands;
For suddenly our love he broke apart
And empty was my once outstretched hand.
Beware of charm and love bestowed too soon
Or you may  likewise suffer  dread and doom

Stan ‘s mistress invades his sacred space.

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Stan was polishing the windows again with his  black microfibre cloth.The computer was on.As soon as he finished the sitting room windows he planned to look at a google document he was co-writing with hisl girl friend Annie, on the failings of the British Empire..She only lived next door but they both liked sharing new techniques of various kinds.
He sat down in front of his computer and looked at his email.
There was one from Annie.He was thrilled!
“Hi Stan
I didn’t really want to keep some of those remarks you  wrote at the bottom of our document when we were both online,so I have deleted them.  We should have gone into chat mode.They were not related to the topic we were discussing so I know you won’t be mind.And if you ask again we can chat either online or in person about sex and people’s lives
With  my  love,dearest one ,Annie

Stan felt  furiously angry and cross.  How could she know if he minded or not?
He went dark red as if his head was bursting.What was so dreadfully bad about his remarks? He had only asked Annie if her dead husband George might have been bisexual.Stan had once seen him kissing another man  in the bushes in the park.Annie didn’t seem bothered last night.She never gave the impression to  me she didn’t like it.Maybe she’s not quick enough to react
Anyway she should not have deleted it  without asking me first.

