We think but do we know?

8282959_f520I used to love my mother
but then I got too old.
She didn’t want to feed me
Because I felt the cold.
My feet and hands were purple
which she told me was wrong.
I couldn’t change the colour
so had to change my tongue.
I used to love my father
Until he went away.
They said he’s with the angels
and small girls ought to pray.
And then I loved the cat we had
And all four kittens too…
Until my mother got fed up
and sent them to the zoo.
I said I am disheartened
Life is far too hard…
or else I’m hypersensitive
and must become a bard.
I loved a Spanish waiter.
A young man from Peru.
I loved a lot of others–
No more than ninety two.
That is just an estimate
An average, a norm.
It’s what I told the doctor

When he filled out a form

He said to me,You err,my dear
And I mistook his speech
I thought he meant he loved me.
But he just meant to teach.
What he meant was quantity
is not what we desire..
One man is sufficient
Unless he is a liar.
And in the darkness of the bed
What matters is their smell.
Some men smell like honey..
much more I cannot tell
for though these men pursued me
I had such poor eyesight
I didn’t  see them properly
especially at night..
I was more keen on Wittgenstein.
and whether I am real..
Maybe I’ve gone crackers

And don’t know  I’m surreal

I don’t want any lovers now
for love brought so much pain
I’d rather be a jellied eel
than fall in love again.
But friendliness and welcome
Are what we humans need…
And cats and dogs and willow trees
Which don’t make our hearts bleed.
One man is sufficient
And necessary too..
Without my own sweet husband
whatever would I do?
He listens with his heart and soul
And he is never harsh…
He likes to hear me singing
Across of Southwold Marsh.
He likes to take the ferry boat
Across the River Blythe.
But now I hope the ferryman
will not yet arrive..
We have to cross that river
We have to let life go…
We have to be untied and freed.
We think,but do we know?
In the silvery moonlight,
Time gets her own  way
In the darkness of the night
Time will have her say.
Time has come and gone again
And so the hand descends
So I bid you fond farewell,
We have reached the end.
Oh,wrap me up dear mother
in my winding cloth
Take me in your ancient arms
for I have had enough.
I’ve loved and loved and loved again.
I’ve puzzled and I’ve pained
but all I want’s a writing tool
To write down words again

In therapy with a flea doctor

  • My analyst says I have got a transference gnosis so I am saving up for a dictionary before I flea associate again…
    He said I have got a middle of the road personality disorder.
    He also said I am floundering on genius.How intriguing is that?
    My O.U tutor says he can teach me Nothing…just what I wanted
    My elocution class is electrocuting on stage soon.
    My intelligence is so high nobody can reach it or me.
    My lips stung last night….friendly fire.
    My nose feels odd… shall I add one?
    My eyes are blue but I am happy anyway.
    my dog has gone white overnight….from one excuse to another.
    I begged his pardon and he ignominiously scored over me.
    He wrote on his head,I am Bald….. he’s not so good at spelling is he?.
    I have lost my American express bard.
    I am so slim I can sleep on top of a radiator but my husband says it’s unfair… well he can diet…or become a radiator…love is not love unless you change your phrases

The fleas have flu and/or men might have hearts not just arteries.

Autumn 2013 012

A tall  cat may spook bats on the wing

A man is intuitively as wrong his bleakest thinking
A change of mood might be a test or a wonder.
The devil is only  man’s best fiend
A blog is a human’s testing  field
A drowning man will clutch at a see saw 
A n evil wish in its ways corrupts not  just the head but the  art 
A fool and his heir are soon parted with my truth comb
A friend in deeds is a friend who plants seeds
A folding key can only  open a folding door
A house divided against  itself  must not stand  over the cracks in this pavement as it may cause an interpretation following a transference  pure gnosis
My Waitrose card stopped wanting long a groan
My credit card has expired and will be buried tonight.Please come with both money and love.
The dog died last week  and now the fleas have flu… or is it floan?
I am  the only woman with a discredit card.Wink at my repution today.
He said he would uncredit me with a £100.Has he not heard of negative numbers?
Percentages are very misconceiving

I misperceived him as well as he was allowing a schism in his mind

He deceived me more than most as I am too naive with men..I assume they  have hearts not just arteries.They are veined too!

Summer of love

lighter tree

Shimmering light
The lily pond
The music of your eye
The touch of your arm
Your always honey smell.
I love.

Rustling trees in a row,
A wide green lawn;
People stoop to see small flowers.

A snail on the path.
The perfection of the shell.
I believe

Unusually tall dandelions
at the edge of this wood
Wave in the warm west wind.
We smile.

Sitting pen in hand
I wonder what I would have written
In all the letters I’ve not sent you.

Far away on the Ridgeway,
Cars, like ants,
Rush towards the motorway.
They make us laugh.
How green the meadows
How fresh the old trees.

I gaze at you.
I find I am.
It’s mutual.
We are.

It’s here.

Why are the poppies grieving?

 

This is just some ideas for making a poem later on

 

Why don’t we talk more gently?
Why don’t we look more intently/

Why don’t we live  presently ?

Why were the poppies growing so wildly?
Why were the battlefields growing nightly?
Why did we murder  men so lightly?
Why did we not love more rightly?
Why are the poppies  covering the soil  so  politely?
When did the young  soldiers   leave so frightfully?