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He sat down on his old Habitat chair [recently mended free on the NHS by Dave the paramedic,] and he  sent her an email saying he was furious with her for attacking his freedom of speech.It was unethical.It was  wrong .He must assert himself.He woul show her!
So he was not going to work with her on any more documents ever again nor chat on IM  and ask her for semi-nude photos. Of course he still loved her but his anger was too strong for him to ignore.
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When Annie got the email she was  stunned.She apologised to Stan immediately but he refused to accept it  ever  even though she begged piteously for forgiveness.
Why did he want to know if George was bisexual, she wondered.Was he saying it to try to turn himself on or me? Or is he just interested in  all kinds of sex   and human behaviour generally  ?But it was not concerned with the document which was about ill treatment of prisoners in India under the British Empire and relating it to other acts  of outrage by the Brirish   Government elsewhere.
I wanted to talk about us,not poor dead George.Whatever George’s sex life,he’s dead now.So l we should eave him in peace.
Meantime.Stan was thinking about how women were always interfering in his life,correcting him and improving his grammar.Making him cups of tea when he wanted brandy and some HP sauce   and chips with his lamb chops, not salad
He liked talking about bisexuality.It made him feel a sense of wonder at the differing habits and desires of humans.Why couldn’t she just go along with it or at least say something then rather than deleting his words secretly when he was off-line?Though maybe mentioning George was insensitive even though George was in fact dead.
He was a man .He was not going to let a woman ride over him like a steam roller. Annie must learn her place in the scheme of things.
Where is that,asked his beautiful cat Emile.
I’m not sure but it’s not above me.It’s either the same or lower.
Can’t you forgive her.She may be in another dimension,another space alrogether,another universe of discourse? [He’s been reading Wittgenstein again]
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Certainly not .No way.Stan answered,
But you love her,you said many times in here.I heard you
All the more reason to maintain some boundaries. Love is not the be all and end all of life for a man!
Next she’ll be cutting bits off me with her dressmaking shears,he cried in outrage and horror!
She’ll castrate me.She’ll turn me into a woman.
She won’t,she’s just a silly, sexy  postmenopausal woman,said Emile.She wouldn’t ever harm you.She’s very gentle,you know that,don’t you?
She has invaded me,she has crossed my boundaries.
Some people would be glad,mewed the cat.He was always hoping a lady cat would come by. and cross his boundaries or more correctly. that he would  be allowed cross hers.
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Meanwhile Annie was sitting sobbing  feverishly in her bedroom.She really enjoyed co-writing documents and news sheets with Stan.Now he won’t do it anymore,she whispered . He was really mad with her.He must be feeling upset and aggravated beyond  all human endurance.She had assumed too much and now she was paying the price as she lay  on her purple duvet cover with two boxes of Kleenex for men.
Even  finding  the Kleenex required for all her sobbing was too much for her.
She cried and sobbed loudly for a while.Her eyes were bright red and bloodshot. She was so  very sad she had unwittingly distressed dear  Stan.Life is so tough she thought fearfully.I wish I were somewhere else……maybe in Heaven with George and his bisexual lovers too, all playing harps or mouth organs  and whatever else they could find up there.
Still,there were those new neighbours who had just moved in across the road.Two brothers,both very handsome.I wonder if they like writing on the computer,she thought.That cheered her up a bit,though she was very fond of Stan.In fact she loved him greatly and had kissed him gently  many times though she had never actually gone to bed with him ;never known him in the biblical sense.Was that the problem?Too late now either way,she muttered quietly to her goldfish Wayne who agreed with her analysis of the situation.
So in her mind she was moving from loving and adoring Stan to being  loving  towards yet puzzled by him.Was he afraid of being dominated by a woman?What would he be like as a lover?
Why try to talk about bisexuality?Could he not have thought of something else? Like female  orgasms or kissing better?
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There was a new book by Betty Dodson teaching  frozen women how to have orgasms.Would he have enjoyed discussing female anatomy and pleasuring her naked female body and all the rest,[she always liked  kisses on her  hands ,he knew that.]
Well,she would never know now.That was certain.Thank God I’ve found out what he’s like before things went any further.He might be a little too dominating.Though a certain amount is neccessary for the  consummation of love.She was so upset her thoughts began to turn towards women.
Would it be better all round to love a woman instead?Especially as I could show her how to have an orgasm having being studying this book for some weeks?Though she may already know,I guess.Still,a change is as good as a rest, so  the proverb says.
How do I find a woman who’s into other woman,, she thought.Can I find one on the internet?Will there be a club we can go to? How exciting!
So Annie grew more optimistic.A woman wouldn’t mind a few words deleted from a chat either.So a feeling of mild joy came over her and her sobbing died down.
Stan was sitting in his kitchen feeling superior and dominant.Except Annie had not come for coffee so it was hard being dominant all by himself.He began to feel depressed and morose.Should he change his mind?Would he lose his window of opportunity?
Why is life so trying.Why are women so manipulative, why do they all turn out fakes and bitches,he asked Emile.Why won’t they love me as I am?
It’s partly one’s own character,Emile replied.
Hearing this Stan lost his temper and threw  the kettle of boiling water at Emile.Luckily it missed but Emile stalked out and went off to the shed leaving Stan more alone than ever.
How hard life is Stan shouted. I feel like topping myself. I”ll jump off the roof. of the civic centre.I ought to ring the fucking Samaritans helpline.
Just then his wife Mary walked in.
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What’s up Stan?
Nothing dear.I just dropped a brick on my toe
Why have you got a brick in here,in the lounge?
I was playing with it.
With a brick?
Well,it has a certain cold masculinity,he replied
Cold masculinity?. Shall I make some drinks?
Yes,please,dear
Oh,look there’s Annie walking past arm in arm with a woman.
I knew George was bisexual but now I see she is also or maybe she’s turned quite gay! Were they both gay?Is that why she only kissed him and never went any further?
Well,it’s not our business,said Mary quietly.
Aha,thought Stan.That’s what you think.If only you could see inside my mind!Inside his mind though ,he was wondering if Annie would ever see him again.But I will not forgive her,I won’t.I won’t!
What he might have said more truthfully was “Can’t”
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For indeed,it is hard to forgive people for trampling into one’s sacred space even if it is an accident or misjudgment not a deliberate attempt to dominate.but …….
Life is sweet and yet very hard too.but as it’s the season of goodwill let’s pray it alll works out before the Atonement or the Last Judgment

Cyborgs UK

http://youtu.be/coK8keCXztk

I am just a metal cyborg and I’m ok
I touch the lives of men and boys all day..
I have no body and no soul
No constructed cyborg’s ever quite whole.

My body is a can of Heinz baked beans
My mind’s a wee computer filled with screams.
I have no guardian angel as I’m canned
From paradise I know I am banned.

We do have our uses to help mankind
As we don’t suffer agony in our minds.
We can pilot war planes and bomb where we’re told…
We don’t need courage for tin is very bold.

When we’ve served our purpose we are tossed
Out with the rubbish and the dross.
We’re a kind of supplement to God’s own folk..
I believe he thinks we are a joke.

Some of us have heads and some have tails
We are often found in New South Wales.
We never go to school or learn to speak,
Mainly because our voices can’t do anything but shriek

I’m but an adverb passing by

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I’m but an adverb passing by,
She says she loves me,does she lie?
I’m parsing all her bills and notes,
And then I’m listing many quotes.
The plumber’s fixing up the nouns,
In case some name should chance to drown,
and in the cellar stands a box
For storing wolves and sheep in flocks.
Where have all the nouns gone to?
O,dear Lord, one’s in my shoe.
Put them on the washing line,
While I create a new design.
Grammar needs to be revised,
For many rules are now despised,
and words go weeping through the day,
as no writers want to play.
Do you like the perfect tense?
Does creation still make sense?
Latin was not hard to learn
Now I’ll try Double Dutch in turn.
After that, if I’m still here
I will study atmosphere.
Hebrew is all Greek to me.
Why not construct a language tree?
Everything must be combined,
Or our dear world may  soon untwine.

The most introverted pupil of them all

I came home and told my mother I had done well in the end of term reports

Top class in obstinacy.
An alpha double plus in sulking.
And a prize for being the most introverted pupil since records began in 1066

So she said You’d better be a writer.Telling lies like that will be an asset…
I said,they are not lies,mother.They are judgments.
So she said,how about doing law?
Law,I said,I need creativity…
So she said,chance would be a fine thing.BTW How did you do in maths?
I’m not doing maths,mother.
She said,so why are you reading,Algebraic Topology for Dummies.
I said,Is that maths?
So she said,you tell me..what else could it be?
Poetry,I cried…
So she said,Well you could have fooled me…..where are the rhymes,the meter and the verses..
I told her,poetry is an attitude of mind…..
And she said she did mind and made me cook the tea..I never knew before that you didn’t just brew it.. so we had tea sandwiches and lice cream and then read Hobson’s Voice.What fun it was being an adolescent.Why if I’d known suicide existed I’d have plunged right in,if you see what I keen

My favorite flower

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Waxy flowers poking through
Snow so white
Flowers bright.
Made me think of you.

I see once more your dark red hair,
Soft as snow,
On pillow.
Now my bed is bleak and bare

,
Face alight,flower to sun,
I loved you.
Love so  true.
Fear by love,overcome.

Cyclamen in  the snow,
Pink and red,
Now frozen,dead.
Love was,oh,so long ago.

But never gone from in my mind.
Thoughts so deep,
Upwards seep.
Love was gentle,love was kind,


Always in my mind

When friendship and esteem have been foregone

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When we have strangled virtue before birth
And evil thoughts are all that we can find
We cannot take a draught of cheerful mirth;
Escape from this black prison in the mind.

When friendship and esteem have been foregone
And lone as buzzards circling are our hearts.
Remembrance of past joys will never come
And soon from us the last love will depart.T

When wickedness draws down our minds to die
And hatred seems to cloud the very sky,
When we don’t watch the winter geese go by
When all we do is moan and weep and sigh

Let’s keep in mind there’s much we have not lost;
Hold well our hearts till this dark grief has passed.

Live like it’s heaven on earth

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“You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching,

Love like you’ll never be hurt,

Sing like there’s nobody listening,

And live like it’s heaven on earth.”

― William W. Purkey

“Plea for a measure of abnormality”

Should all who live be forced into a mould
and aberrations be abhorred like fleas?
Are we who differ thrown into the cold…
Or tossed alive into green wintry seas?

The mere normal’s a poor measure of life.
For what is normal,how is it defined?
And is peace normal,or should we say it’s strife?
And what is normal speech?Is it refined?

Each of us has need to find a place
Where we can stand as on a hidden rock.
We need true pride and  with it we need grace.
Soon then our precious talents will unblock
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In strangeness even oddness,there’s much good,
Let’s kill not hope; let’s change our hearts to glad.

To come: plea for a measure of animosity!

Window

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This is article very interesting especially as we rarely learn much now about the connection of English with Old Norse.No doubt the Government don’t believe it will add to our ability to gain employment stacking the freezers in supermarkets with horsemeat burgers or similar activities.

I found this in wilipedia .. link below

Etymology

The word window originates from the Old Norse ‘vindauga’, from ‘vindr – wind’ and ‘auga – eye’, i.e. “wind eye”. In Norwegian Nynorsk and Icelandic the Old Norse form has survived to this day (in Icelandic only as a less used synonym to gluggi), in Swedish the word vindöga remains as a term for a hole through the roof of a hut, and in the Danish language ‘vindue’ and Norwegian Bokmål ‘vindu’, the direct link to ‘eye’ is lost, just like for ‘window’. The Danish (but not the Bokmål) word is pronounced fairly similarly to window.

Window is first recorded in the early 13th century, and originally referred to an unglazed hole in a roof. Window replaced the Old English ‘eagþyrl’, which literally means ‘eye-hole,’ and ‘eagduru’ ‘eye-door’. Many Germanic languages however adopted the Latin word ‘fenestra’ to describe a window with glass, such as standard Swedish ‘fönster’, or German ‘Fenster’. The use of window in English is probably due to the Scandinavian influence on the English language by means of loanwords during the Viking Age. In English the word fenester was used as a parallel until the mid-18th century and fenestration is still used to describe the arrangement of windows within a façade. Also, words such as “defenestration” are in use, meaning to throw something out of a window.

From Webster’s 1828 Dictionary: Window, n. [G. The vulgar pronunciation is windor, as if from the Welsh gwyntdor, wind-door.][3]

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I love this poem

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silhouette of us pressed
on a photograph left
a history of our past
winding through my
thoughts as i re-examine
the sweet early years of
our dear life
short-lived by the horror
of one rainy night

i feel your cold hands
visiting me while
i dream about you
and your absence
makes me long
for you first thing
in the morning

my tears re-visit me
over the cycle of years
and i travel the road
without you and
this is more than
a misery unwanted

darker are the nights
bluer are the days
abandoned like me

you left me dreaming
a home with you
but you’re gone

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Now there is no vertical

When you struck me,I vibrated like a kettle drum,
then as smaller percussions and repercussions
echoing from all the glassy surfaces
creating a balletic geometry of sound tracks
in space and time.

When you knocked me down,
I fell against her and her and her;
we were like a row of skittles
and we all went down with the lifeboat;
The infinite chain of being is.

When you hit me,the Fall spread across the world
Now there is no Vertical
All is undivine and graceless.
By the Rod it’s ruled

When you left me,I left myself,the world,the rocks,dry land
I weighed down sank to the ocean bed
with coral eyes
gazing.

When you struck my mind
I became an instrument of a foreign power
Singing a song I didn’t know.

When the glass was smashed
the splinters flew into all our hearts.
You didn’t know what we couldn’t see.

I lay on barren ground and gave birth
To my own Creator in the desert.

The Conscientious Objector by Karl Shapiro

The Conscientious Objector

The gates clanged and they walked you into jail
More tense than felons but relieved to find
The hostile world shut out, the flags that dripped
From every mother’s windowpane, obscene
The bloodlust sweating from the public heart,
The dog authority slavering at your throat.
A sense of quiet, of pulling down the blind
Possessed you. Punishment you felt was clean.

The decks, the catwalks, and the narrow light
Composed a ship. This was a mutinous crew
Troubling the captains for plain decencies,
A Mayflower brim with pilgrims headed out
To establish new theocracies to west,
A Noah’s ark coasting the topmost seas
Ten miles above the sodomites and fish.
These inmates loved the only living doves.

Like all men hunted from the world you made
A good community, voyaging the storm
To no safe Plymouth or green Ararat;
Trouble or calm, the men with Bibles prayed,
The gaunt politicals construed our hate.
The opposite of all armies, you were best
Opposing uniformity and yourselves;
Prison and personality were your fate.

You suffered not so physically but knew
Maltreatment, hunger, ennui of the mind.
Well might the soldier kissing the hot beach
Erupting in his face damn all your kind.
Yet you who saved neither yourselves nor us
Are equally with those who shed the blood
The heroes of our cause. Your conscience is
What we come back to in the armistice.

Karl Shapiro

The difference between sin and crime

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The best exposition I have found on this comes from  the Judaic religion.I am sure that in other religions there are similar expositions but I have not found any yet.This one is also good because it’s about the Day of Atonement and whatever our religion we all have a lot to atone for..

http://www.biu.ac.il/JH/Parasha/eng/vayelekh/suc.html

Ripoff Report | iolo technologies, LLC Complaint Review Los Angeles, California: 1039788

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Beats like my heart

Clock on the mantelpiece beats like my heart

More regular.not affected by emotion,vision,thought.

Cats stand proudly in their grey stone bodies

As if at the entrance to some other world.

The heating comes on with a bump,

and suddenly darkness has come to earth.

Clock,clock forever beating,

Will my heart outstay you?

will you tick for someone else?

Though strong in silver case

you feel nothing

give me another heart instead

to share my feelings.

Let another heart beat alongside mine,

and we’ll be tuned in unison,

sing our song of love,

or heartbreak.Human,made of flesh

We will drop like leaves

still the infernal clock beats steadily

controlled by,not love

but radio waves.Imagine now

these waves multi-layered across the earth

carrying shopping lists,time,date.

whilst we go on living ,

hearts fluttering  like a cloud of butterflies,

see they go now

climbing away

into the soft tenderness of your hands

So wonderful.

I am so narcissistic I reblog my own posts.

I am so egocentric I look in the mirror when I am walking down the ahigh street and keep selfies of myself in my head

I am so beautiful I have to wear a veil in the bath.

I am so logical I deduced I was dead as I had not moved all night… but then I remembered Descartes and got up.

I keep mentalising all day and dreaming all night.Where will it end?

The North facing coast of Norfolk UK

Long pale sands,
the strand,the white topped rollers,
holier than the Eucharist,
sun kissed waves,
three coloured cliffs
Whiffs of scent of broom and gorse
winds make us hoarse
sea salt coarse
oh,  to be walking there with you
And the sky so blue
Higher than any view

From those lost lands of long ago

In the land which dreams dwell in
where love and hate and life begin;
where swiftly the deep rivers flow
from those lost lands of long ago.
I wander through wild poppy fields
Underfoot the dark earth yields….
I see the flowering fruit trees start
Their blossoms gather round my heart…
I hear the sparrows sing with joy
And bees their busy wings employ.
In those lost lands I saw your face
And now I long for your embrace.
Are you real, am I deceived?
From this earth we all must leave.
Earth to earth and ash to ash
Glory,pride and boasting pass.
Leave me now,my dearest one
Soon I too will be called on.
Nothing lasts but love is real
Remember that and your ideals..
Earth to earth, we rest in clay
We must give all self away
Softly on this earth I roam
Seeking still my love and home,
for until the very end
Love and kindness may descend.
Soft as wings of butterflies
Tears well up and wet my eyes.
My heart has melted into yours

And thus we live and die like flower